30th Dec 2008 - Birthday

well.... its my bday..... n it went jz like tat viv nth much...... jz when i tot he wld forget my bday, he called me tis evening ard 6++ n wished me n spoke to me awhile..... i asked him to join me for dinner but he cld not make it cos he had jz oni came back fr kl..... instead he promised to take for either lunch or dinner.... i tot he wld forget, never tot.........we shall if today next yr, he will still remember.... haha!!!..... to all my frens, thanks for all ur presents n wishes.... oh ya! the other person whom i tot wld not remember my bday was 'gwg' n i had a surprised last midnite when i received his sms rite on the dot viv his wishes for me...... thank, gwg.....

today, dear told me a gd news...... chris got us 3 tix for S.H.E.'s concert tis weekend at AutoCity.... sum more its VIP seatings..... so happy lo..... me wanna go take pic viv Ella d...... yea yea...... i oso hope tat Fahrenheit is the guest performer so tat i can take pic viv my Wu Chun..... tomolo, Bosco is coming to qbm but i guess by the time i finish work n start to make my way there, i will b standing way bhind n can oni c him like an ant nia...... haih..... nwt was non-stop asking me to join her clubbing tomolo nite but i dun even hv the mood for it..... clubbing was never my favourite..... i wld prefer lazing by the coffee shop like mamak's or starbucks or coffee bean etcs...... tats more like me...... or either stay at home to catch dramas...... clubbing is a no-go for me..... so most prob tomolo nite, i will either b at home watching Super Trio Show or out viv frens for drinks..... but it will dpend on my mood......

20th of December 2008

i jz wanna say tat i miss him n i cant help thinking of him.... really dun noe y but its been like tis since he went to NZ... everynite b4 i turn in to sleep, i will definately think of him... tis few days, aside fr thinking of him, other things happened as well.... my mum was admitted to LGH for viral fever for a nite on thurs n i was on CL on fri..... dear came to visit my mum at hospital during lunch on fri jz moments b4 my mum was being discharged.... then later tat nite, went to darling's house for dinner viv the rest of my colls...... n after parking my car, i walked over to the guard hse n when passing thru chou yang, i saw him viv a gal hving dinner n he was listening very attentively to wat the gal was tokking abt..... but he din c me..... i did tot of smsing him wan but i did not..... she was the gal i saw 2 mths ago in bj when i was there buying rings viv 5 musketeers.... one of his suppliers.....

CNY is jz ard the corner n i m still looking for skirts/dresses..... but b4 CNY, i gotta celebrate 1st.... very happy tat my bestest frens r back to celebrate viv me..... thank u very much!!! too bad he cld not join me cos he going to kl to attend wedding.... but there is still 30th.... hope he will make it.... if not....

17th December 2008

frankly, i wasnt on a very gd mood tis past few days.... dun noe y oso..... on monday, my partner was on CL as her daughter was admitted n the whole day i was very very busy..... dun noe y tat day there was so many customers..... n i was particularly irritated by 1 stupid customer over sumthing tat was not my fault at all.... infact, wat i did was to help her so tat she open the account n i can settle her n proceed viv the next person cos there was a long queue for CSR!!! but tis bloody idiot blamed me for spoiling her ic jz bcos i used eraser to rub on the chip!!! FOR GOD DAMN SAKE!!!! I WAS TRYING TO RUB IN ORDER FOR MY KRR TO READ THE INFO SO TAT I CAN PROCEED VIV OPENING HER N SETTLE HER OFF N PROCEED VIV THE NEXT NO!!!! i ended up having war of words viv tat bloody idiot aunty over the rubbing of chip does not spoil the chip!!!! frankly, I M VERY VERY IRRITATED N GETTING RUDER VIV EACH WORDS TAT I SAID TO HER!!! then ivy who heard all of tis came to my rescue n explained to tat idiot aunty the scientific way of how the O2 n water n sun will hv effect on metal things n etc.... i wanted to laugh but i was too irritated to do tat...

and, mr lok came oso but it did nth to make my mood better.... mz hv been tat i woke up on the wrong side of the bed... he came when i was very very bz n he wanted to talk but i was not available to talk and so he left.....

today, he came and i was quite free as business is slow moving at branch... so he n i had sum time to yak.... but he looked very tired n off colour n not happy like tat n i wondered y.... i asked him y he looked like tis but jz as he started viv his reply to me, 1 aunty came n stood at my table n started tokking n he change his reply.... he replied tat he did not sleep well last nite but he kept looking at the aunty n looked irritated tat she stood at my desk.... so after awhile, he went off..... n oso, i finally built up enuff courage to invite him for my bday next weekend but unfortunately he cld not make it cos he is due to b at his fren's wedding in kl tat very weekend.... so i told him to join me for dinner on tues n he said ok..... tis got me on the best of my mood for the rest of my day.... haha!!!! hopefully he dun forget lo..... abo sure kek si wa wan....

10th of December 2008 - happy day

today is a happy day for me.... no doubt i m very bz as my partner is on leave tis whole week but i still felt happy today.... yesterday was not tat happy.... there was 1 crazy aunty ,whom hv been coming to bank since a few mths ago jz to find fault viv me, came AGAIN yesterday n AGAIN found fault viv me.... the moment the door opened, she marches in to my desk n shouted at me... WTF!!!! it was not my fault afterall cos i oredi advised her not to do the pymt last mth but she insisted n now our card ctr debited her account once more for the same pymt n she came to cari pasal.... she shouted so loudly tat the whole banking hall was very quiet n everyone was looking at me for she was screaming at me..... plus, she kept saying tat we r very 'mou yam kong' for bullying an old lady like her n tat she is an educated person n tat she is a respectable figure cos she is the Pengarah Jabatan Kesihatan.... lagi WTF!!!! if u r an educated person, u dun come barging into the bank n screaming at the staff for a fault tat is obviously not her fault. mayb she is educated but not civilised kut.... haih.... after screaming at me, she went off to the counter to renew her FD n while waiting for the counter staff, she came back to my desk when i hv other customers n apologised to me for screaming jz now!!!! u say la.... tis is CIVILISATION???

n due to tat crazy lady, i was pretty much hoping tat mr lok wld come to brighten up my day but he did not turn up.... mayb he is very very bz....

anyway, jz when i din think he wld come today, he did.... n i saw him when he was walking into the bank viv earphone most probably listening to mp3 kua.... n i was smiling non-stop d n started to lose concentration at wat i m doing d..... haih..... its been more than a week since i last saw him n i really do miss him..... y? y like tat? haih..... really dun understand y i like him so much.... the sight of him brings peace to my inner self.... but i often stumble when i talk to him.... anyway, after writing his pay-in slip, he came to my desk n stood nearby to jz yak viv me but i was quite bz as i hv a customer.... so i tot if i cld oni jz expedite the process n then send the customer off sooner, then he n i can really tok d lo.... mana tau, customers was never ending.... one after another took the queue n we both ended up viv no chance of yakking.....

guess wat, he said to me tat its been more a week since he last saw me n tat i m alwix bz tat i hv no time to yak to him.... i tot he din realise tat.... i tot i m the oni 1 who actually felt tis way.... but seeing him is oredi very gd for me d.... at least it kept me in a very gd mood for the rest of the day..... if oni we can c each other everyday....... crossing fingers, praying hard, hoping tat he n i can do tat but how? he is attached oredi..... haih................

meaningful quote

was reading thru my email n came across tis meaningful quote... enjoy...


A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: 'I am blind, please help.' There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words. Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, 'Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?'

The man said, 'I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.' What he had written was: 'Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.' Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing? Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective? Think differently and positively.

When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling...And even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it!!!

28th November 2008 - SUFFOCATION OF LIFE!!!

i felt so suffocated by my life.... y does everything hv to b tis way in my life? y never gd things ever happen to me? y? y? Y? i often asked myself tat n never noeing y.... if oni i can jz loosen myself away fr tis family, wldn't it b gd? if oni i can leave tis world, wldn't it b nicer? if oni, if oni, IF ONI.... tats all tat i can think of but never realising any of it..... if gd things never will come my way, so dear god, y dun u jz let me go? those who died during the horrific attacks in Mumbai never ask for tis, y i hv to go thru all tis? y? y? Y? i kept asking myself..... i beg u dear god to let me leave.... leave tis life which is full of sadness.....

26th November 2008 - an extremely happy day

the title says it all...... today is infact the happiest day of the week..... he came back fr holidays n i knew it tat he will definately come to c me on monday....... n he was in a jovial mood n was non-stop tokking to me n smiling as well..... he is jz gorgeous..... u noe, when he came, i had a customer n was explaining info.... the moment i saw him at the background, i was blank..... out of sudden, i forgot wat i wan to explain n jz went blanco.... i really dun noe wat got into me then..... i was jz too happy for words..... is it bcos i had guessed correctly? is it bcos i hoped so much to c him n he turned up? i really dun noe....

anyway, he was pretty talkative compared to 2 weeks ago when he asked to lunch viv him...... he asked if he got darker n joked tat he had tanned his bdy as well.... when i told him tat AUD forex drop to 2.2 last fri n he jokingly scolded me 'y u never call me?'.... i replied 'i din noe when u r coming back ma, u din tell me ma... u tell me lo where were u btw 10 am to 12pm?'. he said 'oh! i was on the plane' n i replied 'so how la m i suppose to call u? u wan to ask the pilot to throw u down fr the sky is it?' n he kept quiet for awhile n said 'ok lo.... sorry le..... anyway i bought u souvenier, tomolo bring to u'... then ivy was saying sth else which made me suddenly say 'i noe d, u come bank to c her wan leh' (pointing to ygl) n he kept quiet n stared at me wanting to say sth but kept quiet.... then i repeated the sentence til he kenot tahan wat i said n forcefully agreed but his xpression was diff.... then after tat he left but promised to come back to give me my souvenier....

frankly, i never tot tat he wld buy me souvenier at all.... afterall i was not very very close to him as compared to the 2 ladies i saw last mth during the deepavali week at BJC...... but i felt very happy cos he actually tot of me when buying souvenier..... ppl say 'out of sight, out of mind' but not to him n myself.... out of sight, the more i miss him..... i dun noe bout him la bout tis, but i really do miss him.... kept thinking of him for the past 2 weeks.... sth mz b very wrong viv me d.... really wrong..... i noe tat he is not in the market n yet i jz like him.... haih......

today, i had a very strong feeling tat he will go to office to look for me... but i din dare to msg him.... so i went out to renew my rd tax n pay sum credit cards n then head to bj for my late lunch at mcd hoping to catch a glimpse of him there but he was not there..... so after i fetched my bro n mum home, i head out to hv dinner viv oyi as promised n then met up viv my colls at old town, qbm..... tis is where the 2nd part of my story starts....

jz as i was going down the escalator to the basement, he saw me n vice versa.... he was at his qbm shop.... the moment he saw me, he lit up n smiled to me... but he had a customer, so after smiling to me, he continued viv his conversation.... so i walked over to my colls table which is rite in front of his shop n sat down.... then i ordered my drink n started tokking to my colls while looking at his shop for him until my colls noticed n started to tease me..... then i stopped looking n turned back to them... n suddenly, i felt his presence rite bside me n sat down in front of me..... then he started tokking to me n my colls.... at 1 point, my colls started to speak while he wanted to tell me sth n then later on he jz kept quiet.... god.... i felt like dying man.... how can tis b happening? haih.......

