memories of the past

tis past few days, i did not sleep well.... right b4 sleep, all those past keeps flooding back into my mind... n it hurts.... the more u try to forget, the more it comes flooding back..... i wonder how long more tat i hv to endure b4 i finally forget those unhappy episodes.................. out of sudden, i had a very strong urge to cut all ties...... i guess tis will help me to forget better? anyway, its abt time to do jz tat.... at least not so 'ngan yuen'...........

lately, i hv been thinking quite a lot too..... but i blieve tat all happen for a reason n its a lesson to learn. oso blieve tat the lesson learnt will teach me to b smarter in future...... no doubt tat i dun noe wat my future holds for me but i noe tat i will b able to breeze thru it.... the worst had been endured, the rest wld b better than tat d...... being on ur own is not a nightmare, infact its a blessing....... its the best blessing cos we wld never betray ourself......

20th March 2008

yesterday morning, i had a dream tat my total cost of my car repair of window n clock is RM171-24..... mana tau when i collected my car at perodua service ctr in the evening, my total was RM401-80!!!! n the price tat i dreamt of is the cost of my car clock!!!!! imagine tat, 1 small little clock cost tat much!!!! haih...... kek sim ar...... then immediately, i send for alarm changing, n tinting.......... alarm = RM230, tinting = RM90..... n cd player still not yet fix....... haih....... but luckily, my dad agrees to pay for me...........

enuff of my car d since its oredi done oredi.... left a few more things to do oni...... last nite, actually planned to watch movie wan but in the end, my colls n i ended up going clubbing...... n bcos i was not driving, i drank quite a bit..... but luckily i din vomit or feel drunk...... oni felt lightheaded nia...... n tis morning, slept like a pig til kenot wake up.... if not for my mum, i wld still b sleeping at 2pm!!! woke up viv slight headache.... everytime i drink, i will definately sleep like a pig wan..... but at least better than vomitting or whole body swollen or rashes d....... til now, my body still aching.....

16th March 2008 - DAMN! REALLY REALLY UNLUCKY!!!!!

as my headings read, really damn unlucky! tis morning i was in a hurry to go college for registration of my CFP course.... when i got to my car, i was shocked when i saw my car in a mess viv all my things fr the boot all on the front seat!!!! i tot wat did my brother do to my car n i wanted to call my brother to scold.... then i remembered tat the nite b4, my whole family went out for dinner together to celebrate my dad's bday n after tat never go out at all.... then i turn to c my car n found tat my window is broken n the 1st thing i did was looked at my dashboard!!! DAMN!!! my cd player is gone!!!!! together viv my car clock, 3 pendrives (4gb), modulator & 3 jack jacks!!!!!!!!! DAMN!!! DAMN!!! DAMN!!! called my dad down n tehn he followed me to make poilce rpt n then send my car for repair..... wonder how much all those wld cost me!!!! DAMN!!!!!!

11th of March 2008 - DAMN DAMN DAMN UNLUCKY DAY!!!!!

today is really a DAMN DAMN DAMN UNLUCKY DAY!!!!!!

04th of March 2008 - hell day!!!!

tis is xactly wat i hate in a partner!!!! i reached office 5 minutes late n found out tat my partner will b on EL today!!!!!! WAT THE HECK!!!! reason for her EL? her maid is sick! i guess my colls realised tat my face is a black as ever, started asking if my partner is on leave... i told them tat she is on EL cos her maid is sick n guess wat they asked me back!!!! y her maid sick, she kenot come to work? TATS Y LA!!!! Y? WAT DOES HER MAID BEING SICK GOTTO DO VIV HER COMING TO WORK OR NOT??? HELL MAN!!!! anyway, today i was very very bz cos hv to 2 ppl's job ma.... oredi very bz due to the BSM 2008, sum more got counter duties leh........ sum more BRAINLESS colls kept on calling my name to do tis la, do tat la....... FRUSTRATED!!!!!! in the end i got so angry, i 'DND' my phone so tat no calls can b pass to my ext...... even when they paged me for calls oso i din even give a damn to answer at all....... really ma! oredi so bz viv BSM d sum more other duties leh....... sum more ppl today dun like wat wan..... haih........

in the evening time, 1 of my customer came to me said "today u alone again ar?" i said "yes".... then she said "looks like u got the worst partner d.... everytime i come, u r alwix working alone wan.... y promote such a coll for u?"..... c la.... customer oso say tat....... really dun noe wat to say.......... i work can d......... do as i can manage can d............ no strength to fight so much....... if i hv the chance, i will leave tis position for another position n then let them promote other colls for her n c if they suffer the same fate...................

