Friday, November 28, 2008

28th November 2008 - SUFFOCATION OF LIFE!!!

i felt so suffocated by my life.... y does everything hv to b tis way in my life? y never gd things ever happen to me? y? y? Y? i often asked myself tat n never noeing y.... if oni i can jz loosen myself away fr tis family, wldn't it b gd? if oni i can leave tis world, wldn't it b nicer? if oni, if oni, IF ONI.... tats all tat i can think of but never realising any of it..... if gd things never will come my way, so dear god, y dun u jz let me go? those who died during the horrific attacks in Mumbai never ask for tis, y i hv to go thru all tis? y? y? Y? i kept asking myself..... i beg u dear god to let me leave.... leave tis life which is full of sadness.....

Thursday, November 27, 2008

26th November 2008 - an extremely happy day

the title says it all...... today is infact the happiest day of the week..... he came back fr holidays n i knew it tat he will definately come to c me on monday....... n he was in a jovial mood n was non-stop tokking to me n smiling as well..... he is jz gorgeous..... u noe, when he came, i had a customer n was explaining info.... the moment i saw him at the background, i was blank..... out of sudden, i forgot wat i wan to explain n jz went blanco.... i really dun noe wat got into me then..... i was jz too happy for words..... is it bcos i had guessed correctly? is it bcos i hoped so much to c him n he turned up? i really dun noe....

anyway, he was pretty talkative compared to 2 weeks ago when he asked to lunch viv him...... he asked if he got darker n joked tat he had tanned his bdy as well.... when i told him tat AUD forex drop to 2.2 last fri n he jokingly scolded me 'y u never call me?'.... i replied 'i din noe when u r coming back ma, u din tell me ma... u tell me lo where were u btw 10 am to 12pm?'. he said 'oh! i was on the plane' n i replied 'so how la m i suppose to call u? u wan to ask the pilot to throw u down fr the sky is it?' n he kept quiet for awhile n said 'ok lo.... sorry le..... anyway i bought u souvenier, tomolo bring to u'... then ivy was saying sth else which made me suddenly say 'i noe d, u come bank to c her wan leh' (pointing to ygl) n he kept quiet n stared at me wanting to say sth but kept quiet.... then i repeated the sentence til he kenot tahan wat i said n forcefully agreed but his xpression was diff.... then after tat he left but promised to come back to give me my souvenier....

frankly, i never tot tat he wld buy me souvenier at all.... afterall i was not very very close to him as compared to the 2 ladies i saw last mth during the deepavali week at BJC...... but i felt very happy cos he actually tot of me when buying souvenier..... ppl say 'out of sight, out of mind' but not to him n myself.... out of sight, the more i miss him..... i dun noe bout him la bout tis, but i really do miss him.... kept thinking of him for the past 2 weeks.... sth mz b very wrong viv me d.... really wrong..... i noe tat he is not in the market n yet i jz like him.... haih......

today, i had a very strong feeling tat he will go to office to look for me... but i din dare to msg him.... so i went out to renew my rd tax n pay sum credit cards n then head to bj for my late lunch at mcd hoping to catch a glimpse of him there but he was not there..... so after i fetched my bro n mum home, i head out to hv dinner viv oyi as promised n then met up viv my colls at old town, qbm..... tis is where the 2nd part of my story starts....

jz as i was going down the escalator to the basement, he saw me n vice versa.... he was at his qbm shop.... the moment he saw me, he lit up n smiled to me... but he had a customer, so after smiling to me, he continued viv his conversation.... so i walked over to my colls table which is rite in front of his shop n sat down.... then i ordered my drink n started tokking to my colls while looking at his shop for him until my colls noticed n started to tease me..... then i stopped looking n turned back to them... n suddenly, i felt his presence rite bside me n sat down in front of me..... then he started tokking to me n my colls.... at 1 point, my colls started to speak while he wanted to tell me sth n then later on he jz kept quiet.... god.... i felt like dying man.... how can tis b happening? haih.......