after awhile, he suddenly stood up n shifted his seat to my side n then jz sat bside me..... i was shocked!!! then after awhile, he had to leave n he took the receipt vivout us noticing n went off to the cashier.... it was not until he asked if there is anything else we wanted tat we realised tat.... n my colls asked me to go n take the receipt back fr him.... i went n demanded him to return me the receipt but he insist tat he pay.... so i asked the cashier to return to me but the cashier actually stood by his side n said 'so sorry.... tis boss say he wans to pay so he will pay'.... kek si wa nia.... then he told me tat the cashier noes him n tat he will listen to him wan n tat its oni 'beberapa puluh' so he will jz treat us all n tat its a 'kin min lai' for the rest of my colls wor....... so i went back to the table n told them wat happened n they thank him n jokingly said tat he shd treat us better than tis for a 'kin min lai' n he replied 'nth wan la.... next time i marry time, then treat u all lo'... WALAUEH!!!!!! marry wor!!!!! kek si wa liao...... my glass heart broken again.... haih...........

nothing to comment d.... really kek si d..... but i oredi knew tat he is blonged so shd not think so much d...... haih..... i knew tat n kept reminding myself tat so tat i wun go overboard.... i really dun noe wat he has tat had such an attraction to me..... really dun noe wat makes me so drawn to him...... haih......... hopefully tomolo he wun go to office to find me la.... i m on leave tomolo as well.... then fri working n then sat n sun rest kau kau then work 2 more days n i m off to kl d to shop viv ysl n owl...... wahahahaha!!!!! but hv to b back by 6th cos got wedding dinners to attend!!! sat is my sch mate's wedding dinner, sun is my new abm's wedding dinner in gurun, kedah n then mon is my customer's temple's dinner...... eat eat eat non-stop nia..... sure fat d..... mz go excercise more d to burn more fat..... abo..... nobody wans me d..... oredi nobody wan sum more grow fatter, lagi nobody wans..... haih.............

23rd of November 2008

today i witnessed a very close fren of mine quarrelled viv her bf n then broke up over the phone..... it was very painful listening to her speaking to him as he was being illogical....... one part of me felt sad tat their relationship had to come to tis end but the other part of me felt pity for him....... watever she said to him on the phone was wat i heard from a past....... n it made me very sad n felt like crying along viv her.....

both of them had been quarreling since last oct n yet the decision was not made as she is waiting for him to speak up but he did not wan to let go...... all tis happening is like repeating my history.... she had put out her cards tat she wanted to break but he jz dun seem to get it n then forced her to her limits n finally she said it out...... after tat she started to wonder if she had made the rite decision..... to me, there is no rite or wrong..... once a decision hv been made, there is no going back to it..... no point of thinking if it is rite or wrong..... u will never noe til u go thru til the end of the process..... in her case, staying on will get her more upset n the chance to break free is far fr her reach..... if she breaks, she wld feel happier noeing tat she had her life back on track...... it will hurt for sure considering the length of their relationship but she will get thru it all n put it all behind her...... tats if she successfully convinced him tomolo......

i jz hope she will calm down n make a gd decision..... now, she really needs to rest her mind..... though it will hurt, it better once n for all..... i noe i hv made the rite choice even though once awhile, i tend to look back but i will never noe if i did not let go then.......

21st of November 2008

yesterday was an unlucky day for me.... i sent my car for servicing n ended up spending almost RM800 for watever belts tats in the car, water pump, throttle body, exhaust pipe n servicing.... then went to Air Cool for tinting of my windscreen n spent RM300for a better tint viv infre-red rejection of 88% as compared to my current of 56%... then sent my external drive to PC Depot to c y it cld not connect to my pc n ended up spending RM55 for a new casing cos the old casing has got problems.... n worst of all is i cld not find the receipt for the old casing in order for me to send for repair..... n i m still looking for it..... moving hse is like tat wan.... sure got things missing...... then b4 i left the tinting shop, the salesgal introduced a better tinting for my car, the anti-theft tint n tat will cost me RM999 for the whole car!!!! but i m considering cos it really is very gd.....

oh ya!!! jz as i was leaving BJ to the collect my car from the tyre shop, i slipped n fell on the pavement in front of the BJ Court guardhouse..... n now my toe hurts...... it was very unfortunate of me cos i was not running or in a hurry n yet i still slipped n fell...... haih........ wonder who is cursing me...... jz last week, the atm cassettes fell on both my legs leaving them blue blacked n painful..... tat was ms ch'ng fault as she was in a hurry to go to the atm vestibules but hv to wait for the guard to unlock the glass door so she hastily put the cassettes down vivout realising tat it fell on my leg as it was unbalanced..... then after tat, my windscreen was smashed by tat dun noe wat the heck fruit it is...... n now all tis..... haih...... luck tis yr is not very gd..... predicted to hv to go thru all tis tis yr........... hopefully next yr will b better.....

16th of November 2008

i came across a very funny email n tot of sharing it.... njoy it esp the guys.....

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Girldfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0. I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of space and valuable resources. In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system activities. Applications such as Poker Night 10.3, Football 5.0, Hunting and Fishing 7.5, and Racing 3.6 no longer run, crashing the system whenever selected.

I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run my favourite applications. I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the uninstall doesn't work on Wife 1.0. Please help!

Thanks,
A Troubled User.

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REPLY:

Dear Troubled User,

This is a very common problem that men complain about.

Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0, thinking that it is just a Utilities and Entertainment program. Wife 1.0 is an OPERATING SYSTEM and is designed by its Creator to run EVERYTHING!!! It is also impossible to delete Wife 1.0 and to return to Girlfriend 7.0. It is impossible to uninstall, or purge the program files from the system once installed.

You cannot go bank to Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed to not allow this. Look in your Wife 1.0 manual under Warnings - Alimony - Child Support. I recommend that you keep Wife 1.0 and work on improving the situation. I suggest installing the background application 'Yes Dear' to alleviate software augmentation.

The best course of action is to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE because ultimately you will havt to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.

Wife 1.0 is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance. Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs such as Clean and Sweep 3.0, Cook It 1.5 and Do Bills 4.2...

However, be careful how you use these programs. Improper use will cause the system to launch the program Nag Nag 9.5. Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Flowers 2.1 and Diamonds 5.0!

WARNING!!! DO NOT, under any circumstances, install Secretary with Short Skirt 3.3. This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system.

Best of luck,
Tech Support

15th of November 2008

jz came back fr sending my car for replacement of the windscreen..... guess how much it cost me??? RM600!!!!! insured oni half of the price, i still hv to foot out the other half.... sum more hv to tint the windscreen..... broke liao..... haih..... all bcos of the stupid fruit tat fell on the windscreen.... cld u imagine how gr8 the impact was? my light cover n the light bulb fell out oso..... haih......... stupid fruit!!! let me waste $$$ nia..... my car really unlucky lo..... the other time was the small window n the cd player..... haih..... which in turn reflects tat i m oso very unlucky...... tis year's horoscope did state tat i m to lose sum $$$..... but then again, lose sum $$$ is better than being involve in accidents lo...... so i felt really lucky d..... tis r all minors nia...... next year leh...... i will b bug viv digestive problems...... so next yr must take gd care of my health......

13th of November 2008 - another unlucky day of the year

picture is worth a thousand words...... tis is the 2nd time tat it happened!!!! DAMN!!!! tis is how unlucky i m tis year..... luckily i had it insured, if not $$$ flying off d..... forgot to take a picture of the 'chui fui wo sau'.... so tomolo i will do so if i got time....

04th of November 2008

well..... i noe its been a week plus tat i did not update my blog..... been a little too bz lately..... anyway..... today i m very happy..... very very happy..... y? cos mr lok came to collect his chq book as well as enquire bout the FCY FD.... he called on 31st Oct evening to ask abt it but insist tat i xplain to him when he comes over to the branch as the line was bad n he cld not hear clearly...... n he came today cos he noes tat i m very bz on mondays n fridays...... he came during my usual lunchtime but today i din noe wat time is lunchbreak as my partner is on mc..... after i xplained to him, he kept asking when is my lunch but i really dun noe.... then audrey came n asked me to go out for my lunch but oni for 1/ hr nia n when i turned to him, he jz nodded his head n said "k... i noe d.... 1/2 hr fr now.... means tat kenot go out for lunch.... oni can lunch at next door coffee shop.... let's go...." n so we had lunch.... n spoke a lot.....

remembered i told u tat he denied hving a gf? well.... today he did not deny..... he told me tat he is leaving for New Zealand for a 2 weeks trip in 2 days' time n i asked if he is going viv his gf n at first he denied.... then i asked if he is going for a honeymoon n then oni he replied "nope... jz holiday nia" but he kept quiet on the gf part..... so :-

Me : wah... NZ ar.... song la..... very beautiful wan lo..... ur gf sure very happy wan
LKH : yea.... she happy, i m not leh..... my pocket got big hole d lo......
Me : aiya.... she happy ma.... u shd happy oso la..... can go holidays viv gf n sum more to such a beautiful place like NZ...
LKH : (sad smile) yea rite..... very tiring lo.... hv to drive fr north to south le....
Me : (surprised) u r on free n easy?
LKH : yep..... tats y bz digging for info...... haih.....
Me : pity...... but ok la..... got gf viv u shd happy d la....
LKH : (sad sad smile) still got many places to go.... broke liao.....
Me : (jokingly) like tat hor ma look for other gf lo..... find a gf who can help u save more money......
LKH : (lights up a little) k lo.... then mz find one working in the Bank wan.....

haih..... i noe he is joking bout it la..... how la to find for another gf when he is still viv tis current 1.... but i jz wan to lighten him up nia.... cos fr the moment i saw him in the office, he is not very happy at all....... n it got worst when he was speaking bout his NZ trip.... its like he is not happy at all tat he is going for a long holiday....... i c him like tat i oso not happy.... til now still thinking whether wat is wrong viv him.... wat is making him so sad..... is it bcos of his trip? or is it bcos of his presentation today? anyway, all tat i can i do is hope everything is well for him...... i can still remember tat he told me to take him along when i m going clubbing...... i m shocked.... clubbing is not my fav..... i prefer sumwhere quiet like starbucks or coffee bean or sunset bar for me to jz lazed a bit n relax..... n i think he is surprised tat i said tat n said tat it was ages ago tat he went clubbing...... but for tis coming 2 weeks, no need to call him d since he is not ard...... tis coming few weeks will b very hectic for me as functions every weekend.....

