28th January 2010

well.... frens will definately scold me for tis blog yet i still wan to write tis down....

today i suddenly came across a piece of news bout him.... he is currently one of the director of CL Chong (BM) Sdn Bhd.... tis is his dream come true cos he had wanted to rebuild his empire..... viv tis, he can start to expand..... no wnder she had the cheek to stare at me last weekend..... after i knew tis, it suddenly came back to me tat he previously told tat i brought him bad luck... n he stuck to her bcos she bring him luck..... it suddenly oso struck me tat no wonder previously, no matter how or wat oso, he will stand by her side.... even when i tried to slapped her for bg such a slut, he pulled me back n hit me even b4 i had the chance to strike her!!!! tis was the 1 thing tat had hurt me to the core n so badly other than breaking up viv him..... i hv never tot he wld do tat to me...... i hv done my best for him n to help him, but it seems like i m jz bg xtremely stupid n silly...... cos no matter how much i did, he was oredi so blinded by her to see n feel wat i did....

post breakup, i m still slowly recuperating..... god noes how much i loved him..... though 2 yrs had past, he is still in my tots sumtimes... its not easy to jz forget everything tat happen btw me n him..... it really does take time...... BFFs, i noe u will definately scold me for tis blog, but tis is really wat's in my heart which sumtimes i cant stop it fr coming out.....

23rd January 2010

tis week, my partner is on CL yet AGAIN for 3DAYS!!!! n its really really getting on my nerve cos its oni the 3rd week of the yr n tis is the 2nd time liao...... 1st week oredi on MC, 3rd week CL.... i hv oredi made known to my superior bout tis but the oni thing tat he can tell me is 'but her reasons r legal wor, how to warn her?'..... DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!!! as a superior, when his OIC is like tat, he oso very pik chik..... then wat bout me? i oredi tahan her for 2 yrs oredi....... imagine tis, our entitlement annually for CL is 12days, MC is 30days n Hospitalisation is 60days, tis partner of mine's record for 2009 is CL 12days, MC 27days n Hospitalisation 27days!!!!!! WTH!!!! tis shd b given written warning oredi!!!!!! tis record is oni 2009, in 2008 her MC was 30days oso not enuff, 60days maternity, CL oso 12days!!!!! all tis while oso so bad, oredi an extremely gd reason to warn her or even sack her liao, y no reason to warn her? then wat kind of reason oni can warn her ar? even jason oso kenot tahan her lo.... he was oni here for 3mths nia lo..... no eyes c n no words to say liao... can oni hope for a better yr after CNY..... best is no need to partner her anymore.....

nest up is, the past few days my right eyelid 'thiau' but surprisingly yesterday, my left eyelid actually 'thiau'.... its been a long time since it last 'thiau' n i tot tat it was bcos of my partner.... until today oni did i realised tat actually it meant today i m to c sum1 tat i dun even wan to c.... today is rachel's registration at che hoon moral uplifting society... oyi n i went to fetch her to her make up n then to the society...... u can never imagine tis, 6 photographers!!! they smile n look at cameras til oso dun noe which is which liao...... but overall, a happy occasion..... jz as we were abt to take pix in the hall (there was a banquet decoration), another couple came in to do the same.... jz as i was to walk over to join rac n oyi for pix, i saw tis b**ch...... i did a double take cos i tot i saw wrongly but it was.... until i cfm it was her, i heard her talking to her bride fren n then i m very very sure its her..... she saw me but i jz continue viv taking pix..... until we went out to the mini taman for further pix taking, the same group came too n i saw her leaving very kam cheng type.... saw her went in her 'bloody' car but sat for a moment b4 she left... i blieve she wld hv called him n told him tat she saw me...... i saw her telling her frens bout me cos they looked my way..... but then, it does not matter anymore.... i hv lived my life well for the past 2 yrs post breakup n hv been much happier than then.....

but thinking back, its been a long way since he n i broke up n for the past 2yrs, i hv been travelling a lot as compared to pre-relationship..... n post breakup, i totally dun c a path in my love life at all..... i admit tat when i was viv him, i actually c myslet alone getting married...... after all those sufferings n finally back to being single all over again, i wld rather stay single.... i blieve sum ppl will think tat i m 'pin thai' n dun understand the feeling of not being able to let go, but all i wan to say is tat i wish them all the best..... if they feel tat by me being too straight n they cld not accept, then i hv nth to say..... ppl used to say 'hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil'......... frens to the extent of jz colls will do...... if she is the best advisor n watever she says is very soothing to ur ears, by all means, go ahead n listen to her......

