30th of July 2008, morning

i dreamt of him yet again...... tis time, both of us were on travelling n he held my hand while sightseeing... n on the bus when we sat together, i was lying on his shoulder sleeping...... funny how i can dream of him so many times lately......

29th of July 2008

i tot today is his rest day but never tot tat i wld c him working instead.... i tot since he is not working i can relax myself n enjoy my dinner but when i reach, immediately, i saw him at the counter... i was so shy when i saw him.... so so pai seh... then ygl n i walked n was shown to our table by a waitress as he was bz teaching another gal at the counter.... i sat at the direction of the counter n saw him teaching the gal... wah... very serious lo.... then we were eating n ken n his brother in law to b, join us for dinner too... n we were laughing n joking viv each other.... n saw him looking our way cos i was looking at him since i had the chance to viv ygl sitting opposite me n she noes tat i was looking at him... haha!! infact, at one point when i saw him looking our way, he turned..... plus, as ken n the other guy arrived, a waiter came by to get their drinks order n out of sudden, the waiter, matt sim, pointed out tat i m a regular customer n was trying to sell me the latest promotion they r having for regulars...... n ken n the other guy (sorry ya.... i jz can't seem to recall his name) was shocked when they heard tat i m a regular.... matt was nice though explaining bout the promo to me n then i politely tell him tat i will consider n come back since i alwix do n he was ok viv it.... when he returned to the counter, i saw tat he was asking matt but i m not sure abt wat......

anyway, after dinner when we head to the counter for pymt, i was jokingly playing viv ken in front of him..... i was telling ken to use my member card for the discount as it is much worth it than the citibank's buy 1 free 1 temaki offer n he was calculating n suddenly he started xplaining the logic bhind my saying n then ken agreed to use my card instead.... haha!!! i was trying to accumulate enuff for the upgrading of gold card ma..... n while he keying in the bill, ken n i was still jokingly talking n he was listening in n then ken asked him sth n he replied in HOKKIEN!!!! tis is the very 1st time i hear him speaking hokkien..... n when he read out the bill to us, no one is listening but me n he was looking at me when he said all tat..... so i jz 'uh huh' til the end lo cos its wat we ate ma..... guess wat, b4 they came, ygl n i was having 4R, 2P & 1G but it turns out we had 11R, 6P n 5G viv the other side orders n the bill comes up to a total of RM145++ after discount!!! thanks to ken as he took out his credit card for pymt..... tis the 2nd time he treats ygl n me for dinner.... the 1st was last fri.....

now i m thinking bout his feelings when i was talking to ken..... i felt bad..... i really joked viv ken rite in front of him..... really joking wan..... n ken was very like a very close fren, oso joked viv me n if ppl dun noe, might think otherwise..... haih.... but i did purposely say quite aloud bout me being still single when he was nearby our table while discussing things viv ygl..... not sure if he heard anyway.... haha!!! by the way, below is the numerology report of me n him.... enjoy pa....


lisa and ivan, your combination is almost made in heaven. The “almost” can’t be left out because there are some sharp angles to be rounded off. This relationship is founded more on intellectual and spiritual levels than on the sensual, physical plane. lisa is practical and grounded, goal-oriented - lisa is a doer. lisa can take ideas, quickly eliminate what won’t work or is unrealistic, and then make the realistic ideas materialize. lisa is of the earth. ivan, on the other hand, is full of ideas and spiritual search, philosophical and a bit of a dreamer. So, earth and heaven make up this combination, and, just like earth and heaven, you can’t exist without each other. Although this is only one aspect of the chart, its influence will help you overcome many of the obstacles and challenges inherit in every relationship.
This combination is often found among relationships that started at a very early age - something that can be explained by the fact that both numbers are drawn to each other because what they have to offer is exactly what they need from each other. lisa experiences ivan’s more abstract and philosophical outlook on life as offering freedom and space for lisa’s solid, dependable, but somewhat too structured, restricting views. At the same time, lisa offers ivan a stable, secure port in an internal universe that is often chaotic and highly unstable. As a number seven, ivan knows the dangers that lurk in the dark corners of the subconscious when the mind wonders too far into the realms of dreams and abstract fears. While lisa offers a safe haven to ivan, helping ivan find peace and comfort, ivan, in return, brings freedom to lisa’s spiritual and mental experiences. Supported by this mutual complementation, this four and seven combination can bring about childhood romances that will last for a lifetime.
The sharp angles I mentioned earlier are found on the more mundane, physical plane. This is where you both may have to compromise if you want your relationship to develop. While lisa requires order and respectability, ivan is more comfortable with a bit of chaos, in which ivan can pose as an observer, an unconventional observer, not per se seeking the approval of others.
If you are successful in compromising on the material plane, your relationship will be very satisfying and you will get as close to the proverbial “soul mates” as any two people can get.