8th nov : boss's hse warming
15th nov : auditor's wedding in taiping
22nd nov : nicole's wedding dinner
23rd nov : nicole's wedding
7th dec : sch mate's wedding

1stly, i will b broke by the end of all the above.... n 2ndly, i will b drained out by the end os 23rd nov cos my colls r planning to go clubbing after the functions...... n I REALLY NOT INTO CLUBBING!!!!!! but they jz dun understand...... i kept telling them the same but they jz dun get it..... i m a laid back style where lazing in starbucks or coffee bean or the sunset bar is my type...... clubbing every weekend?!! i'll b dead very very soon if i go clubbing every weekend...... i m aging n my bones r jz to stiff to shake a bon-bon like them....... plus drinking is bad for health....... once awhile is ok for me but never every weekend...... haih......

the answer to a relationship tat wld not start at all.......

i guess many wld wan to noe y i din work out viv eug since he is very gd to me..... enjoy the below n u will understand...... the feeling jz did not exist......

This aspect of the chart reveals a combination that can be solid as a rock for a long time only to crash and burn in the blink of an eye. Stubborn, highly motivated, a self-starter and an unconventional individualist, eug is also adventurous and not afraid of trying new, even risky paths. Strongly driven, the number one doesn't usually give a hoot about other people's expectations. So, eug does whatever eug wants to do and will fight anyone and anything trying to get in the way. lisa is no less gifted in the areas of persistence and ambition. However, the number four stands for everything that is sturdy, reliable, patient, responsible, conventional, detail-oriented and "doing things the way they should be done." And this is precisely where some possibly dangerous pitfalls for this relationship lie. lisa has both feet firmly on the ground. Undeterred by the prospect of having to take care of things that might be boring and routine, lisa will do the job, no matter what. lisa will not step aside just because something is difficult or may take a lot of time. The four marches on until the job is done. Period. eug, on the other hand, does not have that kind of patience. When the forces are no longer in eug's favor, it's time for war. "Confront the challenges head on with a 'damn the consequences' attitude" - this is eug's dilemma. This can be a thriving relationship as long as eug doesn't start on a path of unknowns and risky, questionable results. However, that will unavoidably happen and lisa will at times be seen as a stick in the mud, a source of frustration for eug. When this kind of situation becomes overwhelming, it will almost certainly bring this relationship to and end.

On the other hand, as long as eug is able to respect lisa's need for a secure, perhaps even predictable, lifestyle, and lisa's need for a secure, perhaps even predictable, lifestyle, and lisa can understand eug's need to try new avenues, take risks, occasionally venture out into unknown territories, the relationship can endure.

18th of Oct 2008

exactly a yr had past n it will 4ever stay a part of lotus gal's life n memories..... it will b the most xpensive n hurtful lesson learnt by lotus gal...... but its a past.... a buried past...... life now for lotus is diff though changed but happier than during the 2 yrs b4......... used to think tat i will not survive tis long but now i did...... i blieve i will b better a yr later.......

jz came back fr bali n frankly, it was not wat i had xpected it wld b..... other than the beautiful Tanah Lot n those beaches at Kuta n Jimbaran, i dun even recall anything there.... my advise is tat if u r planning for a trip there, think twice...... the oni recommendation i hv is tat if u r planning for romantic wedding pictures, u can alwix go to Tanah Lot.... ITS THE MOST ROMANTIC PLACE OF ALL!!!!!!!!!! the sunset viv the strong waves hitting the beach is the most beautiful sight..... how i wish i m there for my wedding picture....... but i doubt tat it wld ever happen......... not tat i doubt i wld b able to take pictures there but i doubt if i wld ever marry......

anyway, i will b updating my pics soon cos i m very tired fr the trip..... my leg muscles r damn painful fr climbing n going the stairs when going for water rafting n til now, i m still having headaches...... n still having diarrhoe...... n still having the vomitting feeling as my stomach is having digestion problems........

next weekend is my hse warming n i will take pictures n upload again..... so stay put..... me now wanna go to sleep d.... very tired n sleepy.....

06th of Oct 2008

though today i had class, audrey smsed me for dinner.... so we went to QBM to jln jln a bit n then eat dinner.... jz as audrey n i were walking towards jusco to buy bread, he called out at me rite in front of McD as he was putting up a camera stall there for a mini fair..... we spoke a bit n he kept apologising over yesterday's incident...... i cld not get angry viv him so i smiled instead n reminded him to alwix finish reading msges...... then i left oredi as audrey went off to the bakery......

now oni did i realise tat i never tot of doing a compatibility check for both of us...... so below is the result of the check....... overall its very gd.... no wonder i had such a feeling towards him...... too bad he is not up in the market..... haha!!!! enjoy reading though......


lisa is fortunate. lok's six reflects a great capacity for love, understanding, sacrifice and support. The six is, by nature, perhaps the most harmonious of all numbers.

But lisa is not the only one who is fortunate in this relationship. lok also has reasons for gratitude. lisa will protect and defend lok through thick and thin. The power of the one should not be underestimated. And to have that power and concentrated energy on your side, lok, can be a real blessing. lisa can make you feel safe and secure, since there is nothing wishy-washy about lisa. This is a combination that can last for a long time, without ever going through the kind of turbulence so many other relationships experience. But, as always, there is another side to the coin.

This aspect of lisa's chart reveals an inner force and a driven energy that doesn't slow down for anything. lisa doesn't put up with weakness and is demanding of others. Like a true leader, lisa needs to see courage and strength represented in others. lok reveals a different nature. At least in this aspect of the chart. lok is compromising, forgiving and sometimes sacrificing to a fault. lisa has to be careful not to see this as a weakness, since lok's ability to defend the weaknesses of others is alien to a number one. Likewise, lok may at times be disturbed to recognize a somewhat hard and unforgiving quality in lisa. lok should not confuse that with a lack of compassion. lisa is certainly capable of offering compassion, especially towards victims of circumstances, where fault or laziness, or cowardice is not an issue. Only when lisa feels someone is not pulling his or her weight, can lisa respond quite harshly.

The important thing for both lisa and lok is to understand that they are very different in the way they view human qualities. Their priorities differ. That's all. Therefore, if they are able to keep an eye open for their differences and value their respective good qualities, they will certainly enjoy a long life together.

04th Oct 2008

can't blieve tat in a week's time, i'll b flying off to Bali d...... can't wait to go...... but tis time, the xcitement is unlike the 1 i had when i was abt to leave for hk....... tat xcitement is like a kid being given her her fav teddy bear..... its like flying off to the sky..... tis time, its not like tat though i m looking forward to tis trip....... blieve tis, i m still thinking of going to hk..... really miss hk..... like i said, i really hope to go to hk n stay there for a mth n slowly enjoy..... but i dun hv tat much leave le...... sad.......

tis afternoon, klc smsed me asking me to follow her to his place to buy battery for her camera.so i agreed.... n i smsed him asking him if he will b at his shop...... n he called back telling me tat i m so 'lucky' cos he jz left his shop n tat he will oni b back around 6pm++....... so i asked klc n in the end dcided to wait for him...... we went at 6++ n waited for him as he not yet reach his shop..... i smsed him telling him tat i m waiting for him at his shop n he replied tat he will reach soon...... few moments later he called n asked where i was cos he reached his shop oredi n i turned around lo..... mana tau, i did not c him n asked him where is he lo..... he said he is at his shop n asked if i was in bj...... so i asked if he is in qbm..... yuan lai, he tot tat i was in qbm..... he apologized cos he read thru my sms again n found out tat he was wrong..... he read part of the msg n not the other part which i told him i was in bj's shop...... haha!!!! shows how tak ada jodoh lo both of us...... i sum more tot can finally c him d cos when he came on tues to collect chq book, i did not hv the time to speak viv him........ haih..... too bad la......

n.... congratulations to one of my best 'chi mui', owl on his passing of CCP.... finally pass oredi.... so now got more leave left d lo... cos previously, his leave is mostly kept for his exams n study..... now he is finally free.... but tis idiot normally got leave oso dun wan come back pg wan...... alwiz say tat he is very bz which i understand..... haih.... sum more phone oso lau beh d..... kept auto shut down n never ring..... i msged n called him a few times but he said he did not receive anything at all....... his phone really can throw into the sea d...... now helping him look around for phones..... but tis guy quite yim chim oso lo..... LOLX.......

02nd Oct 2008

i noe tat its been a week d since i last update my blog n plus, i noe how to scold my best fren for not updating but myself now oni wan to update..... pai seh pai seh..... end of last blog, i wrote tat i smsed sum1 on his bday... well, he replied at 1.10pm his bday n said "tq.... treat me gd one.... when i c u next time" haha!! n i replied "ok"....

20th Sept 2008

next up is my outing viv my colls n auditors on sat, 20th sept.... we went oriental tat day for karaoke til 9pm n then head to New World Park for dinner at Nyonya Cafe..... then after tat went to Mois clubbing..... actually i was suppose to go home at 1.30pm n kynor is suppose to fetch me home but when the time came, he din say a word plus the mood was js starting to go high so we stayed on.... n when audrey came viv her fren, 198 (our nickname for her fren), 198 asked me "i tot tomolo u r travelling to kl to attend course. y r u still standing here at 2.30am?" i smiled n replied "cos my driver dun wan to go back yet..." n he asked if need him to fetch me back or not cos i travelling the next day.... but i pai seh to follow his car lo cos he drove a 2-door car n plus he fetch audrey wan wor.... i pai seh to b the spotlight in the car lo..... so i said "it's ok..... i wait for my driver la.... thanks for offering though"..... then 198 went to grab drinks for himself n audrey n then start to ask me to drink..... mz b he saw tat my glass is still full cos YSL kept filing up my glass..... then at last when i finished my drink, he said tat next round when i m not travellig the next day then oni go out again n he will treat me drinks again...... i really salute him n audrey lo...... when they came to Mois, they had oredi been to 3 pubs d!!! n yet they can still drink!!! salute both of them....

anyway, finally left Mois at 3.30am on 21st Sept 2008 n reached home at 4am!!!! by the time i went to sleep, its oredi 4.30am n i woke up at 8.30am!!!!! n then left for kl.... the whole journey there, i called almost everybody who went clubbing the nite b4 n made them tok to me cos i cld not sleep on the bus esp kynor...... if not bcos of him, i wld hv reach home at 2am n slept by 2.30am...... haih..... anyway, i safely reach bangi n attended my 2days course n came back pg.......

26th Sept 2008

finally we got to the last day of housing the 4 auditors under our roof.... n i blieve a few of us built a gd rapport viv them..... n those few will miss them esp after 27th Sept when they finally leave for home.... today, OYL, NWT, kynor, myself n kenneth (one of the auditors) went to teluk kumbar for seafood dinner n then head to Batu Feringghi's Sunset Bar for afters..... its a beautiful place..... really beautiful..... the bar is situated at the beach so u can jz stroll along the beach n feel the breeze of the sea..... its really nice..... til now, i m still thinking of it....

27th Sept 2008

met up viv the 4 auditors for dim sum b4 sending them off...... the head to ms voon's hse for laksa....... today i slept the most cos 2hrs after i reach home at 6++pm, i went to bed n slept til the next morning at 7.30am n got ready for class....

