sth tat i finally discover lately

ever since tat day when i found out his other h/p no, i hv been thinking quite a lot.... i knew a long time ago tat he had tis new no for tat bloody bitch to contact him n vice versa but i din noe bout the no til recently..... n i..... i felt so irritated n disturbed..... so i had tots of cancelling the 2 lines i sub to him since he no longer needs it..... then i remembered tat he once told me "i will go on using tis lines tat u give me until u stop the services. i will keep tis line on all the time for u to call me anytime." i asked around my closest frens n they advised me to stop the services since he has his own other no oredi..... they were asking y i still din wan to stop the service cos we hv oredi broken up oredi n no longer need to keep in touch.... frankly, tats wat i tot too! n frankly i oredi had a solution n the solution is to keep the line til when i m about to move hse. on the day of moving or a day or two later, i will go n stop the services of both lines n then drive to his office n leave all his blongings to him n then go home n the next day start a new life but i do not noe how many ppl will actually by my solution.....

jz now when i was cleaning out my bookshelfs, i came across all those things he n i had together n letters i wrote after he confessed of cheating n promises to change for the better but i realised tat all was never meant to be...... during tat time, i actually had a choice of leaving of him or stand by him but i chose the second one n suffered for a yr since making tat dreadful decision...... i still remembered tat the reason i chose to stand by him is bcos i blieved tat he will stop all his doings n stay viv me for the rest of our lives but i was wrong..... he will never change.... he will never noe how to appreciate me n my doings n my love for him cos he never c me, never put me in his heart at all..... its like i m jz a past time for him while he finds himself as well as look for better ones............ then my mum saw his video cam n asked me... when i said tat it blongs to him, she asked me to return to him since tat we were no longer together..... i hv been thinking bout tat a long time ago n was thinking tat when i return all his things, it will include tat when i moved hse n stop services of the lines........

i do not noe if i wld actually start a relationship anytime now viv the same attitude of 3 yrs ago..... i do not noe if i wld actually forget all tat happen esp things tat happened after he confessed...... watever happened in tat 1 yr after he confessed pained me to the core n left me shattered esp wat he did on the 15th of april 2007........ i guess i will never forget tat day n wat he did for the rest of my life!!!