29th of May 2009

so fast oredi come to the end of may d..... n dinner is next weekend..... i m starting to feel nervous...... nervous if i will hv stage fright on the real day n make mistake..... 1st rehearsal on wed nite for razak dali (RD) to qc n i wore the boots tat i newly bought on tues nite.... n sufferred toe ache after the 1st rehearsal b4 RD came..... n i changed to my comfy white 'mousy' flats n the 2nd rehearsal was perfect...... i cld not do a split viv the boots at the surface n my rubber soles does not go viv each other...... i end up stuck halfway splitting n fell to the side...... the 2ns rehearsal was better after changing shoes.... at least my feet dun hurt anymore..... n i did the split nicely n gracefully compared to the 1st....... when it came to tango..... 1st time ard, he was ok..... 2nd time, he crashed on me so hard even harder than last thurs' rehearsal at YMCA..... so i told him tat if he were to crashed on me so hard on the real day, i will fall off the stage d n he laughed n apologised.....

next week, will b practicing fr tues onwards...... i bet i m going to hv a hell of time considering tat i will not b having enuff sleep...... luckily, i m on leave from 9th onwards for a week for exam preparations...... lately..... i felt tat i hv been dreaming of my dance partner too much...... dun noe y oso...... ada saja mimpi nia...... funny funny 1s oso hv...... romantic 1s as well..... how come i dun dream of the guy tat i like to c in the dance group ar? hmmm........ hope tonite will dream of him la..... hahahaha!!!! anyway, wish me well for the coming week til the real day.... pray tat i dun do mistake..... hope everything goes well be it rehearsal or the real day...... pray tat i will overcome tis stage fright feeling in me...... gambateh, pg region 1!!!!!!!!

23rd of May 2009

hv u read the news today? well.... i read n came across a stupid remark by the BN to the PKR..... BN is asking PKR to accept the court's decision on BN's winning of the MB post in Perak...... dun u think BN r suppose to accept the court's 1st decision tat PKR is the legal n riteful MB??? did they accept the fact? NO!!!! they filed an appeal n now tis stupid 2nd decision n such funny remark by them..... all tis while i dun really like politics n never read abt it..... but since last yr's elections where PKR won in PG, i started to look out for their progress...... n now viv the Perak crisis, i read more..... but all tis fightings r really getting to me n felt it a nuisance....... n after so long, i felt tat the best solution to all tis is to hv a fresh election for Perak alone to c who will win instead of all tis court appeals n fightings n giving funny remarks...... i felt tat the sultan shd dissolve the assembly n push for a fresh election instead of 'zhau sau pong kun'....... the ppl chose their most trustable politician to help them improve on their well beings n not indulge in tis kind of fights...... since all tis catfights started, i m sure a lot of the ppl's interest hv been left hanging.... y? bcos they cld not even b sure who is the legal n riteful MB!!! y can't BN accept the fact tat PKR won the elections last yr? tis is not sporting at all..... wat is more important r the ppl's interest...... i bet not oni the Perak ppl r getting bored viv all tis catfights, the rest of the ppl r oso getting bored!!!! i can still remember wat Zubedy wrote on 26th of February to all the politicians... i hope he can do the same again for the perak ppl...... i m really sick of all tis catfights btw the top posts n the ppl's interest r all hanging n undone for...... if its tis way, y election? y politicians? might as well the ppl do everything on their own n do away viv all the politicians...... its embarassing to tell ppl tat i m fr m'sia n all abt the best of m'sia when all tis is happening....... ppl abroad look to us for we can hse multi races n still stay united but now? no wonder youngsters of m'sia nowadays r more towards migrating...... i dun deny tat i oso think the same......

i hope all tis ends n gd things will start...... really sick of reading newspaper viv all tis catfights in it....... plus, i m jz voicing my opinion..... i dun mean to hurt anyone...... it had been kept in me for so long n today's article jz hit the spot to voice out......