17th of Sept 2008

well..... tis blog was supposed to b written yesterday but i had dinner n then came home late.... plus i had a very bad headache when i reached home so i ended up going to bed instead..... early yesterday morning, i was 'treated to coffee' by my abm n she was very hurtful viv her words tat i was very very unhappy after tat..... i went back to my table n continued my job but ivy noticed the change in my mood n asked me..... i told her tat i was very unhappy cos my abm's words was very hurtful n it so happened tat, mr lok, who was at ygl's counter turned n saw me very unhappily 'nagging' to ivy, came to my table n asked "wat happen to u? u looked so sad.... wat r nagging abt?".... i dun noe if i shd laughed or not cos he actually noticed my difference of mood..... i replied "ya lo.... very sad cos i was being scolded til kau huet lam tau ma.... so ma very sad lo...." then he started to make light jokes to make me happy.... he jokingly asked me to go over to his co n work n he will give me double salary fr wat i earned now..... n i jokingly replied him ok, i shall move over immediately..... then i asked him bout his bday celebration which is on the 18th of Sept n he shockingly asked how i knew his bdate..... so i ma say lo "aiyo.... u everytime come take chq book fr me n write ur ic no, u think i blind wan meh......" then he jokingly said "like tat hor.... then where is my present?" then we started laughing...... i asked if his gf will celebrating viv him n he answered "i dun hv gf wor.... waiting for u to celebrate viv me lo" so i said "u lying ar..... jz went travelling a few mths back nia n now u say no gf.... lying to me ar" n he kept insisting tat he got no gf..... n then said tat he hv to work on his bday sum more how to celebrate wor......

everytime when i m sad, he will alwix b there wan..... previously, jz by looking at him makes me very happy..... sad oso mood oso gets better...... n yesterday, he even joked to make me happy..... guy like tis really hard to find...... but then again, gd things will never happen to me wan..... even he oso is oredi blonged to d..... haih.... sad...... but then frens oso ok d...... now i m thinking if i shd msg him a bday greeting...... dun noe wat he think hor.... midnite wor..... n in the end, i sent....... jz sent..... nth wan ma hor..... normal bday wish fr a fren nia ma..... he sure receive a lot of fren's wishes wan la hor..... anyway, my motive of staying up so late is to send tis sms n update tis blog..... so i think i can go n sleep d..... i'll update more tomolo if i hv the time cos i still hv a lot tat i hvnt said......

15th Sept 2008

well...... like i said, the auditors r here n oredi xpected tat i will tied down by them...... infact, not oni did they bother me viv lots of things to look for, tis is the time when my abm had the chance to scold me more.... the 4th day they were here, she intercom n screamed on the phone to go bhind n settle the handover case for the auditor...... screamed!!! then small little things nia, she will start to scold tat we din do tis, din do tat...... i kena a lot d..... my partner oso...... tis is the 1st time my partner n i met viv auditors n we oredi discussed tis over d to take tis as a lesson to learn fr our mistakes...... at least after tis audit, we will noe wat we did wrong n wat we did not do so tat we wun repeat the same thing the next audit...... but tis abm of ours does not think tis way..... she kept comparing us viv the previous partnership....... imagine tis... the previous partnership got 3 yrs of xperience together..... myself n my partner? 1 yr pun tak cukup...... infact everything still new to my partner n everything dpend on me more...... how to compare to them?

frankly, dun wan to say nia, my partner oso very stubborn wan...... told her to study her manual, or do things tis way.... she will never do tat..... then when ppl ask, she will say i din tell..... there was once tat she insisted i did not teach her rite in front of my abm n my abm scolded me for nth..... so after tat, dun noe luckily or not, i remembered wat happened tat i tot her n said it to her face bout the case rite in front of my abm oso... then oni she said "oh ya..... baru i ingat....." u c la!!!! i oredi kena for nth d....... infact, i was so afraid she might do or say the wrong thing in front of the auditors tat i kept reminding her.... she really c auditors as a light thing, nth to worry abt thing...... guess wat... i told her fr the 1st day tat if auditors every come, we mz do lunch break balancing everyday..... n when i did n asked to initial on it, she said "u tinggal dulu, nanti i sign".... it so happened tat one of the days when our side is light n she did the balancing viv me sign on the spot, one of the auditors, chris, came to ask for the balancing sheet.... when i came back fr lunch, she told "nasib baik ada buat"..... told so many times til i oso bored or telling d n yet she din wan to do..... tis time, luckily got do..... if not, i sure kena again......

previously told her to change lock during lunchbreak, but she dun think its a big deal n tat i m oni making a big fuss over it nia...... TODAY, kenneth the auditor came to her when i was out n asked her to open the lock for him cos he wans to check the box...... luckily, i changed the lock....... when i came back fr lunch n she related the case to me n then said "nasib baik ada tukar tadi"...... told her so many times til i oso no strength d but she dun take it as a big deal...... kek khi lo......

anyway, enuff of the my partner d.... i can say a lot bout her wan cos she really kek si wa wan...... 1 roll of cloth oso not enuff to cover all her things...... i got to noe kenneth quite well on the 1st day i went back to work n lead to my officers n sum colls tot tat i knew him even b4 he came to our branch..... truth is, tat is the 1st day i noe him..... hahaha!!!! tis wed, we will b going to karaoke together viv the 3 other auditors n sum colls as well...... tis batch of auditors r very young.... the eldest being as old as i m n chris n kenneth is a yr younger than me...... the other i dun noe cos never talk to her b4..... haih.... now so sleepy..... for the past 8days i did not sleep enuff..... which lead me to slight fever on sat n sun nite after i finished class.... anyway, now i wan to go oink oink d..... if not, tomolo i will b very short tempered d..... hahaha!!!!

06th of Sept 2008

well..... finally went to watch The Mummy viv audrey n blieve it!!!! the cinema oni hv us 17 ppl in it watching..... n guess wat.... i was laughing n laughing n laughing til ppl looked at me.... i really cant help it cos it was very funny..... never tot it wld b tis funny.....

n its been raining since last nite though it stopped for awhile in the morning....n its getting heavier..... wan to go out oso no mood d....... i oso dun noe how to take my parents out for dinner d...... its my parent's wedding anniversary today.... if not mistaken, it shd b the 28th anniversary..... n its raining so heavily tat i really dun noe where to go..... scared tat most roads will jam n sum more start to puasa d.... scared tat more ppl will go out for dinner........

04th of Sept 2008

today i m on mc as i woke up feeling worst than yesterday..... after i went to the dr's for the mc, i reached home n made myself breakfast n then took my medicine.... n then sat awhile b4 i head to my bed n slept...... i had never slept so much i my life n today i did... but i still weak n my head is still spinning..... sth is not rite..... but i m not sure..... cos each time i fell sick n rest the next whole day, i never had tis type of body weak n feeling lightheaded.... today is diff...... but i hope tomolo i will get better cos no matter how oso mz go back to work...... the auditors came today... n i m worried tat my partner will do wrong things...... oredi early morning call me non-stop d...... hope everything goes smoothly til they leave...... i m praying damn hard n crossing fingers tat everything goes on well....

03rd of Sept 2008

i m damn sick today.... woke up feeling off color n feeling not well.... early morning oredi felt dizzy... then a regular customer of mine came n commented tat i looked very pale n work oso not my usual style..... but he is speaking the truth lo.... i m not my usual working style today lo...... until i kenot tahan oredi, i dcided to go c the dr.... n kynor n amber came to fetch me to the dr..... then tot wan to immediately head back home after work.... but oyi called.... n informed me tat she got 2 free tix for movies tonite n asked if i wan to join her.... at 1st, i did not wan to go but at last, i tot otherwise though i was so sick..... while waiting for her to come fetch me fr my office, i fell asleep at my desk n by the time oyi called, i felt much better than b4 i napped.... n we tot tat we were quite late for the movie but it did not yet when we went in..... by the time, we settled down at pur seats, then oni the ad started to play..... the movie was called Babylon A.D. n frankly to say, i dun really noe wat the story is all abt..... vin diesel's abs is very very nice, n melanie thierry is very beautiful..... i m mesmerised by her....... hope to c more of her in future..... provided she is not in the scary movie, i m ok viv it.....

n while in the cinema, i heard how 1 of dell's staff introduced their spouse to his coll..... "come, let me intro.... tis is my wife.... tis is his wife......" i bet anybody who heard tis wld laugh man..... where's name? wat if they meet next time? "how r u, his wife?" hahaha!!!! wat a joke....

anyway.... now as i m typing all tis, i m starting to c stars n vision getting blurrer d...... felt so lightheaded n wan to pengsan d..... so i guess, i will stop here for the day.... anything tat i miss out, i will continue in the next blog..... (if i remember)..... i oso wan to thank kynor n amber for their time n kynor's transport to the dr's....... die liao la..... now my tummy is giving signals tat i wan to go toilet n vomit d.... i better go to sleep......

30th of August 2008

well.... since the last post, many things happened n i will try towrite as much as i can......

25th of August 2008

kynor n i had dinner together at sakae as agreed the week b4..... he was the 1 said tat he will go sakae on salary day..... so we did..... n amber came viv us n oyi too.... n we even met up viv him.... kynor n i reached 1st n went in to grab a table b4 the queue starts.... n guess wat matt came n took our drinks orders n he was looking at me n then asked if i work in PBB.... kynor looked back at me n laughed n asked him how did he noe n he told me tat previously followed a fren of his to my branch for sth n cme to my table for enquiries..... he even told me tat there is oni CSRs n 1 is a malay lady n the other is me...... i told him tat i cld not recall cos i meet a lot of customers everyday n those regulars i will definately remember.... n then he smiled n walked away to bring us our tea..... then oyi came.... n followed by him......

the moment he came, the relief supervisor, naylin came together viv a waitress n matt too n starts to kacau him...... its oso the 1st time i saw naylin smiled..... n i looked at him n told oyi tat its the 1st time i c him smile n she said tat i hv a thing for sakae's supervisor..... wahahahahaha!!!!!! oyi, no la..... its jz tat the 1st time i saw him on the 23rd, he wasn't smiling n looked very like a discipline teacher...... if not for him, i wld not hv saw naylin smiled......... anyway, after introduction btw all of them n kynor was looking at the menu for his food n kept asking wat is gd..... n so happened tat the x-supervisor is there so he started flipping the menu n xplaining the gd 1s to kynor...... after cfming our orders, finally we told him how to tackle the interview..... n in btw, found out tat is fr penang too n staying in jelutong...... until amber came to join our conversation..... we told him wat to do n wat to say n he was very attentive listening......

not very sure if anybody actually notice tis.... but i did notice tat when he speaks, he looks at me even when he was tokking to kynor..... n every now n then even when tokking to oyi or amber who sat exactly opposite him, he wld eye me as well...... n i felt tat he is not as shy as the day i met him at mcd oredi..... cos he did not blush like tat day..... he really is very shy type wan..... n the way he speaks, sounds like he is very childish in thinking...... i bet he mz b the youngest..... really beh tahan wan lo..... really can make ppl laugh wan.... after tat, we went our way leaving amber, kynor n myself..... we followed kynor to look for his cleanser n guess wat, he is even worst than ladies..... the brand (suisse programme) tat he is using, amber n i oso dun noe wan...... n when we followed him to The Face Shop n Sasa, the salesgal mistaken us as the buyer.... n when we told her tat its kynor who wan to buy things, she looked shocked but ended up laughing all the way cos kynor was joking viv her as he tried on new pdts.... really funny....

as i was having a bad headache, i tot after kynor bought his cleanser, they wld wan to leave but amber overheard tat kynor is meeting up viv his frens at Old Town, Sunshine Sq, she immediately brightens up n said she wans to follow n asked me to follow her too...... in the end, i did....... n reached home at exactly 12 midnite.... luckily, its a holiday on the 26th due to the Permatang Pauh's elections.....