03rd of March 2008 - bz bz day

tis morning when i reached office, i was shocked to c tat my table is a mess viv atm journals..... boring.... hv to sort thru the mess to fold the journal up d........ pity me..... so i started to look for the tail of journal to start folding while printing report fr the system...... n as i was preparing for the bank to open its door, i saw tat quite a number of senior citizens oredi queueing up at the door.... ah!!!! launching of the Bon Simpanan Merdeka n today is the 1st day tat its up for sales..... last nite oredi xpected a lot of ppl will make their way to the bank for tis but when i woke up tis morning n saw the cloudy weather, i tot otherwise....... but believe or not....... 17 cases in 1 hrs time!!!!!! oredi these ppl kenot wait for their turn n yet the photocopier is not behaving itself....... so frustrated!!!!! then after tat sum more hv to proceed viv normal csr services..... today all customers r very impatient...... one after another viv their complaints....... haih.............. sum more viv one of my officer makes me even crazier...... my table was oredi surrounded by many ppl n suddenly a valued customer sent his office boy to c me n then asked me to do sum transactions for him..... as i went thru his transactions, i realised tat the customer did not sign on the reversed side of the cheque so i called him back n informed to come over n sign later today or tomolo morning n he agreed so i passed all to the counter to process n even inform the teller bout the signature part n reminded her tat its a valued customer so to process n follow up viv signature later........

tis STUPID, IDIOT teller, of all officers, she went to tis DOINK officer n gave me a hell of trouble trying to tell her to proceed viv the transaction n tat the customer will come later to sign....... but tis DOINK officer dun seem to get tis to her brains n kept insisting tat the customer sign b4 processing!!!!!!! i told her tat tis is a valued customer n tat ms voon will allow if she cld jz inform her but tis DOINK kept saying no!!!!!!! WAT THE HECK!!!!! i was frustrated tat i actually shouted at her to jz do the transaction n tat the customer will come n then left the counter for my table n continue my work...... as i was shouting at her, ms voon saw the whole thing n asked tat DOINK to jz proceed viv the transaction or tis valued customer will complain...... then she reminded me to ask the customer to come n sign..... i told her tat the customer oredi promised to come by tomolo latest........ n true enuff to her words, she came jz a few minutes later to sign....... haih........... 1 DOINK, n 1 STUPID IDIOT!!!!! really kek si wa nia..................

after tat, after finishing viv customers, did all balancings n then proceed viv follow up viv the BSM 2008 forms....... fill up til my hand oso painful....... jz today oni oredi RM1M++ d...... not bad ar....... like tat RM2billion very fast sold out d...... previously, its sold out within 2 days!!!! tis time i blieve the same too........ by the finish filling up the checklist its oredi 8.45pm!!!!! haih........... reach home oredi 9.15pm...... bath n eat oredi 9.45pm........... now oni got time to write blog...... then in awhile more, i'm off to bed d..... n tomolo is yet another day..........

now i m praying tat tomolo will b better as compared to today.............. plus, dun noe y suddenly i hv tummyache.............. wonder wat i ate wrong.................

2nd of March 2008 - not yet recover

haih....... after so many days oredi n yet i still hvn't recover yet..... currently my voice is back bit by bit but not completely...... my tonsils jz started to swell yet again...... n i felt so tired even after sleeping so much....... i can feel tat my eyes is swollen but isn't it funny considering tat i actually slept so much oredi..... plus drink water so much til body oso water fat oredi........ even now, i felt so lightheaded n bones is aching....... hopefully i will recover tis few days la...... very tiring la like tat....... 3 weeks being sick..... wat the heck!!!