21st of May 2009

started the week not wanting to continue viv the dance practice as i realised tat i cld not finish revising for my exams next mth..... but when i told my abm my wish, he told me off n tat i can manage both...... i m worried tat i may not get thru tis round as its getting tougher n i can feel it..... but i really cant do anything d except accepting tis fact..... next yr, i will make myself clear tat i will not attend the dinner d..... easier..... n if i fail my exam tis round, i will never heed anything he ask me to do d.....

anyway, back to the dance practice...... last thursday, i was supposed to go to EQ for a rehearsal for the PAD director to c but i fell sick.... so sick tat even awake, i felt very dizzy..... i was on mc tat day so i did not attend the rehearsal..... mana tau tis monday during practice, i was told tat they had change the grand finale steps!!! pening liao... meaning all tis while we hv been practicing the wrong steps.... haih..... plus, last thurs, the rest had practiced at EQ.... so those who din attend missed everything.... so hv to learn again....

the usherettes were ask to go to RM office as well on the same day to take their body measurement for their dress as well as a briefing viv ms chong.... when there is so many ppl there, one the male dancers did a very very malu thing..... he was carrying his partner to the other side of the hall so tat she dun need to run later to get in place for tango.... mana tau, he fell down after 2-3 steps carrying her..... all of us stopped to c them, shocked!!! luckily nth happened.... n it was so malu as everyone was there staring..... hahaha!!!!

i was given off on tues as my partner was to attend court hearing for a case for PBB n i heard tat sth funnier happenned..... while dancing, dun noe which idiot farted n it was so smelly tat everybody stopped halfway n quickly rushed for the window to get fresh air..... according to my coll who went, she said it's so smelly tat she felt like vomiting..... really wondering who wld hv done it man!!!!

wed practice was like usual n khomar quite satisfied though he felt tat all of us were so sleepy n tired.... he played the grand finale song n asked us to dance freestyle but everybody was stunt n jz stood there looking at him, who was so in the mood for dancing..... then, he said tat he felt all of us r still very shy towards each other even after so many weeks dancing to together.... but fact is, yes.... most of us still hv the shy feeling...... wat to do? haih....

today, we had a combined rehearsal at YMCA..... everybody was there n i was panic n shaking as there were 100 over ppl there..... never danced b4 in front of so many ppl..... luckily after it started, i felt better n got over tis feeling..... n while doing the half split, i mz hv done it wrong cos i sprained my ankle.... the 1st time, it was not so as it was jz normal pain..... the 2nd time around got worst n my ankle started to swell..... n, while hving to deal viv the pain, my dance partner pula came to position too fast tat he crashed towards me during the 2 times rehearsals n i almost fell.... luckily he was fast emuff to pull me back or i really fall d.... then he kept apologising..... the 1st time ok la cos my ankle not so bad ma..... the 2nd time, he crashed towards me harder than the 1st time n viv my painful ankle, i was lagi wan to fall..... oredi so unbalance due to balancing on 1 leg.... haih.... my dad jz massaged my ankle for me nia n hope tat it will b better tomolo..... i m thinking if i can drive to work tomolo as i m driving a manual car.... hmmm...... any volunteers to b my driver? nah.... nobody wld wan to go to tis extend for me wan la..... who m i wor?..... i m myself n i m single...... no life partner to care for lo...... but i m not worried cos i noe i will b strong for myself....

07th of may 2009

today had my dance practice viv a visitor.... our trainer's leader came to check our dance practice is up to which level.... n she is such a bloody idiot tat zam n i hated her so much..... i bet the rest oso felt the same..... anyway, we practiced in front of her n she was pin-pointing our problems n wan us to dance like a professional.... but f**k, we r NOT professional!!!!! we r bankers!!!! but then, we cant say a word so jz hv to follow like a lamb..... we danced n danced n danced til she is satisfied but luckily, she did not pin-point at our dance so much compared to the 1st group... the 1st group kept on forgetting their steps n our trainer oso very frus viv them.... though they made it thru viv mistakes, the leader was not very nice.....

worse of all, when ppl start concentrating on my doings, i will start to panic n do wrong.... n i did when she was looking at our tango..... i danced wrongly n my partner, daniel was asking wat i m doing n y i skip step..... i jz replied tat i was being panic..... but he was nice enuff to support me back n i start to calm down a bit.... luckily he was there when i was panic.... if not, i sure kena scolding d..... oh ya!!! today, our trainder add the last step to our can can dance.... n wat was it? its a split!!!! asked us to half split on the stage at the end of our dance n for tat split which tat idiot leader is not satisfied viv esp when one of us kept holding her skirt up when we r suppose to leave it down.... until she did it rite, we hv to repeat spliting.... split til my left knee oso bruised d..... haih..... so ko lian lo...... next week still got sum more lo.... die liao la.......