26th of August 2008

woke up jz as i heard NWT's call..... n then she came over n we left for lunch as well as fetch amber too..... we had our lunch at Super Tanker n then head to Paya Terubong for facial viv eddie's wife at their hse..... we were there for 3hrs!!!!! n frankly, my facial is very short nia wan..... but cos she was 'cleaning up' NWT's face which is full of blackheads..... after tat, amber n i head to town to pay credit cards n then head home.......

29th of August 2008

today was a busy day for all of us as today is the last day of the mth as well as its a working day followed by a 3 days holidays..... so we had our time working non-stop..... n then had dinner viv the branch staff at siriwan..... every food they had was spicy n most of them can't take it as it was very spicy for them..... overall, we njoyed our dinner......

30th of August 2008

today woke up late..... i overslept my alarm by 45 mins n rushed like mad as i had an appointment viv a customer at 12.30pm at e-gate n i hv to fetch my bro to collect my dad's car at sg tiram..... luckily i reached on time.... after tat i headed to eleen's hse for dinner n then fetch her to do manicure n pedicure at nail world, krystal point..... tis is the 1st time i ever had such luxury for my nails...... n it cost me RM116 for both manicure n pedicure....... but now, my nails r beautiful...... for the pics, pls refer to frenster..... i will b putting up pics there..... but RM116 does not oni do filing n upkeeping of the nails but mask n massage for the arm n lower leg as well.... overall, it was njoyable..... its quite worth it for the price lo...... n i met a customer of mine there as well..... n she told me tat its gd to b doing nails..... help to keep our nails clean n of cos beautiful...... plus, doing pedicure smoothens my cracked heels...... at least now, my heels r easy to care for now..... n it made me tot over tat i shd do tis to clean up the dirt (i meant the cracked heels n the cuticles)...... but of cos mz find a cheaper 1 la..... tis price will kill me sooner man...... hahahaha!!!!!

n my godsis was surprised tat i actually noe so many ppl...... i told her tat any profesion oso is my customer..... u wan a normal dr, i hv a few to intro.... for dental? of cos..... there r a few...... optometrist? oso got..... renovations? restaurants? cameras? handphones? boutiques? pharmacy? all oso got..... never to worry..... of cos la..... when u r in the service line esp like mine, u will hv a lot of customer fr diff diff profesion..... it oni dpends on how gd u r viv them tat u can go back to them in time of need..... hahaha!!!!

n i hope n pray tat everything goes smoothly for him on tues for his in..... frens oso can care wan..... oh ya.... airasia is alwix like tat.... they sent a msg viv tis content "URGENT: UR AIRASIA FLIGHT QZ9002 DPS-HUL 16OST08 AT 7.50 RETIME EARLY TO 06.00. INFO 60387754000 OR 622180899000. SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED. THANK YOU." u say la.... 6am's flight means tat i hv to b at the airport by 4am..... n give it a 45mins drive fr the hotel to airport n 2 ppl bathing, means tat we hv to wake up at 2am!!!!!! i tot over n told the rest of them as well n we decided tat we will not sleep on the nite.... instead, we will go a drink n then head back to hotel foe last min packing n the check out...... imagine tat.... checking out in the middle of the nite!!!!! 1st time ever..... tried checking in during midnite b4 but never check out....... teruk betui...... airasia's fault..... we cld not switch flight cos if we do so, we not oni hv to pay the chgs, we cld ot reach on time to catch the transit plane back to pg tat we bought...... haih......... su more tot wan to take airasia on my next trip to hk n macau predicted in 2009..... haih...................... c how la..... i think mz go n sound sound to airasia bout tis..... making the passengers life harder nia......

oh ya!!! b4 i forget..... Happy 51st Birthday to Malaysia!!!!! i pray for unity n peace in the country........

23rd of August 2008

woke up tis morning viv a blur head.... took a bath n went to fetch mum fr work.... since yesterday when he told me tat he will b going for an interview at PBB on sept 2nd, i hv been thinking if he can make it, whether will he b able to answer the interviewer's questions.... so i IM kynor to enquire n he told me quite a bit too.... so i was thinking if i shd tell him all tis so tat he is prepared for tat day..... then as i was bathing, i tot of smsing amber to c if she wans to go out for lunchn when i came out fr toilet, i saw her sms asking me if i wan to lunch viv her.... so i replied her n then i left the hse for mum then head to super tanker to buy lunch for herself n dad then put back home b4 going out viv amber....

then we went to QBM n went there for lunch again!!! but he was not there..... instead, there was a new supervisor..... din feel anything amiss until i smsed him to ask if he needs tips for the interview n he told me tat he is free fr now on n i asked y n if he had resigned.... then oni he replied tat he had resigned n yesterday was his last day.... so we tried arranging to meet up to pass him sum tips n in the end, we r meeting coming monday at sakae..... ahahaha...... but there will b kynor, ygl n me n mayb sum other colls who wants to join..... but its ok..... i dun mind.... plus, not we got anything...... FRENS NIA MA!!!!!!!! nth wan.... so 'mou mou ren' dun think otherwise ok....... ;-p

22nd of August 2008

went to eat there again n he was working..... when making payment, audrey was non-stop teasing us.... n it made us so shy towards each other..... n he asked y i did not use PBB's credit card n i said tat i need to use 6 times a yr for waiver.... PBB no need wan ma.... then i tot of tat he wanted to apply for PBB n asked if he had submitted... n he replied tat they had called n asked him to attend the interview on 2nd of sept.... n ngam ngam, it was the end of the transaction d n he smiled n said thank u n i smiled in return n left.... for the toilet, n i think i announced quite loudly infact.... cos i met him at the entrance of the toilet n we both smiled at each other...... if its not bcos of audrey, i think we wld hv spoken viv ease..... imagine how paiseh we were when we were talking jz now.... i dun even dare to look at him n audrey scolded me cos i did not look at him when he was talking to me.... i paiseh ma..... he oso ma...... haih......

21st of August 2008

Woke up viv a dream lingering too… I dreamt of a fren of mine coming back to town n the moment he saw me, he hugged me so tightly n said tat he missed me very much…. Then while walking to the car, he held me by his side tightly….. 3mths n tis is the 5th dream tat I had of him….. funny…. Very funny…..

Anyway, today, sth real funny happened in the office…. A customer came in during lunch time n was frustrated about the machine cos its was jammed during his transaction….. n so happens tat kynor was at my table n he helped me viv tis uncle…. The uncle told kynor tat he banked in cash n it jams n we tot it was the cash machine…. But when I asked kynor to check for me, it was the cheque machine instead…. Later we found out tat tis damn smart uncle went to the cheque machine to bank in cash!!!! No wonder the machine jammed n went out of service………… haih……… we dun noe if we wan to laugh or not…. Even the tots of it oso makes me wan to laugh….. a great way to release tension during the peak time tat I had today as my partner is on CL cos her son was admitted to hospital…… hopefully the uncle learnt his lesson n read the signs b4 proceeding…… ;-p

20th of August 2008

tis morning woke up viv a dream lingering in my mind..... i dreamt of him.... he was viv all his x-colls n i was viv ygl n her bf.... we went travelling n met him n his x-colls...... n the moment i saw him, he was like a mirror to me tat i jz walked pass him vivout a word... did not even look at him at all... i guess it's all said n done btw us... i no longer hv anything to say to him... infact, seeing him again in future, i blieve i will do as i did in the dream.... chinese saying "zoi kin yik si phang yao" is not meant to b applied here in our relationship..... after all tat he did to me, i dun think i will c him as a fren anymore..... an expensive lesson of life tat i learnt will forever stay fresh in my memory..... a knife tat was painfully twisted into my heart will leave a scar forever.....

11th of August 2008

for the past few days, the moment my phone's msg tone rings, i will start to think.. is it him? will it b him? but there was none..... i think its jz nth nia kua.... still being frens is the best... at least the tension is not there..... it will b more relax talking to him like last thurs.... at 1st, i was very shy to talk to him but when it started, we r like frens within minutes..... my...

09th of August 2008

dun noe y lately i hv been having a restless feeling...... tis feeling had been lingering for more than a week d n today, it jz got worst.... tiff left me a msg tellin me tat aun's mum got problems n wan to get in touch viv soon.... but i told her tat we oredi broke up n she said tat its ok..... then fr then on, though his mum lingers in mind but it was never tis bad feeling as today..... tis morning i got so restless n had a feeling tat sth bad happened to her.... i hope my 6th sense is not the truth cos i dun hope her anything but health.... really dun noe y today felt so so so restless......

i msged oyi telling her tis restless feelings but she told me tat it's none of biz anymore.... but i really can't help tis restless feeling.... i pray for everything to well for his mum..... though its jz once tat i met her n thrice spoken to her, i oso dun hope anything bad to happen..... if i cld, i wld hv called his mum n ask her myself..... but she had oredi changed her contact no as she did not reload the last no for a period of time n the no got discontinued........

07th of August 2008

today i woke up viv a blue mood but brighter than yesterday's.... at least i din spend a lot of time choosing my colour today... anyway, ai tee smsed me during lunch n asked to meet up for dinner tonite n i replied her at almost 4pm as i was quite bz today.... n she told me tat she will b meeting him over dinner too n asked if i m ok viv it.... frankly, i din mind so i agreed....