after awhile, he suddenly stood up n shifted his seat to my side n then jz sat bside me..... i was shocked!!! then after awhile, he had to leave n he took the receipt vivout us noticing n went off to the cashier.... it was not until he asked if there is anything else we wanted tat we realised tat.... n my colls asked me to go n take the receipt back fr him.... i went n demanded him to return me the receipt but he insist tat he pay.... so i asked the cashier to return to me but the cashier actually stood by his side n said 'so sorry.... tis boss say he wans to pay so he will pay'.... kek si wa nia.... then he told me tat the cashier noes him n tat he will listen to him wan n tat its oni 'beberapa puluh' so he will jz treat us all n tat its a 'kin min lai' for the rest of my colls wor....... so i went back to the table n told them wat happened n they thank him n jokingly said tat he shd treat us better than tis for a 'kin min lai' n he replied 'nth wan la.... next time i marry time, then treat u all lo'... WALAUEH!!!!!! marry wor!!!!! kek si wa liao...... my glass heart broken again.... haih...........

nothing to comment d.... really kek si d..... but i oredi knew tat he is blonged so shd not think so much d...... haih..... i knew tat n kept reminding myself tat so tat i wun go overboard.... i really dun noe wat he has tat had such an attraction to me..... really dun noe wat makes me so drawn to him...... haih......... hopefully tomolo he wun go to office to find me la.... i m on leave tomolo as well.... then fri working n then sat n sun rest kau kau then work 2 more days n i m off to kl d to shop viv ysl n owl...... wahahahaha!!!!! but hv to b back by 6th cos got wedding dinners to attend!!! sat is my sch mate's wedding dinner, sun is my new abm's wedding dinner in gurun, kedah n then mon is my customer's temple's dinner...... eat eat eat non-stop nia..... sure fat d..... mz go excercise more d to burn more fat..... abo..... nobody wans me d..... oredi nobody wan sum more grow fatter, lagi nobody wans..... haih.............

Sunday, November 23, 2008

23rd of November 2008

today i witnessed a very close fren of mine quarrelled viv her bf n then broke up over the phone..... it was very painful listening to her speaking to him as he was being illogical....... one part of me felt sad tat their relationship had to come to tis end but the other part of me felt pity for him....... watever she said to him on the phone was wat i heard from a past....... n it made me very sad n felt like crying along viv her.....

both of them had been quarreling since last oct n yet the decision was not made as she is waiting for him to speak up but he did not wan to let go...... all tis happening is like repeating my history.... she had put out her cards tat she wanted to break but he jz dun seem to get it n then forced her to her limits n finally she said it out...... after tat she started to wonder if she had made the rite decision..... to me, there is no rite or wrong..... once a decision hv been made, there is no going back to it..... no point of thinking if it is rite or wrong..... u will never noe til u go thru til the end of the process..... in her case, staying on will get her more upset n the chance to break free is far fr her reach..... if she breaks, she wld feel happier noeing tat she had her life back on track...... it will hurt for sure considering the length of their relationship but she will get thru it all n put it all behind her...... tats if she successfully convinced him tomolo......

i jz hope she will calm down n make a gd decision..... now, she really needs to rest her mind..... though it will hurt, it better once n for all..... i noe i hv made the rite choice even though once awhile, i tend to look back but i will never noe if i did not let go then.......

Friday, November 21, 2008

21st of November 2008

yesterday was an unlucky day for me.... i sent my car for servicing n ended up spending almost RM800 for watever belts tats in the car, water pump, throttle body, exhaust pipe n servicing.... then went to Air Cool for tinting of my windscreen n spent RM300for a better tint viv infre-red rejection of 88% as compared to my current of 56%... then sent my external drive to PC Depot to c y it cld not connect to my pc n ended up spending RM55 for a new casing cos the old casing has got problems.... n worst of all is i cld not find the receipt for the old casing in order for me to send for repair..... n i m still looking for it..... moving hse is like tat wan.... sure got things missing...... then b4 i left the tinting shop, the salesgal introduced a better tinting for my car, the anti-theft tint n tat will cost me RM999 for the whole car!!!! but i m considering cos it really is very gd.....