'cam ha ngan' oredi the 3rd week of 2010 liao... 3 more weeks n its CNY liao...... so fast time passes by...... n soon i'll back to classes again.... for tis yr, though a little late, there r a few things tat i wan to do...... 1stly, to complete my CFP by end of the yr.... 2ndly, to slim down even more...... 3rdly, to keep more $$$ so tat i can go travelling..... tis yr's travelling plans r s'pore, mayb redang, genting, cameron, langkawi, hatyai again n if possible, disneyland hk...... but all shall dpends if i m able to...... so far hv oredi been to hatyai tis yr (last sat) n in the mid of planning for s'pore trip.... at least 2 of the listed oredi done..... crossing fingers liao.... hahahaha!!!!!

1ts of January 2010

its the 1st day of the yr n i m suppose to b celebrating last nite n today. instead, i ended so fired up n feeling like killing last nite n today felt like the end of the world is coming.... y is she like tat? she promised to go back to finish the balancing even if she is on CL but instead TMF told me last nite tat i mz go back to work early on mon so tat i can do all the unfinished job of yesterday's including the balancing..... i really tat she n her family is extremely troublesome..... 2009 is full of problems viv her n her family..... 3 kids oredi very troublesome n yet she had the chick to tell me tat she wan to hv another 1 more child.... PUHLEASE!!!!!! she might as well jz resign n stay at home looking after her kids n then fi she wan to hv more, I DUN CARE!!!! she's been giving me so much problems since she got promoted n i hv oredi 'lun' her til now!!!! F**K man!!! really wonder how she takes care of herself n kids.... y so much problems......

after TMF told me tat, i was so angry til my body temperature oso took a rise n ifelt like killing n screaming n 'xyz' her...... even when i took my bath n din even turn on the heater, the water felt so hot, jz like needles poking my skin.... worst is, yesterday is my bday too n yet she hv to spoil my mood for celebration!!!! Plus it’s the last day of the yr n I shd b happy n celebrating but til today I m still angry n feeling like killing her!!!!!! DAMN!!!! F**K!!!! I really wonder if my management is blind…. Y din they give her warning or threaten to sack her / demote her if she goes on like tat? How can they promote ppl like her when she is alwix on MC/EL/CL? I tot they r suppose to review all tis b4 promotion? The promotion exercise tat I was asked to take up oso got such reviews n even hv to sit for exams!!!! Which is y I m bz revising for the exam next weekend…. Frankly, when the mgt asked to go for interview for csr promotion, I din even wan to tell her wat to b prepared for…. It was sanny who told her so much….. the other day she was telling me tat her husband actually said her for alwix taking MCs n ELs n CLs, n let me hv to ‘chap sau mei’ for her n me thinking she will feel really ‘malu’ over wat she did, instead NO!!! I think her face is even thicker than the teras bumi!!!!

I believe jason oso feel the same like me…. On the 28^th, she was on mc n when I told him tat, he shook his head n sighed…. Later tat day, his mum n brother came n saw him at the counter n so jz asked wat happen…. N when Jason told them tat she is on mc, I heard her brother saying ‘aiyo, AGAIN ar…. Y alwix like tat wan’…. Imagine tat, Jason jz reported for work in October 2009 n in the space of 2mths plus, he can feel wat I hv been suffering all tis while…. So I really wondered if my branch management is either blind or ‘si bak’….. how can they tolerate such ppl?!!!!BLIND BLIND BLIND!!!!!!!!! wonder wat curse she put on them!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!