6pm came n dun noe y i dreaded.... i dragged time until 6.15pm n left office for qbm.... i msged her once to confirm their meeting place n went there.... the 1st 1 i saw was him n then oni ai tee n her husband n her sister... then i sat down n he smiled at me.... n then continued viv listening to ai tee's husband explaining sum investment savings plans lo.... but i caught him eyeing me a few times as i was talking to ai tee.... u noe, he was all red!!!

then dun noe how in the end we started talking to each other n he turned normal again.... n we talked n talked n talked n talked.... n dun noe how we ended up exchanging our contact no!!!! my god.... never taken tis path b4.... haih.... he was talking bout buying phones then we discuss a bit on phone models n then he said tat he actually was looking at buying k770 so i asked if he oredi survey the price, he said yes.... but still not within his capabilities.... so i told him tat if he wans to buy phones, i can intro to him la since i noe frens in tis line of business.... n he bright up like a little boy given his fav sweet n replied me... so i called wayne for the price n told him the price lo.... n it got him thinking damn hard.... he looks very interested in buying d... tats y he told me tat he will call me after he tot over....

then we oso talked bout him changing jobs... it seems tat he actually submit his resignation letter to his boss but it was returned n his boss asked him to stay on.... then he told us tat he once applied for PBB but did not attend the interview cos he mistook tat he was to b based in kl when he wans to stay in pg..... so i explained to him tat all interviews were done in kl, the main office but the position depends on ur choice n subject to availability in the branch.... he tot tat he was to b based in bangi, kl... i told him tat bangi is our training centre n we oni go at least once a yr n not to b based there unless u r in IT.... then oni he understand.....

oh ya! while exchanging contact nos, i gave him my namecard n he was looking at it n said "ooo... yuan lai ur name is khoo lean lu..... very special name.... wat's ur chinese name?" then i told him to turn to the back of the card n he said "ooo.... ur chinese name is even more special...." then he asked if i got english name n i told him lo.... i guess he will remember my english name lo....

felt so on cloud nine now.... still wondering how everything goes so fast n tat we exchanged contact no..... i m now wondering if the next time i go sakae wat will the situation b like since oredi noe him...... speaking of sakae, jz now he was non-stop teasing me.... when i reached, ai tee was asking me wat i wan to eat for dinner n i said i dun noe n he replied telling me to go sakae lo..... then after tat, when ai tee's sister wans to go buy fries time, ai tee asked if i wan to eat anything n i said no since i still cant think of wat i wan to eat n he again replied me to go sakae pula..... then when we were leaving mcd time n ai tee asked me again wat to eat n i said dun noe, he again told me to go sakae..... haih..... really kek si wa nia.... now i can confirm tat he can recognise me for being a regular at sakae..... kept teasing me bout sakae..... kek si wa nia.....

anyway, i m still on cloud nine due to wat happened..... but i m having an extreme headache tat i kept crying.... now i really wan to go n sleep..... if not i sure kenot sleep due to pain d.....

06th of August 2008

same blue mood

05th of August 2008

woke feeling off colour again tis morning..... real bad for me..... no matter wat i wear oso does not match my mood today.... but white is better than red... at least it does not make me end up viv headache the whole day.... n today i had an extremely busy day viv so much to do n so little time to do..... makes me miss hk so so so much..... i really enjoyed my trip though its a little tired fr walking too much, sleeping late n waking up early...... guess i hv been working too hard d lately tats y i felt so so so tired..... no wonder i kept thinking of taking a break n go on holiday.... mayb next yr onwards i shd plan on going sumwhere at least once a yr as a reward to my restless body, mind n soul.....

04th of August 2008

i woke up viv a blue mood.... whole morning spent searching for my today's colour.... trying out diff diff clothes to c if it matches my mood but none.... in the end i wore sth tat is close to my mood of the day.... but i ended up viv a colour too bright for my mood n suffered headache the whole instead... haih..... lately alwix like tat.... alwix can't seem to find my mood of the day.... wear wat oso does not match my mood.... no wonder i m alwix feeling off colour lately.....

there was sth tat i did not post here... i had forgotten bout it cos last week too happy d.... now i wan to make tis post.... my results is out n i passed my module 1 d.... yippee!!!!! now i can proceed to next module d..... i was so worried tat i might not pass cos i did not study hard enuff... but luckily tis time, i got thru.... so now can register for next module d.... next, i will tackle taxation again n investments.... can't wait to take up retirement planning n estate planning.... tis is wat i m more interested in.... neways, wish me luck... pray for me to get thru again.....

01st of August 2008 - the past of lotus gal's love life

While watching ‘Little Bride’ n came across a few scene which reminded me of him n all tat he did….. remembered how he insist to carry me across the carpark as it was raining heavily tat the floor is very wet… remembered how he addressed me as his dear n lou por but oso marred by the tots of how he addressed her the same….. remembered how I waited for him at his rented apartment everynite as he rode back home n I opened the door for him n prepared for him to take a bath….. remembered how he wld smile when he walked in thru the door after work…. Remembered how he took care of me when I had fever, cooked for me, dry-bathe me, fed me…..

During a scene where the mum was telling the daughter abt her dad not saying I love u to her mum… the daughter asked if she felt sad never having the chance to heard her dad say tat to her n she replied tat she never felt sad cos as long as her husband felt the same n showed the same, she oredi feel satisfied….. tis made me tot of us again….. he did told me to believe him n stay viv him for he will do all his best for me….. he oso did say tat even if he dun say out loud tat he loves me doesn’t mean tat he dun feel the same…. As long as in his heart he noes who is the most important to him, I shd believe him cos everything he did was out of his love for me…… now as I type tis, I can’t help my tears fr falling….. mayb he is telling the truth, but mayb not….. I was oredi blinded by his lies….

N now, I remembered tat dreadful day when we fought…. I really dun noe how to justify wat he was doing then cos after we fought n he finally saw how hurt I was n after he had cooled down, he actually cradled me in his arms telling me how sorry he was for hurting me tis bad n he never meant for tis to happen…… n even the few days after, everytime he saw me, he cradle me in his arms telling me the same….

Then I tot of the day when we last quarreled n angrily shouted ‘break up’ at each other n how it never been the same since….. ever since tat day, I did not even wan to pick up his calls n he kept sending sms to apologize over wat he said….. n the last time I ever met for dinner n the 2 hrs spent quietly without a word towards each other, I noe tat we cld never get back again….. funnily, I tot I had forgotten how he actually looked like, but now, out of sudden, his vision is so clear…..

But now, everything is said n done….. let tis b a memory… whether to b classified as a good memory or not, it will stay a memory, a past….. a past of lotus gal’s unfortunate love life……

30th of July 2008, morning

i dreamt of him yet again...... tis time, both of us were on travelling n he held my hand while sightseeing... n on the bus when we sat together, i was lying on his shoulder sleeping...... funny how i can dream of him so many times lately......

29th of July 2008

i tot today is his rest day but never tot tat i wld c him working instead.... i tot since he is not working i can relax myself n enjoy my dinner but when i reach, immediately, i saw him at the counter... i was so shy when i saw him.... so so pai seh... then ygl n i walked n was shown to our table by a waitress as he was bz teaching another gal at the counter.... i sat at the direction of the counter n saw him teaching the gal... wah... very serious lo.... then we were eating n ken n his brother in law to b, join us for dinner too... n we were laughing n joking viv each other.... n saw him looking our way cos i was looking at him since i had the chance to viv ygl sitting opposite me n she noes tat i was looking at him... haha!! infact, at one point when i saw him looking our way, he turned..... plus, as ken n the other guy arrived, a waiter came by to get their drinks order n out of sudden, the waiter, matt sim, pointed out tat i m a regular customer n was trying to sell me the latest promotion they r having for regulars...... n ken n the other guy (sorry ya.... i jz can't seem to recall his name) was shocked when they heard tat i m a regular.... matt was nice though explaining bout the promo to me n then i politely tell him tat i will consider n come back since i alwix do n he was ok viv it.... when he returned to the counter, i saw tat he was asking matt but i m not sure abt wat......

anyway, after dinner when we head to the counter for pymt, i was jokingly playing viv ken in front of him..... i was telling ken to use my member card for the discount as it is much worth it than the citibank's buy 1 free 1 temaki offer n he was calculating n suddenly he started xplaining the logic bhind my saying n then ken agreed to use my card instead.... haha!!! i was trying to accumulate enuff for the upgrading of gold card ma..... n while he keying in the bill, ken n i was still jokingly talking n he was listening in n then ken asked him sth n he replied in HOKKIEN!!!! tis is the very 1st time i hear him speaking hokkien..... n when he read out the bill to us, no one is listening but me n he was looking at me when he said all tat..... so i jz 'uh huh' til the end lo cos its wat we ate ma..... guess wat, b4 they came, ygl n i was having 4R, 2P & 1G but it turns out we had 11R, 6P n 5G viv the other side orders n the bill comes up to a total of RM145++ after discount!!! thanks to ken as he took out his credit card for pymt..... tis the 2nd time he treats ygl n me for dinner.... the 1st was last fri.....

now i m thinking bout his feelings when i was talking to ken..... i felt bad..... i really joked viv ken rite in front of him..... really joking wan..... n ken was very like a very close fren, oso joked viv me n if ppl dun noe, might think otherwise..... haih.... but i did purposely say quite aloud bout me being still single when he was nearby our table while discussing things viv ygl..... not sure if he heard anyway.... haha!!! by the way, below is the numerology report of me n him.... enjoy pa....


lisa and ivan, your combination is almost made in heaven. The “almost” can’t be left out because there are some sharp angles to be rounded off. This relationship is founded more on intellectual and spiritual levels than on the sensual, physical plane. lisa is practical and grounded, goal-oriented - lisa is a doer. lisa can take ideas, quickly eliminate what won’t work or is unrealistic, and then make the realistic ideas materialize. lisa is of the earth. ivan, on the other hand, is full of ideas and spiritual search, philosophical and a bit of a dreamer. So, earth and heaven make up this combination, and, just like earth and heaven, you can’t exist without each other. Although this is only one aspect of the chart, its influence will help you overcome many of the obstacles and challenges inherit in every relationship.
This combination is often found among relationships that started at a very early age - something that can be explained by the fact that both numbers are drawn to each other because what they have to offer is exactly what they need from each other. lisa experiences ivan’s more abstract and philosophical outlook on life as offering freedom and space for lisa’s solid, dependable, but somewhat too structured, restricting views. At the same time, lisa offers ivan a stable, secure port in an internal universe that is often chaotic and highly unstable. As a number seven, ivan knows the dangers that lurk in the dark corners of the subconscious when the mind wonders too far into the realms of dreams and abstract fears. While lisa offers a safe haven to ivan, helping ivan find peace and comfort, ivan, in return, brings freedom to lisa’s spiritual and mental experiences. Supported by this mutual complementation, this four and seven combination can bring about childhood romances that will last for a lifetime.
The sharp angles I mentioned earlier are found on the more mundane, physical plane. This is where you both may have to compromise if you want your relationship to develop. While lisa requires order and respectability, ivan is more comfortable with a bit of chaos, in which ivan can pose as an observer, an unconventional observer, not per se seeking the approval of others.
If you are successful in compromising on the material plane, your relationship will be very satisfying and you will get as close to the proverbial “soul mates” as any two people can get.


one more thing, today LKH came ooo n he came to my table to submit his chq bk application n i was asking him if his sis's shop is doing family photo shoots... he said tat he will ask his sis n let me noe bout the paskages offered n reminded me tat if i m ok, i m to tell him so tat he can arrange the studio for me wor..... n i added tat i din c him for quite sum time d since i last return his memory card n he said to me tat he actually saw me but i was too bz to notice him.... i replied tat he shd jz waved at me everytime he comes in so tat i noe he is here n i wun ask the same question the next time around n he laughed.... dun noe y i had a feeling tat he n i can b great frens if we had the time to...... anyway, today is an overall gd day for me.... other than the few out-of-mind customers, the rest of the day is gd.... i wldnt say xcellent or perfect cos its not..... if i ever end up viv him(CSC) then i wld brand tat day as either perfect or xcellent.....

but i doubt if he wld come to me..... i m older than him!!!!! sum ppl r very particular in tis.... haih........... anyway, i m very tired d..... better get to sleep or i will b late again tomolo like tis morning..... overslept 1 morning call n was having a fickle mind on choosing my clothes of the day.... no... shd say my colour of the day..... lately, i m being very hard to please.... i can feel it!!! sth is not rite.... really not rite!!!!

