30th of August 2008

well.... since the last post, many things happened n i will try towrite as much as i can......

25th of August 2008

kynor n i had dinner together at sakae as agreed the week b4..... he was the 1 said tat he will go sakae on salary day..... so we did..... n amber came viv us n oyi too.... n we even met up viv him.... kynor n i reached 1st n went in to grab a table b4 the queue starts.... n guess wat matt came n took our drinks orders n he was looking at me n then asked if i work in PBB.... kynor looked back at me n laughed n asked him how did he noe n he told me tat previously followed a fren of his to my branch for sth n cme to my table for enquiries..... he even told me tat there is oni CSRs n 1 is a malay lady n the other is me...... i told him tat i cld not recall cos i meet a lot of customers everyday n those regulars i will definately remember.... n then he smiled n walked away to bring us our tea..... then oyi came.... n followed by him......

the moment he came, the relief supervisor, naylin came together viv a waitress n matt too n starts to kacau him...... its oso the 1st time i saw naylin smiled..... n i looked at him n told oyi tat its the 1st time i c him smile n she said tat i hv a thing for sakae's supervisor..... wahahahahaha!!!!!! oyi, no la..... its jz tat the 1st time i saw him on the 23rd, he wasn't smiling n looked very like a discipline teacher...... if not for him, i wld not hv saw naylin smiled......... anyway, after introduction btw all of them n kynor was looking at the menu for his food n kept asking wat is gd..... n so happened tat the x-supervisor is there so he started flipping the menu n xplaining the gd 1s to kynor...... after cfming our orders, finally we told him how to tackle the interview..... n in btw, found out tat is fr penang too n staying in jelutong...... until amber came to join our conversation..... we told him wat to do n wat to say n he was very attentive listening......

not very sure if anybody actually notice tis.... but i did notice tat when he speaks, he looks at me even when he was tokking to kynor..... n every now n then even when tokking to oyi or amber who sat exactly opposite him, he wld eye me as well...... n i felt tat he is not as shy as the day i met him at mcd oredi..... cos he did not blush like tat day..... he really is very shy type wan..... n the way he speaks, sounds like he is very childish in thinking...... i bet he mz b the youngest..... really beh tahan wan lo..... really can make ppl laugh wan.... after tat, we went our way leaving amber, kynor n myself..... we followed kynor to look for his cleanser n guess wat, he is even worst than ladies..... the brand (suisse programme) tat he is using, amber n i oso dun noe wan...... n when we followed him to The Face Shop n Sasa, the salesgal mistaken us as the buyer.... n when we told her tat its kynor who wan to buy things, she looked shocked but ended up laughing all the way cos kynor was joking viv her as he tried on new pdts.... really funny....

as i was having a bad headache, i tot after kynor bought his cleanser, they wld wan to leave but amber overheard tat kynor is meeting up viv his frens at Old Town, Sunshine Sq, she immediately brightens up n said she wans to follow n asked me to follow her too...... in the end, i did....... n reached home at exactly 12 midnite.... luckily, its a holiday on the 26th due to the Permatang Pauh's elections.....

26th of August 2008

woke up jz as i heard NWT's call..... n then she came over n we left for lunch as well as fetch amber too..... we had our lunch at Super Tanker n then head to Paya Terubong for facial viv eddie's wife at their hse..... we were there for 3hrs!!!!! n frankly, my facial is very short nia wan..... but cos she was 'cleaning up' NWT's face which is full of blackheads..... after tat, amber n i head to town to pay credit cards n then head home.......

29th of August 2008

today was a busy day for all of us as today is the last day of the mth as well as its a working day followed by a 3 days holidays..... so we had our time working non-stop..... n then had dinner viv the branch staff at siriwan..... every food they had was spicy n most of them can't take it as it was very spicy for them..... overall, we njoyed our dinner......

30th of August 2008

today woke up late..... i overslept my alarm by 45 mins n rushed like mad as i had an appointment viv a customer at 12.30pm at e-gate n i hv to fetch my bro to collect my dad's car at sg tiram..... luckily i reached on time.... after tat i headed to eleen's hse for dinner n then fetch her to do manicure n pedicure at nail world, krystal point..... tis is the 1st time i ever had such luxury for my nails...... n it cost me RM116 for both manicure n pedicure....... but now, my nails r beautiful...... for the pics, pls refer to frenster..... i will b putting up pics there..... but RM116 does not oni do filing n upkeeping of the nails but mask n massage for the arm n lower leg as well.... overall, it was njoyable..... its quite worth it for the price lo...... n i met a customer of mine there as well..... n she told me tat its gd to b doing nails..... help to keep our nails clean n of cos beautiful...... plus, doing pedicure smoothens my cracked heels...... at least now, my heels r easy to care for now..... n it made me tot over tat i shd do tis to clean up the dirt (i meant the cracked heels n the cuticles)...... but of cos mz find a cheaper 1 la..... tis price will kill me sooner man...... hahahaha!!!!!