one more thing, today LKH came ooo n he came to my table to submit his chq bk application n i was asking him if his sis's shop is doing family photo shoots... he said tat he will ask his sis n let me noe bout the paskages offered n reminded me tat if i m ok, i m to tell him so tat he can arrange the studio for me wor..... n i added tat i din c him for quite sum time d since i last return his memory card n he said to me tat he actually saw me but i was too bz to notice him.... i replied tat he shd jz waved at me everytime he comes in so tat i noe he is here n i wun ask the same question the next time around n he laughed.... dun noe y i had a feeling tat he n i can b great frens if we had the time to...... anyway, today is an overall gd day for me.... other than the few out-of-mind customers, the rest of the day is gd.... i wldnt say xcellent or perfect cos its not..... if i ever end up viv him(CSC) then i wld brand tat day as either perfect or xcellent.....

but i doubt if he wld come to me..... i m older than him!!!!! sum ppl r very particular in tis.... haih........... anyway, i m very tired d..... better get to sleep or i will b late again tomolo like tis morning..... overslept 1 morning call n was having a fickle mind on choosing my clothes of the day.... no... shd say my colour of the day..... lately, i m being very hard to please.... i can feel it!!! sth is not rite.... really not rite!!!!

26th of July 2008

Today is a very happy day for me….. cos today, I found out a lot of information bout him…… the world is really tat small….. today I had an appointment viv slimming sanctuary together viv YGL… so I went there very early for tat hoping tat when we finish, we cld do sum window shopping around…. But on my way, amber called n said tat is at home alone viv nothing to do n asked if wan to go out…. So I told her tat YGL n I is heading to QBM for the slimming thingy n then window shop n asked her if she wans to join us after tat for lunch then oni window shop n she agreed…. So we reached QBM viv lots of carparks for us to choose n head to slimming sanctuary to continue viv our trial course….

After the course, we had another half an hr b4 amber reaches, so we went walking around awhile…. While looking at watches, we met Audrey n her mum at city chain n she asked if we wan lunch together….. so we said ok but meeting up viv amber lo….. then we went walking around awhile until 1pm then we met up viv amber at sakae for lunch….. he was there…. N he took us to our table….. I was so shy….. but anyway, he left after taking us to our table n a waitress took our drinks order… then amber said tat 2 of her hsemates will b meeting us too… everything was fine until her fren, ai tee came n then everything happens so fast tat I dun even realize tat it is happening……

din noe how it bcome tat yuan lai ai tee is a coursemate of one of the mgt trainee in sakae, jenny.... n dun noe how it OSO turned out to b tat she oso noe him!!!! it was amber who 1st asked ai tee if she noes him n she immediately lights up n answered her 'yes' n immediately waved him over!!!! he came by n i dun noe y i took shield bside audrey but was listening in to their conversation.... ai tee introduced us all n asked iif he previously applied for a job in pbb n y he did not take up n then jenny said tat he was offered the pbb job in kl but he wanted to remain in penang.... n then asked us if got any vacancy in penang branches.... amber was looking at me all the while n she eyed me to talk to him but i was so shy i cld not even say a word.... then they interviewed him awhile more b4 letting him off to work n then jenny was telling us tat he is still single la n tat was thinking of leaving sakae but cld not get a better job.... dun noe y the moment i heard tat he is single i felt so relieved.... n then b4 ai tee went back to work, they asked her if got extra discount or not since ai tee is her fren... n she smiled n said got but no one noes tat i got member card... she went off n then came back awhile later viv his card instead n told us to present the card for discount....