26th of July 2008

Today is a very happy day for me….. cos today, I found out a lot of information bout him…… the world is really tat small….. today I had an appointment viv slimming sanctuary together viv YGL… so I went there very early for tat hoping tat when we finish, we cld do sum window shopping around…. But on my way, amber called n said tat is at home alone viv nothing to do n asked if wan to go out…. So I told her tat YGL n I is heading to QBM for the slimming thingy n then window shop n asked her if she wans to join us after tat for lunch then oni window shop n she agreed…. So we reached QBM viv lots of carparks for us to choose n head to slimming sanctuary to continue viv our trial course….

After the course, we had another half an hr b4 amber reaches, so we went walking around awhile…. While looking at watches, we met Audrey n her mum at city chain n she asked if we wan lunch together….. so we said ok but meeting up viv amber lo….. then we went walking around awhile until 1pm then we met up viv amber at sakae for lunch….. he was there…. N he took us to our table….. I was so shy….. but anyway, he left after taking us to our table n a waitress took our drinks order… then amber said tat 2 of her hsemates will b meeting us too… everything was fine until her fren, ai tee came n then everything happens so fast tat I dun even realize tat it is happening……

din noe how it bcome tat yuan lai ai tee is a coursemate of one of the mgt trainee in sakae, jenny.... n dun noe how it OSO turned out to b tat she oso noe him!!!! it was amber who 1st asked ai tee if she noes him n she immediately lights up n answered her 'yes' n immediately waved him over!!!! he came by n i dun noe y i took shield bside audrey but was listening in to their conversation.... ai tee introduced us all n asked iif he previously applied for a job in pbb n y he did not take up n then jenny said tat he was offered the pbb job in kl but he wanted to remain in penang.... n then asked us if got any vacancy in penang branches.... amber was looking at me all the while n she eyed me to talk to him but i was so shy i cld not even say a word.... then they interviewed him awhile more b4 letting him off to work n then jenny was telling us tat he is still single la n tat was thinking of leaving sakae but cld not get a better job.... dun noe y the moment i heard tat he is single i felt so relieved.... n then b4 ai tee went back to work, they asked her if got extra discount or not since ai tee is her fren... n she smiled n said got but no one noes tat i got member card... she went off n then came back awhile later viv his card instead n told us to present the card for discount....

n tats how i finally get to confirm his full name..... all tis while, i was rite bout his name n the news bout him still single is a gd news..... funnily was, fr the moment amber asked ai tee if he noes him, audrey got the impression tat she is interested in him n she had non-stop teasing amber n him.... then amber asked me if i wan to clarify things for her.... i smiled but said nothing.... then they asked him to come write the bill for us n then i returned his card as i oredi have mine, he smiled... then i proceed back to counter for pymt n queued up lo... but the queue was quite long n he saw tat n quickly made his way back to the counter passing bhind me n i guess mz b overlooking my msg as i was writing sms... then when it was my turn, i asked how to change add cos i've moved n he asked tat gal to take over while he get me the change of address form... i so pai seh lo......

after i made pymt, audrey teased me pula... amber told her the truth bout him n she was non-stop teasing me.... audrey said tat if she knew earlier, she wld hv teased me n him more.... i lagi pai seh..... i wld prefer to remain a secret admirer than letting him noe.... but then after wat happened, i kept thinking of him n wat happened.... i wonder if he recognise me the next time i go there..... n i oso wonder if he felt the same like i did when he was asked to our table.... n i was oso thinking wat he actually tot of me..... haih............ i oso dun noe.... i dun noe if i can face him again the next time i go there..... haih.................

next up is, i had a dream bout a long time fren of mine AGAIN for the 3RD TIME in a few mths time...... in tis dream, he actually hugged me, held my hands n kissed my forehead... his presence is really felt... the hug, the warmth of his hand n his kiss is so real..... each dream i had abt him is making me uncomfortable.... cos both of us cld never b together n yet the dreams appeared so real..... is there a meaning behind? wat r they trying to tell me bout our relationship?

2 weeks of not being able to on9 but hving so much tots.... hehe!!!! ;-p

for the past few days, i hv been having quite a lot of tots running in tis xtremely full head of mine...... the unhappy memories came floating back, reminding me of the painful episodes tat happened a yr ago..... its jz so so so painful..... dun noe y i actually cried then cos it is oredi a past now n tat i had let go of it all...... but i blieve as time goes by, i wun feel a pinch at all d......

next, i had tots of going to hk AGAIN n for a longer period.... i jz cant forget the sights of hk..... god... i m mad...... i tot to myself, wldnt it b nice if i can go to hk n stay for a mth jz to walk ard n do more sightseeing, to get a better feel for myself the life in hk....... now the more i go on, i felt tat i m getting madder.... haha!!! but i really hv an xtremely strong urge to go back to hk..... mayb next yr.... i'll b planning on it...... tis yr's plans is full oredi.... i'll b going to bali in oct....

since getting back fr my trip, i had a string of bz days..... my dad was admitted to hospital the 2nd day i was in hk... n underwent an operation on the 8th of july n was discharged 3 days later.... then my family n i was bz viv packing of our things for hse moving the following wednesday.... god.... wat a mess..... but it was an unexpected thingy.... din xpect tat my all the while strong n healthy dad wld had prostate gland inflammation til hv to admit hospital n operate...... but everything turned out smoothly on the moving day viv my uncle n cousin brother helping out viv the heavy stuffs..... n now oredi staying at the new hse n still adapting......

tis last few days of the mth is spent clearing my stuff in the office to make way for the auditors.... hope everything goes on smoothly.... i really pray hard..... anyway, i wld oso like to thank oyi n rachel who stood by my side during my worrying days when my dad is in hospital..... wld oso like to thank frens of their well wishes as well as those who had volunteered to help me out.... thank u very very much......

23rd of June 2008

i m getting more n more excited as time passes by.... i m leaving in 32.5hrs n i m so so so so so so so so so so so so excited...................... hong kong here i come......... hope everything goes well..... jz went to pharmacy to get sum essential medicine to take along..... now doing last min packing n checking to c if i miss out anything..... really can't wait to go....

today, i was very bz viv daily job n clearing sum overdued jobs as well..... at least i hv cleared 2 stacks at my desk n i hv another box underneath my desk to go n my side table too!! i hope tomolo can settle part of it.... then i m off d..... din clear din noe tat my table has got a lot of filings to do.... haih..... tis shows how bz i m..... infact, my relief partner told me tat if there is a position n dept where oni serve regular customers, i shd go for it cos i m good at it.... tis past 2 weeks, he noticed tat most of our regulars will alwix go direct to my table n wld rather wait for me to serve them..... infact, other reliefs oso realised tat.... so now u noe how bz i m in work..... tats the reason y oso my backlog is alwix tat much n neverending wan.... haih........... hope all can b settle soon.... cos i really hope tat my dept can score if not tis round of auditors oso, next round shd oredi.... tis round i blieve we wun score cos since the last round of auditors, most of the mths i m left alone to do all.... so since tat now i hv a permanent partner, i hope tat all can b settled.............

Annual Dinner ~ Parade of Stars 2008 on 21st of June 2008

well, well.... the long awaited nite... it was a bz day for me viv strings of phone calls, wrong coordination of time, whole day of headache but an enjoyable evening..... ysl had a day b4 asked me to fetch her to EQ for her make up session around 10.30 to 11am.... but last min, she called n told me tat she will b late.... N she came at 11.30am n i reached EQ at almost 11.50am.... so i tot, might as well wait for the Theme Awards gals n help them check in as well.... mana tau, they oni arrived an hour later..... N WE WERE MADE TO WAIT FOR ANOTHER HR FOR A ROOM!!!!!! so much of a high class hotel..... no comments though..... by the time i settled them into the room, i m oredi way out of arranged time.... i reached home around 2 plus n took a quick bath n dressed up n headed ASAP to ting's mum's shop for my hair n make up..... i had actually xpected to reach there by 2.15pm n start my hair do n make up.... but i reached 45mins after my xpected time..... n i had to b at EQ at 4pm to help nicole viv door gift distribution but i cld not make it on time.... n mr tham n ms voon kept calling me asking me bout the TA.... their make up n hair do was oso delayed as, like i said, wrong time coordination..... haih..... tis is wat i least hope to happened on a day when everything seems to go wrong..... luckily enuff, they made it on time to register themselves.... n i reached EQ at 5plus.... it really is a day when everything gone wrong.....

anyway, helped up viv the door gift distribution n then went it for the dinner.... a lucky yr n nite.... our table got the table draw of a coffee maker n one of my coll actually got the grand individual draw of a 5D4N hong kong n disneyland for 2 pax plus 2k cash!!!! she was oso caught by surprise when her no was announced.... really a lucky for our branch.... hope tis will go on n reflect in our income at yr end!!!

infact, after the speech given by our Tan Sri Chairman, he oso made a special n surprised announcement to the staffs.... due to the current increase in prices of fuel n several food items, Tan Sri Chairman n the mgt has decided to reduce our staff loan rates.... for staff housing loan, prices <100k>500k is 2%.... for staff car loan leh i cant really remember d.... for staff motorcycle loan, prices <5k is 0%... tis is all tat i can remember..... no wonder, all the staff r so willing to work viv PBB..... cos we hv a Chairman whom is so thoughtful of the staffs' welfare..... i m oso 1 of them too!!! i m very fortunate to b working in PBB viv Tan Sri Chairman.... he is a very generous Chairman which i m sure no one can compare to him n very sure tat the staffs agree to.....

infact today has a lot of news tat i oso wan to share viv all..... today's headlines on Sunday Times is abt the SMS scam n the sidelines of an increase of salary for all bank employees.... i hope everyone is aware of the recent scams by smses.... oredi a few customers lost their savings falling prey to tis scams... so i beg all who actually read tis to b xtra careful..... police oso advise the public to verify msg N DON'T REVEAL UR ACCOUNT DETAILS!!!!!!!

the other is abt the increase of salary for the bank employees which is a long awaited good news.... i hope to get it soon.... i blieve Tan Sri Chairman is prepared for all tis d.....


relevant links:-
1. http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Sunday/Frontpage/2273838/Article/index_html

2. http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Sunday/Frontpage/2273847/Article/index_html

3. http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Sunday/Frontpage/2274128/Article/index_html

4. http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Sunday/Frontpage/2274141/Article/index_html

5. http://www.nst.com.my/Current_News/NST/Sunday/Frontpage/2274142/Article/index_htm

21st June 2008

today is my company's dinner at EQ.... now i m still thinking of how to improve my dress.... din hv the time for dress searching as i was bz viv my exams n seldom go shopping.... infact 2 weeks d i din go sakae.... how i miss my salmon sashimi..... but then its ok.... its worth it to 'tahan' cos i m leaving for hk i m 4 days time... yippee!!!!! frankly i dun even hv the mood for dinner tonite.... i din even wan to attend wan... but my boss says 100% attendance n infact those who alwix skip dinner oso going so i hv no say lo..... if oni hk is during tis time..... anyway... tonite's dinner has got quite a lot of lucky draws.... i wonder if i m tat lucky.... we'll c....

like i said, i'll b moving in 2 weeks' time... now i m thinking if i hv enuff time to pack... my dad says yes but i dun feel so.... haha!!! cos i hv a lot of 'ka chang' lo.... hahaha!!!!!

