21st of April 2009

its been a mth plus since i last blog.... had been very very bz viv other things n appointments..... when i m free, i will b catching up on my lost sleep..... til now, i m still very tired n sleepy..... i noe i can alwix take leave to rest but i wanna save my leave for yr end usage.... me wanna go shopping in kl... plus was thinking of going around m'sia for short travel..... n still thinking n planning....

since the last blog, i had been thinking...... n i guess its jz a memory in me now..... 16th tis mth marks the 2nd anniversary of the worst fight we had which left bruising n in the state of pain n shock, all-in-1........ though i no longer felt the self destruction pain which i felt a yr ago but the memory remains..... n bcos of tis, the memory instilled the habit of being wary of my surroundings n lost interest in relationships..... i hv hoped b4 tat i wld settle down sumday but now, i no longer felt the same.....

my mum esp is starting to worry for me as i m alwix at home n not out getting to noe more frens... i hv bcome very reserved n alwix-at-home person..... haih...... my life..... if oni i can end it rite now, i wld b happier.........