n my godsis was surprised tat i actually noe so many ppl...... i told her tat any profesion oso is my customer..... u wan a normal dr, i hv a few to intro.... for dental? of cos..... there r a few...... optometrist? oso got..... renovations? restaurants? cameras? handphones? boutiques? pharmacy? all oso got..... never to worry..... of cos la..... when u r in the service line esp like mine, u will hv a lot of customer fr diff diff profesion..... it oni dpends on how gd u r viv them tat u can go back to them in time of need..... hahaha!!!!

n i hope n pray tat everything goes smoothly for him on tues for his in..... frens oso can care wan..... oh ya.... airasia is alwix like tat.... they sent a msg viv tis content "URGENT: UR AIRASIA FLIGHT QZ9002 DPS-HUL 16OST08 AT 7.50 RETIME EARLY TO 06.00. INFO 60387754000 OR 622180899000. SORRY FOR THE INCONVENIENCE CAUSED. THANK YOU." u say la.... 6am's flight means tat i hv to b at the airport by 4am..... n give it a 45mins drive fr the hotel to airport n 2 ppl bathing, means tat we hv to wake up at 2am!!!!!! i tot over n told the rest of them as well n we decided tat we will not sleep on the nite.... instead, we will go a drink n then head back to hotel foe last min packing n the check out...... imagine tat.... checking out in the middle of the nite!!!!! 1st time ever..... tried checking in during midnite b4 but never check out....... teruk betui...... airasia's fault..... we cld not switch flight cos if we do so, we not oni hv to pay the chgs, we cld ot reach on time to catch the transit plane back to pg tat we bought...... haih......... su more tot wan to take airasia on my next trip to hk n macau predicted in 2009..... haih...................... c how la..... i think mz go n sound sound to airasia bout tis..... making the passengers life harder nia......

oh ya!!! b4 i forget..... Happy 51st Birthday to Malaysia!!!!! i pray for unity n peace in the country........

23rd of August 2008

woke up tis morning viv a blur head.... took a bath n went to fetch mum fr work.... since yesterday when he told me tat he will b going for an interview at PBB on sept 2nd, i hv been thinking if he can make it, whether will he b able to answer the interviewer's questions.... so i IM kynor to enquire n he told me quite a bit too.... so i was thinking if i shd tell him all tis so tat he is prepared for tat day..... then as i was bathing, i tot of smsing amber to c if she wans to go out for lunchn when i came out fr toilet, i saw her sms asking me if i wan to lunch viv her.... so i replied her n then i left the hse for mum then head to super tanker to buy lunch for herself n dad then put back home b4 going out viv amber....

then we went to QBM n went there for lunch again!!! but he was not there..... instead, there was a new supervisor..... din feel anything amiss until i smsed him to ask if he needs tips for the interview n he told me tat he is free fr now on n i asked y n if he had resigned.... then oni he replied tat he had resigned n yesterday was his last day.... so we tried arranging to meet up to pass him sum tips n in the end, we r meeting coming monday at sakae..... ahahaha...... but there will b kynor, ygl n me n mayb sum other colls who wants to join..... but its ok..... i dun mind.... plus, not we got anything...... FRENS NIA MA!!!!!!!! nth wan.... so 'mou mou ren' dun think otherwise ok....... ;-p

22nd of August 2008

went to eat there again n he was working..... when making payment, audrey was non-stop teasing us.... n it made us so shy towards each other..... n he asked y i did not use PBB's credit card n i said tat i need to use 6 times a yr for waiver.... PBB no need wan ma.... then i tot of tat he wanted to apply for PBB n asked if he had submitted... n he replied tat they had called n asked him to attend the interview on 2nd of sept.... n ngam ngam, it was the end of the transaction d n he smiled n said thank u n i smiled in return n left.... for the toilet, n i think i announced quite loudly infact.... cos i met him at the entrance of the toilet n we both smiled at each other...... if its not bcos of audrey, i think we wld hv spoken viv ease..... imagine how paiseh we were when we were talking jz now.... i dun even dare to look at him n audrey scolded me cos i did not look at him when he was talking to me.... i paiseh ma..... he oso ma...... haih......

21st of August 2008

Woke up viv a dream lingering too… I dreamt of a fren of mine coming back to town n the moment he saw me, he hugged me so tightly n said tat he missed me very much…. Then while walking to the car, he held me by his side tightly….. 3mths n tis is the 5th dream tat I had of him….. funny…. Very funny…..