19th of June 2008

i'll b moving in 2 weeks' time.... my parents jz told me..... i tot it will b in sept.... but looks like weeks is not enuff to pack all things le...... n viv me away for a week, i m oni left viv 1 week to pack....... haih...............

18th of June 2008

for the past few days, i had wanted to update my blog but i ended up sleeping instead cos i was too tired d..... (cld u imagine jz how tired i was)... haih........... tats life isn't it? anyway, 1stly i wanted to write down a dream i had on monday nite abt a very close fren of mine..... in the dream, i was lying on his leg jz resting head like tat n his hand was stroking my head while we watch tv n he fed me fruits..... then out of sudden, he told me tat i will sleep in his room tat nite on his bed n funnily, i asked wat abt him..... n he replied tat he will b sleeping on the floor in his room lo..... he sound so real its like he was really by my side!!! its really his voice tats talking to me n its really his hand tat is stroking my head while i rest my head on his leg!!!! i really cld not blieve tat i actually dreamt tis so real.... infact tis is oredi the 2nd time!!! previously it was jz actions n no talking, tis time it really felt so real.... i can even feel his warmth...... but he n i r jz frens, bro n sis nia!!!! how cld tis b? i cldnt b so man crazy m i?



2ndly, i m happy tat my appraisal has improved fr last yr n tat the points given is acceptable...... hope next yr will b better.....



3rdly, i went to QBM after work today viv zam to look for accessories for our dinner dress.... i purposely park at the central zone as i wan to walk down sakae there.... n i saw him there.... he was working.... so happy to c him since i din c him for the past 1 week d.... been very very bz last week as i was bz viv my trip planning n exams..... tis week leh, i bz viv my dinner pula..... tis coming sat is my co dinner n i m having headache d....... haih............

15th of June 2008

finally exams is over n i m free!!!!!! burning midnite oil for the past few days viv so much to read n fit into the small brain of mine viv limited space of memory proves to b a very hard task to accomplish!!! gd things is i did not spot questions cos i dun noe since i m still new to all tis.... a few questions tat i guess even the lecturer din realise will come out n infact a topic tat he totally did not even ocver n it was not even stated in the manual the college gave us..... so in the end i had to ose my own logic thinking to answer tat question.... i guess my classmates oso facing the same.... but we will still feedback to our lecturer on tis so tat he can xplain to us for our information..... now i m back home, updating tis blog of mine as well as reading my best frens' blogs n listening to my fav tunes n catching up viv my fav series too!!!!! M-U-L-T-I-T-A-S-K-I-N-G!!!!! tats wat i m pretty good at.... haha!!!!

07th of June 2008

finally did sth rite after so long.... felt so relieved after cutting all ties viv him.... tis is the best thing tat i ever did for myself.... tis is the best way to go.....

03rd of June 2008 - DAMN frustrating day!!!

CUSTOMERS R REALLY DAMN HARD TO PLEASE!!!!! WHEN U R BEING TO COOL TOWARDS THEM, THEY FILE A COMPLAINT TAT U R BEING RUDE!!! BUT WHEN U TREAT THEM BETTER, LIKE A FREN OF OURSELF, THEY SAY TAT 'SHE IS CHATTING ON THE PHONE WITH HER "FREN" ' N CALL U "INEXPERIENCE, POOR SERVICE, EXTREME SLOW. HOW WONDERFUL!"



WAT THE F**K!!!!! i noe tat he is working in the factory (MOTOROLA SUM MORE!!!) N NOT in the SERVICE line like i m N i oso noe tat he is very DAMN "EDUCATED" but tat does not mean tat he can file complaint like he owns the BANK!!!! DAMN HIM!!!! F**K HIM!!!! N SUM MORE CLAIM TAT HE WAS PUT INTO 'A SCENARIO WHICH IS WORST THAN "WORST"!!!' WAT THE F**K!!!!



1stly, he complaint for waiting for 30mins b4 his turn when there is oni 1 no. in front of him... FACT IS, my partner cleared a no. for me rite b4 she went out for lunch n then past over to me to proceed viv the opening... after tat customer, i called the next no. n proceed viv the customer to open account... n jz when i was abt to go upstair to collect the account opening form fr the e-bds, a regular customer of mine called to enquire balance as well as enquire more bout re-application of credit card n after my explanation, the customer told me tat he will arrange his time to come over to the branch n to submit re-application.... but he said tat he will come roughly sumwhere end of the mth SO OUT OF COURTESY, i told the customer tat i wun b in town tis mth end n the customer asked if i m going travelling so i told him yes n tat i will b on leave fr 25th of june til 1st of july cos going to hk.... n reminded him tat either to come b4 or after my trip.... mana tau tis DAMN IDIOT WHO THINK HE IS SO DAMN SMART actually 'THINKS' tat i m talking to my fren!!!!!!!!!

i blieve tat he oso does go travelling la... n plus i blieve tat his colls oso will look for him if they need him la...... SO HE WILL OSO TELL HIS PIERS TAT HE WILL OFF TO TRAVELLING N WILL ONI B BACK A FEW DAYS LATER LA!!!!!! IF LIKE TAT, THEN HE IS CHATTING VIV HIS FREN LO BOUT HIS TRIP TO DUN NOE WHERE LA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! U SAY LA!!! I DARE TO BLIEVE TAT HE IS DAMN INCONSIDERATE WAN LO SINCE HE CAN FILE SUCH COMPLAINT!!!!

but no matter how, i strongly blieves tat 'wat comes around, goes around'..... so i bet he will face the same situation he put me in later on n he will then realise tat he had wronged me now!!!! but i sure hope tat he will get it back worst than me!!!! like he said, worst than 'worst' viv no words to xpress my disapointment!!!!! REALLY DAMN HIM!!!! haih.... talking bout tis oso make me angry!!!! dun ever ever let me come across him yet again but on a reverse position OR I"LL MAKE HIS LIFE WORST THAN "WORST"!!!!

31st May 2008 - happy happy day!!!

today is a very happy happy day for me..... reason being, my hong kong trip is finally finalised!!!!!! so so SO HAPPY!!!!!! I FELT SO HIGH NOW N SO IN THE MOOD!!!!! very very happy...... yesterday when oyi gave me a call n said tat our trip might hv to b cancelled, i had mixed feelings cos i hv been planning for tis since last yr.... but on the other hand, i cld not blame her cos it was her gd chance to finally change a better job, which i was very happy for her.... so i tot today's trip to the tour agent is jz merely booking not confirming.... but wat happened today was diff.... the agent told us tat the tax will increase starting tomolo, so its purchase cheap now or take up xpensively nest week when oyi can confirm her tix.... n due to my leave was approved oredi so i cld not do anything to it anymore.... plus, rachel (oyi's coll who is going viv us) oso said tat she can oni make it in june n not july tat we hv to finalised june's trip instead.... tot of either going earlier or later n then xtend but my leave cld no longer change so, 25th-30th of june it is tat we hv confirmed!!!!! after we had confirmed our flights, both rachel n i were on cloud 9 n as xcited as little kids going to the park.... we were non-stop making plans of wat we were going to do there n wat to buy n look for there...... really really xcited!!!! finally, i m going to hong kong!!!!!



other than tis happy decision, i had a bad 1.... i had dreams tis past few nites n on of it was i dreamt tat i met tat bitch n she was staring at me like she was afraid tat i will hurt her.... but instead, even when i knew she was staring at me, i jz walked away as if i dun even noe her at all.... frankly, after being brainwashed by oyi n long thinking, i agree tat oyi was rite... since both of them did wat they did to me, i bet the God saw tat.... n as a Buddhist who blieves in karma, i blieve tat wat goes around comes around....... its jz a matter of time nia..... so let it b.....



n i finally oso made up my mind tat i will pay my godbro a visit at his new hse since he asked me to n tat if both x n bitch saw my car n x calls, i will noe wat to say.... 1st of all, i will stop my supplementary line come 7th of june..... i blieve tat wat is said n done, is completed d..... wat shd b paid off tis live oredi settled d.....



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lately, i was made to admit tat i like looking at a guy who works in a restaurant tat i alwix dine in...... frankly, i noticed ivan quite awhile oredi but i din really realised tat... last fri when oyi n i dined there n he, who took our drink orders, ACTUALLY forgot to bring us our green tea!!!! when we realised tat, oyi was smiling away saying tat he was too happy serving us tat he forgot our drinks!!!!! then after tat, i scalded my hand while filling hot water into my cup cos i was busy noticing a plate almost falling out fr the kaiten belt which was caused by the other table's customer accidentally dropping his chopsticks on the kaiten belt n then trying to pick it up.... too bad, he did not walk past our table cos the table was wet n i asked the nearest waiter to wipe it dry n the waiter asked wat happened.... oyi told him tat i scalded my hand while filling up hot water n he asked if i was alright.... oyi asked him to bring a cup of iced water for me to dip my fingers in.... i guess ivan saw tat i was dipping my fingers in the cup when he finally walked by but he din stop by to ask la..... n he was busy talking to customers at another table.... now i m really curious to noe who r they..... by then, he is oredi off office hrs d.... n saw him leaving the restaurant for home..... haih................ if oni he was the one who walked by our table when i ask to wipe the table dry n he was the one who brought me the iced water..... haih............. but then again... he dun noe tat i like looking at him lo.... so let it b la.....



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tis few days was very busy for me.... finally its time tat i can update all my pending documents..... since my partner is back fr maternity, n tat she can finally take over her filings, i hv more time to my own filings..... but its a big mess as most was accumulated since last yr..... hopefully after tis few weeks of hardwork to finish up all the pendings, everything will return to its normal pace n runs smoothly fr there...... i oso hope to make my dept work best but it takes time lo since my partner is still new..... hope tat she can pick up soon enuff so tat we can run tis dept smoothly........ kampatei onu n zz!!!!! we will make it....... i oso hope tat tis round of auditors, zz n i can learn more fr our mistakes to make improvements for the next auditors..... i blieve we will make it!!!!



exams is jz 2 weeks away n i m still unprepared!!!! haih..... hopefully, i will b prepared by then..... after exams, is our company's Annual Dinner n then a few days after tat, i will b off to hong kong d...... time does flies..... i dun even noe wat i actually did tis past 5 mths..... felt like it was jz yesterday tat i celebrated New Yr.... n now its oredi 31st of May oredi!!!!! haih...... its like i hv no life at all..... i bet many will agree viv me...... 5mths oredi past n yet nth was done...... i shd get a life man!!!! haih....................



haha!!! but then again, i finally did sth in june..... tat is going to hong kong!!!!! haha!!!!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DAY!!!!!!!!!