oh ya!!! jz as i was leaving BJ to the collect my car from the tyre shop, i slipped n fell on the pavement in front of the BJ Court guardhouse..... n now my toe hurts...... it was very unfortunate of me cos i was not running or in a hurry n yet i still slipped n fell...... haih........ wonder who is cursing me...... jz last week, the atm cassettes fell on both my legs leaving them blue blacked n painful..... tat was ms ch'ng fault as she was in a hurry to go to the atm vestibules but hv to wait for the guard to unlock the glass door so she hastily put the cassettes down vivout realising tat it fell on my leg as it was unbalanced..... then after tat, my windscreen was smashed by tat dun noe wat the heck fruit it is...... n now all tis..... haih...... luck tis yr is not very gd..... predicted to hv to go thru all tis tis yr........... hopefully next yr will b better.....

Sunday, November 16, 2008

16th of November 2008

i came across a very funny email n tot of sharing it.... njoy it esp the guys.....

Dear Tech Support,

Last year I upgraded from Girldfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0. I soon noticed that the new program began unexpected child processing that took up a lot of space and valuable resources. In addition, Wife 1.0 installed itself into all other programs and now monitors all other system activities. Applications such as Poker Night 10.3, Football 5.0, Hunting and Fishing 7.5, and Racing 3.6 no longer run, crashing the system whenever selected.

I can't seem to keep Wife 1.0 in the background while attempting to run my favourite applications. I'm thinking about going back to Girlfriend 7.0, but the uninstall doesn't work on Wife 1.0. Please help!

Thanks,
A Troubled User.

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REPLY:

Dear Troubled User,

This is a very common problem that men complain about.

Many people upgrade from Girlfriend 7.0 to Wife 1.0, thinking that it is just a Utilities and Entertainment program. Wife 1.0 is an OPERATING SYSTEM and is designed by its Creator to run EVERYTHING!!! It is also impossible to delete Wife 1.0 and to return to Girlfriend 7.0. It is impossible to uninstall, or purge the program files from the system once installed.

You cannot go bank to Girlfriend 7.0 because Wife 1.0 is designed to not allow this. Look in your Wife 1.0 manual under Warnings - Alimony - Child Support. I recommend that you keep Wife 1.0 and work on improving the situation. I suggest installing the background application 'Yes Dear' to alleviate software augmentation.

The best course of action is to enter the command C:\APOLOGIZE because ultimately you will havt to give the APOLOGIZE command before the system will return to normal anyway.

Wife 1.0 is a great program, but it tends to be very high maintenance. Wife 1.0 comes with several support programs such as Clean and Sweep 3.0, Cook It 1.5 and Do Bills 4.2...

However, be careful how you use these programs. Improper use will cause the system to launch the program Nag Nag 9.5. Once this happens, the only way to improve the performance of Wife 1.0 is to purchase additional software. I recommend Flowers 2.1 and Diamonds 5.0!

WARNING!!! DO NOT, under any circumstances, install Secretary with Short Skirt 3.3. This application is not supported by Wife 1.0 and will cause irreversible damage to the operating system.

Best of luck,
Tech Support

Saturday, November 15, 2008

15th of November 2008

jz came back fr sending my car for replacement of the windscreen..... guess how much it cost me??? RM600!!!!! insured oni half of the price, i still hv to foot out the other half.... sum more hv to tint the windscreen..... broke liao..... haih..... all bcos of the stupid fruit tat fell on the windscreen.... cld u imagine how gr8 the impact was? my light cover n the light bulb fell out oso..... haih......... stupid fruit!!! let me waste $$$ nia..... my car really unlucky lo..... the other time was the small window n the cd player..... haih..... which in turn reflects tat i m oso very unlucky...... tis year's horoscope did state tat i m to lose sum $$$..... but then again, lose sum $$$ is better than being involve in accidents lo...... so i felt really lucky d..... tis r all minors nia...... next year leh...... i will b bug viv digestive problems...... so next yr must take gd care of my health......