n tats how i finally get to confirm his full name..... all tis while, i was rite bout his name n the news bout him still single is a gd news..... funnily was, fr the moment amber asked ai tee if he noes him, audrey got the impression tat she is interested in him n she had non-stop teasing amber n him.... then amber asked me if i wan to clarify things for her.... i smiled but said nothing.... then they asked him to come write the bill for us n then i returned his card as i oredi have mine, he smiled... then i proceed back to counter for pymt n queued up lo... but the queue was quite long n he saw tat n quickly made his way back to the counter passing bhind me n i guess mz b overlooking my msg as i was writing sms... then when it was my turn, i asked how to change add cos i've moved n he asked tat gal to take over while he get me the change of address form... i so pai seh lo......

after i made pymt, audrey teased me pula... amber told her the truth bout him n she was non-stop teasing me.... audrey said tat if she knew earlier, she wld hv teased me n him more.... i lagi pai seh..... i wld prefer to remain a secret admirer than letting him noe.... but then after wat happened, i kept thinking of him n wat happened.... i wonder if he recognise me the next time i go there..... n i oso wonder if he felt the same like i did when he was asked to our table.... n i was oso thinking wat he actually tot of me..... haih............ i oso dun noe.... i dun noe if i can face him again the next time i go there..... haih.................

next up is, i had a dream bout a long time fren of mine AGAIN for the 3RD TIME in a few mths time...... in tis dream, he actually hugged me, held my hands n kissed my forehead... his presence is really felt... the hug, the warmth of his hand n his kiss is so real..... each dream i had abt him is making me uncomfortable.... cos both of us cld never b together n yet the dreams appeared so real..... is there a meaning behind? wat r they trying to tell me bout our relationship?

2 weeks of not being able to on9 but hving so much tots.... hehe!!!! ;-p

for the past few days, i hv been having quite a lot of tots running in tis xtremely full head of mine...... the unhappy memories came floating back, reminding me of the painful episodes tat happened a yr ago..... its jz so so so painful..... dun noe y i actually cried then cos it is oredi a past now n tat i had let go of it all...... but i blieve as time goes by, i wun feel a pinch at all d......

next, i had tots of going to hk AGAIN n for a longer period.... i jz cant forget the sights of hk..... god... i m mad...... i tot to myself, wldnt it b nice if i can go to hk n stay for a mth jz to walk ard n do more sightseeing, to get a better feel for myself the life in hk....... now the more i go on, i felt tat i m getting madder.... haha!!! but i really hv an xtremely strong urge to go back to hk..... mayb next yr.... i'll b planning on it...... tis yr's plans is full oredi.... i'll b going to bali in oct....

since getting back fr my trip, i had a string of bz days..... my dad was admitted to hospital the 2nd day i was in hk... n underwent an operation on the 8th of july n was discharged 3 days later.... then my family n i was bz viv packing of our things for hse moving the following wednesday.... god.... wat a mess..... but it was an unexpected thingy.... din xpect tat my all the while strong n healthy dad wld had prostate gland inflammation til hv to admit hospital n operate...... but everything turned out smoothly on the moving day viv my uncle n cousin brother helping out viv the heavy stuffs..... n now oredi staying at the new hse n still adapting......

tis last few days of the mth is spent clearing my stuff in the office to make way for the auditors.... hope everything goes on smoothly.... i really pray hard..... anyway, i wld oso like to thank oyi n rachel who stood by my side during my worrying days when my dad is in hospital..... wld oso like to thank frens of their well wishes as well as those who had volunteered to help me out.... thank u very very much......