Anyway, today, sth real funny happened in the office…. A customer came in during lunch time n was frustrated about the machine cos its was jammed during his transaction….. n so happens tat kynor was at my table n he helped me viv tis uncle…. The uncle told kynor tat he banked in cash n it jams n we tot it was the cash machine…. But when I asked kynor to check for me, it was the cheque machine instead…. Later we found out tat tis damn smart uncle went to the cheque machine to bank in cash!!!! No wonder the machine jammed n went out of service………… haih……… we dun noe if we wan to laugh or not…. Even the tots of it oso makes me wan to laugh….. a great way to release tension during the peak time tat I had today as my partner is on CL cos her son was admitted to hospital…… hopefully the uncle learnt his lesson n read the signs b4 proceeding…… ;-p

20th of August 2008

tis morning woke up viv a dream lingering in my mind..... i dreamt of him.... he was viv all his x-colls n i was viv ygl n her bf.... we went travelling n met him n his x-colls...... n the moment i saw him, he was like a mirror to me tat i jz walked pass him vivout a word... did not even look at him at all... i guess it's all said n done btw us... i no longer hv anything to say to him... infact, seeing him again in future, i blieve i will do as i did in the dream.... chinese saying "zoi kin yik si phang yao" is not meant to b applied here in our relationship..... after all tat he did to me, i dun think i will c him as a fren anymore..... an expensive lesson of life tat i learnt will forever stay fresh in my memory..... a knife tat was painfully twisted into my heart will leave a scar forever.....

11th of August 2008

for the past few days, the moment my phone's msg tone rings, i will start to think.. is it him? will it b him? but there was none..... i think its jz nth nia kua.... still being frens is the best... at least the tension is not there..... it will b more relax talking to him like last thurs.... at 1st, i was very shy to talk to him but when it started, we r like frens within minutes..... my...

09th of August 2008

dun noe y lately i hv been having a restless feeling...... tis feeling had been lingering for more than a week d n today, it jz got worst.... tiff left me a msg tellin me tat aun's mum got problems n wan to get in touch viv soon.... but i told her tat we oredi broke up n she said tat its ok..... then fr then on, though his mum lingers in mind but it was never tis bad feeling as today..... tis morning i got so restless n had a feeling tat sth bad happened to her.... i hope my 6th sense is not the truth cos i dun hope her anything but health.... really dun noe y today felt so so so restless......

i msged oyi telling her tis restless feelings but she told me tat it's none of biz anymore.... but i really can't help tis restless feeling.... i pray for everything to well for his mum..... though its jz once tat i met her n thrice spoken to her, i oso dun hope anything bad to happen..... if i cld, i wld hv called his mum n ask her myself..... but she had oredi changed her contact no as she did not reload the last no for a period of time n the no got discontinued........

07th of August 2008

today i woke up viv a blue mood but brighter than yesterday's.... at least i din spend a lot of time choosing my colour today... anyway, ai tee smsed me during lunch n asked to meet up for dinner tonite n i replied her at almost 4pm as i was quite bz today.... n she told me tat she will b meeting him over dinner too n asked if i m ok viv it.... frankly, i din mind so i agreed....

6pm came n dun noe y i dreaded.... i dragged time until 6.15pm n left office for qbm.... i msged her once to confirm their meeting place n went there.... the 1st 1 i saw was him n then oni ai tee n her husband n her sister... then i sat down n he smiled at me.... n then continued viv listening to ai tee's husband explaining sum investment savings plans lo.... but i caught him eyeing me a few times as i was talking to ai tee.... u noe, he was all red!!!

then dun noe how in the end we started talking to each other n he turned normal again.... n we talked n talked n talked n talked.... n dun noe how we ended up exchanging our contact no!!!! my god.... never taken tis path b4.... haih.... he was talking bout buying phones then we discuss a bit on phone models n then he said tat he actually was looking at buying k770 so i asked if he oredi survey the price, he said yes.... but still not within his capabilities.... so i told him tat if he wans to buy phones, i can intro to him la since i noe frens in tis line of business.... n he bright up like a little boy given his fav sweet n replied me... so i called wayne for the price n told him the price lo.... n it got him thinking damn hard.... he looks very interested in buying d... tats y he told me tat he will call me after he tot over....

then we oso talked bout him changing jobs... it seems tat he actually submit his resignation letter to his boss but it was returned n his boss asked him to stay on.... then he told us tat he once applied for PBB but did not attend the interview cos he mistook tat he was to b based in kl when he wans to stay in pg..... so i explained to him tat all interviews were done in kl, the main office but the position depends on ur choice n subject to availability in the branch.... he tot tat he was to b based in bangi, kl... i told him tat bangi is our training centre n we oni go at least once a yr n not to b based there unless u r in IT.... then oni he understand.....

oh ya! while exchanging contact nos, i gave him my namecard n he was looking at it n said "ooo... yuan lai ur name is khoo lean lu..... very special name.... wat's ur chinese name?" then i told him to turn to the back of the card n he said "ooo.... ur chinese name is even more special...." then he asked if i got english name n i told him lo.... i guess he will remember my english name lo....