Thursday, November 13, 2008

13th of November 2008 - another unlucky day of the year



picture is worth a thousand words...... tis is the 2nd time tat it happened!!!! DAMN!!!! tis is how unlucky i m tis year..... luckily i had it insured, if not $$$ flying off d..... forgot to take a picture of the 'chui fui wo sau'.... so tomolo i will do so if i got time....

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

04th of November 2008

well..... i noe its been a week plus tat i did not update my blog..... been a little too bz lately..... anyway..... today i m very happy..... very very happy..... y? cos mr lok came to collect his chq book as well as enquire bout the FCY FD.... he called on 31st Oct evening to ask abt it but insist tat i xplain to him when he comes over to the branch as the line was bad n he cld not hear clearly...... n he came today cos he noes tat i m very bz on mondays n fridays...... he came during my usual lunchtime but today i din noe wat time is lunchbreak as my partner is on mc..... after i xplained to him, he kept asking when is my lunch but i really dun noe.... then audrey came n asked me to go out for my lunch but oni for 1/ hr nia n when i turned to him, he jz nodded his head n said "k... i noe d.... 1/2 hr fr now.... means tat kenot go out for lunch.... oni can lunch at next door coffee shop.... let's go...." n so we had lunch.... n spoke a lot.....

remembered i told u tat he denied hving a gf? well.... today he did not deny..... he told me tat he is leaving for New Zealand for a 2 weeks trip in 2 days' time n i asked if he is going viv his gf n at first he denied.... then i asked if he is going for a honeymoon n then oni he replied "nope... jz holiday nia" but he kept quiet on the gf part..... so :-

Me : wah... NZ ar.... song la..... very beautiful wan lo..... ur gf sure very happy wan
LKH : yea.... she happy, i m not leh..... my pocket got big hole d lo......
Me : aiya.... she happy ma.... u shd happy oso la..... can go holidays viv gf n sum more to such a beautiful place like NZ...
LKH : (sad smile) yea rite..... very tiring lo.... hv to drive fr north to south le....
Me : (surprised) u r on free n easy?
LKH : yep..... tats y bz digging for info...... haih.....
Me : pity...... but ok la..... got gf viv u shd happy d la....
LKH : (sad sad smile) still got many places to go.... broke liao.....
Me : (jokingly) like tat hor ma look for other gf lo..... find a gf who can help u save more money......
LKH : (lights up a little) k lo.... then mz find one working in the Bank wan.....

haih..... i noe he is joking bout it la..... how la to find for another gf when he is still viv tis current 1.... but i jz wan to lighten him up nia.... cos fr the moment i saw him in the office, he is not very happy at all....... n it got worst when he was speaking bout his NZ trip.... its like he is not happy at all tat he is going for a long holiday....... i c him like tat i oso not happy.... til now still thinking whether wat is wrong viv him.... wat is making him so sad..... is it bcos of his trip? or is it bcos of his presentation today? anyway, all tat i can i do is hope everything is well for him...... i can still remember tat he told me to take him along when i m going clubbing...... i m shocked.... clubbing is not my fav..... i prefer sumwhere quiet like starbucks or coffee bean or sunset bar for me to jz lazed a bit n relax..... n i think he is surprised tat i said tat n said tat it was ages ago tat he went clubbing...... but for tis coming 2 weeks, no need to call him d since he is not ard...... tis coming few weeks will b very hectic for me as functions every weekend.....

8th nov : boss's hse warming
15th nov : auditor's wedding in taiping
22nd nov : nicole's wedding dinner
23rd nov : nicole's wedding
7th dec : sch mate's wedding

1stly, i will b broke by the end of all the above.... n 2ndly, i will b drained out by the end os 23rd nov cos my colls r planning to go clubbing after the functions...... n I REALLY NOT INTO CLUBBING!!!!!! but they jz dun understand...... i kept telling them the same but they jz dun get it..... i m a laid back style where lazing in starbucks or coffee bean or the sunset bar is my type...... clubbing every weekend?!! i'll b dead very very soon if i go clubbing every weekend...... i m aging n my bones r jz to stiff to shake a bon-bon like them....... plus drinking is bad for health....... once awhile is ok for me but never every weekend...... haih......