06th of May 2009

the past few weeks since my last blog had been very very hectic for me... so much to do n yet so little time to fit all in my schedule.... 1stly, my leave for may was rejected xcept for 15ht which i forcefully insist on getting it approved..... 2ndly, the dreaded event of the yr is finally here n will b graced by our bloved Tan Sri Chairman on 6th of june at none other than The Equatorial hotel..... i did not wan to attend at 1st but was forced by the mgt n so i gave in thinking i will attend halfway n then leave early.... manatau, 3rdly, i was chosen to take part in the staff performance!!!! i did not wan to but i was given no choice.... i was ordered to take part even when i rejected n so landed myself dancing during tat dreaded nite!!!! luckily, they asked zamnah to accompany me.... n so we went for the practices n tis is wat we r doing......

its an 8min dance viv 5 diff songs n 4 groups of ppl dancing....

Group 1 : Wild Wild West comprises of 5 gals n 5 guys
Group 2 : Can Can Gals comprises of 14 gals (i m 1 of them)
Group 3 : Guitarist comprises of 6 guys
Group 4 : the 'lalat's comprises of 5 guys

group 1 will dance 1st viv their partners n their dance was tot to b very difficult as a lot of steps viv hands n legs to b remembered.... manatau, today we had a mini rehearsal n guess wat.... among the 5 songs, ours is the worst though very enjoying..... our song is the fastest n the most steps esp concerning the feet..... n we have to wear skirt tat is so long cos we hv to shake the skirt around for the whole song n its xtremely flair..... the followed by 'el-taro' n then spanish flee where we hv to shake-a-bon-bon a lot n i cant do it..... n then the last song will b the tango..... at 1st, we tot, group 1 is the oni group viv couples dancing, manatau, tango oso same..... n my partner is a guy fr pg main n he was my coll's partner last yr too!!! n the tango steps r even worse as it involves a lot of leg twisting n the 1st day, i dun even noe wat i was dancing... even my partner oso ask me..... but i went home n practice twisting at the same spot n improved the next day..... he was surprised tat i did.... wakakaka!!! abo sure very pai seh wan.....

my coll did sth funny viv her partner during tango n our trainer commented.... her partner stood very far away fr her (though holding hands) while she twisting n the trainer said tat the gal wun eat u wan n tat the guy mz stand near the gal like stuck to each other like tat n next, everybody's partner did jz tat..... i almost fell to the front when my partner did tat.... but after so many days of practice, i think we got our steps rite n now dance better.... the oni prob is our can can dance n spanish flee wan.... kept on forgetting steps nia..... so worried n pressured as the Public Affairs' director will b here next thursday to c our rehearsal n we r still not gd enuff....

plus, for the dance practice, i m currently working half day everyday until 2pm n then i hv to head down to main branch for practice.... 1 of my coll said to me tat i was paid to snake..... its true lo..... paid to practice dancing instead of working...... i wonder if other co does tis....... ppl go dinner to enjoy n get together viv the other staff but ours is totally diff..... beauty pageant la, theme awards la, staff performance la, choir la..... haih....... those who hv been to c our dinner will noe wat i m trying to say..... n i hope tis will b the last time i m doing tis for dinner..... i oni wan to attend dinner where i can sit down n enjoy the food n get together viv frens....... if not, i wun wan to attend......

pls forgive me if i did not update my blog cos i will b very bz until the dinner n my exams is over in june...... everyday oso bz n by the time reach home oredi very tired n sleepy to blog d......