felt so on cloud nine now.... still wondering how everything goes so fast n tat we exchanged contact no..... i m now wondering if the next time i go sakae wat will the situation b like since oredi noe him...... speaking of sakae, jz now he was non-stop teasing me.... when i reached, ai tee was asking me wat i wan to eat for dinner n i said i dun noe n he replied telling me to go sakae lo..... then after tat, when ai tee's sister wans to go buy fries time, ai tee asked if i wan to eat anything n i said no since i still cant think of wat i wan to eat n he again replied me to go sakae pula..... then when we were leaving mcd time n ai tee asked me again wat to eat n i said dun noe, he again told me to go sakae..... haih..... really kek si wa nia.... now i can confirm tat he can recognise me for being a regular at sakae..... kept teasing me bout sakae..... kek si wa nia.....

anyway, i m still on cloud nine due to wat happened..... but i m having an extreme headache tat i kept crying.... now i really wan to go n sleep..... if not i sure kenot sleep due to pain d.....

06th of August 2008

same blue mood

05th of August 2008

woke feeling off colour again tis morning..... real bad for me..... no matter wat i wear oso does not match my mood today.... but white is better than red... at least it does not make me end up viv headache the whole day.... n today i had an extremely busy day viv so much to do n so little time to do..... makes me miss hk so so so much..... i really enjoyed my trip though its a little tired fr walking too much, sleeping late n waking up early...... guess i hv been working too hard d lately tats y i felt so so so tired..... no wonder i kept thinking of taking a break n go on holiday.... mayb next yr onwards i shd plan on going sumwhere at least once a yr as a reward to my restless body, mind n soul.....

04th of August 2008

i woke up viv a blue mood.... whole morning spent searching for my today's colour.... trying out diff diff clothes to c if it matches my mood but none.... in the end i wore sth tat is close to my mood of the day.... but i ended up viv a colour too bright for my mood n suffered headache the whole instead... haih..... lately alwix like tat.... alwix can't seem to find my mood of the day.... wear wat oso does not match my mood.... no wonder i m alwix feeling off colour lately.....

there was sth tat i did not post here... i had forgotten bout it cos last week too happy d.... now i wan to make tis post.... my results is out n i passed my module 1 d.... yippee!!!!! now i can proceed to next module d..... i was so worried tat i might not pass cos i did not study hard enuff... but luckily tis time, i got thru.... so now can register for next module d.... next, i will tackle taxation again n investments.... can't wait to take up retirement planning n estate planning.... tis is wat i m more interested in.... neways, wish me luck... pray for me to get thru again.....

01st of August 2008 - the past of lotus gal's love life

While watching ‘Little Bride’ n came across a few scene which reminded me of him n all tat he did….. remembered how he insist to carry me across the carpark as it was raining heavily tat the floor is very wet… remembered how he addressed me as his dear n lou por but oso marred by the tots of how he addressed her the same….. remembered how I waited for him at his rented apartment everynite as he rode back home n I opened the door for him n prepared for him to take a bath….. remembered how he wld smile when he walked in thru the door after work…. Remembered how he took care of me when I had fever, cooked for me, dry-bathe me, fed me…..

During a scene where the mum was telling the daughter abt her dad not saying I love u to her mum… the daughter asked if she felt sad never having the chance to heard her dad say tat to her n she replied tat she never felt sad cos as long as her husband felt the same n showed the same, she oredi feel satisfied….. tis made me tot of us again….. he did told me to believe him n stay viv him for he will do all his best for me….. he oso did say tat even if he dun say out loud tat he loves me doesn’t mean tat he dun feel the same…. As long as in his heart he noes who is the most important to him, I shd believe him cos everything he did was out of his love for me…… now as I type tis, I can’t help my tears fr falling….. mayb he is telling the truth, but mayb not….. I was oredi blinded by his lies….

N now, I remembered tat dreadful day when we fought…. I really dun noe how to justify wat he was doing then cos after we fought n he finally saw how hurt I was n after he had cooled down, he actually cradled me in his arms telling me how sorry he was for hurting me tis bad n he never meant for tis to happen…… n even the few days after, everytime he saw me, he cradle me in his arms telling me the same….

Then I tot of the day when we last quarreled n angrily shouted ‘break up’ at each other n how it never been the same since….. ever since tat day, I did not even wan to pick up his calls n he kept sending sms to apologize over wat he said….. n the last time I ever met for dinner n the 2 hrs spent quietly without a word towards each other, I noe tat we cld never get back again….. funnily, I tot I had forgotten how he actually looked like, but now, out of sudden, his vision is so clear…..

But now, everything is said n done….. let tis b a memory… whether to b classified as a good memory or not, it will stay a memory, a past….. a past of lotus gal’s unfortunate love life……