happy new yr!

HAPPY NEW YR!!!!!!!!!! finally its oredi 2008 n i m hoping start a new peaceful, happy life....... like a msg tat i received "2day is d last day of 2007, so at d beginning of 2day i create tis msg to u! we take tis day to think back thru 364 days which has passed. take out all d bad, evil n ugly me luck, tots n memories n leave it wit 2007 as it pass by n welcome 2008 wit much gesture in order 2 hv a better yr ahead wit gd, holy n best of luck, blessings n wishes." if i were to think back thru of the 364 days which has passed, it really hurts me so damn much! i guess i wld rather leave those painful memories as it is n pray hard tat i can erase all tis memories in time to come so tat i can lead a happier life...... tis evening i had a conversation viv him n in the end, i got so irritated..... up til now, he kept saying tat he is very bz viv his job n tat now he is not in penang but in juru n going to nibong tebal to pick up customer's car..... when i asked him bout yesterday nite, he said tat he was in butterworth.... but i saw his room light on last nite when i so happen to pass by his rented apt n guessed wat he said to me...... he said tat he din even come back last nite n he overnite in butterworth in his office....... then he scolded me tat he really dun noe wat i really wan n tat i keep putting words into his mouth when he is trying to tell me the truth n insist tat he is telling to truth to me..... but to me, i m feeling very uneasy n had an xtremely strong feeling tat he is lying....... tats how it got me so irritated.......

even though we hv broken up, a part of me is still hoping tat he wld come back to me after everything has settled n fulfil his promises to me n tell me tat he is sorry to hv let me gone thru all tis hell viv him n tat he wld care for me the rest of my life like he promised at the 1st place...... but a part of me keeps telling myself tat he is a big liar n tat being viv him is asking to go thru hell much worst than wat i had gone thru...... during the conversation tis evening, he even said tat he wld come find me when he is back in penang to give me my bday present...... at times, i really dun understand him....... if he had meant his break up viv me, y wld he still wan to give me present on my bday? y wld he still keep tabs of me? y?