the answer to a relationship tat wld not start at all.......

i guess many wld wan to noe y i din work out viv eug since he is very gd to me..... enjoy the below n u will understand...... the feeling jz did not exist......

This aspect of the chart reveals a combination that can be solid as a rock for a long time only to crash and burn in the blink of an eye. Stubborn, highly motivated, a self-starter and an unconventional individualist, eug is also adventurous and not afraid of trying new, even risky paths. Strongly driven, the number one doesn't usually give a hoot about other people's expectations. So, eug does whatever eug wants to do and will fight anyone and anything trying to get in the way. lisa is no less gifted in the areas of persistence and ambition. However, the number four stands for everything that is sturdy, reliable, patient, responsible, conventional, detail-oriented and "doing things the way they should be done." And this is precisely where some possibly dangerous pitfalls for this relationship lie. lisa has both feet firmly on the ground. Undeterred by the prospect of having to take care of things that might be boring and routine, lisa will do the job, no matter what. lisa will not step aside just because something is difficult or may take a lot of time. The four marches on until the job is done. Period. eug, on the other hand, does not have that kind of patience. When the forces are no longer in eug's favor, it's time for war. "Confront the challenges head on with a 'damn the consequences' attitude" - this is eug's dilemma. This can be a thriving relationship as long as eug doesn't start on a path of unknowns and risky, questionable results. However, that will unavoidably happen and lisa will at times be seen as a stick in the mud, a source of frustration for eug. When this kind of situation becomes overwhelming, it will almost certainly bring this relationship to and end.

On the other hand, as long as eug is able to respect lisa's need for a secure, perhaps even predictable, lifestyle, and lisa's need for a secure, perhaps even predictable, lifestyle, and lisa can understand eug's need to try new avenues, take risks, occasionally venture out into unknown territories, the relationship can endure.

18th of Oct 2008

exactly a yr had past n it will 4ever stay a part of lotus gal's life n memories..... it will b the most xpensive n hurtful lesson learnt by lotus gal...... but its a past.... a buried past...... life now for lotus is diff though changed but happier than during the 2 yrs b4......... used to think tat i will not survive tis long but now i did...... i blieve i will b better a yr later.......

jz came back fr bali n frankly, it was not wat i had xpected it wld b..... other than the beautiful Tanah Lot n those beaches at Kuta n Jimbaran, i dun even recall anything there.... my advise is tat if u r planning for a trip there, think twice...... the oni recommendation i hv is tat if u r planning for romantic wedding pictures, u can alwix go to Tanah Lot.... ITS THE MOST ROMANTIC PLACE OF ALL!!!!!!!!!! the sunset viv the strong waves hitting the beach is the most beautiful sight..... how i wish i m there for my wedding picture....... but i doubt tat it wld ever happen......... not tat i doubt i wld b able to take pictures there but i doubt if i wld ever marry......

anyway, i will b updating my pics soon cos i m very tired fr the trip..... my leg muscles r damn painful fr climbing n going the stairs when going for water rafting n til now, i m still having headaches...... n still having diarrhoe...... n still having the vomitting feeling as my stomach is having digestion problems........

next weekend is my hse warming n i will take pictures n upload again..... so stay put..... me now wanna go to sleep d.... very tired n sleepy.....

06th of Oct 2008

though today i had class, audrey smsed me for dinner.... so we went to QBM to jln jln a bit n then eat dinner.... jz as audrey n i were walking towards jusco to buy bread, he called out at me rite in front of McD as he was putting up a camera stall there for a mini fair..... we spoke a bit n he kept apologising over yesterday's incident...... i cld not get angry viv him so i smiled instead n reminded him to alwix finish reading msges...... then i left oredi as audrey went off to the bakery......

now oni did i realise tat i never tot of doing a compatibility check for both of us...... so below is the result of the check....... overall its very gd.... no wonder i had such a feeling towards him...... too bad he is not up in the market..... haha!!!! enjoy reading though......


lisa is fortunate. lok's six reflects a great capacity for love, understanding, sacrifice and support. The six is, by nature, perhaps the most harmonious of all numbers.

But lisa is not the only one who is fortunate in this relationship. lok also has reasons for gratitude. lisa will protect and defend lok through thick and thin. The power of the one should not be underestimated. And to have that power and concentrated energy on your side, lok, can be a real blessing. lisa can make you feel safe and secure, since there is nothing wishy-washy about lisa. This is a combination that can last for a long time, without ever going through the kind of turbulence so many other relationships experience. But, as always, there is another side to the coin.

This aspect of lisa's chart reveals an inner force and a driven energy that doesn't slow down for anything. lisa doesn't put up with weakness and is demanding of others. Like a true leader, lisa needs to see courage and strength represented in others. lok reveals a different nature. At least in this aspect of the chart. lok is compromising, forgiving and sometimes sacrificing to a fault. lisa has to be careful not to see this as a weakness, since lok's ability to defend the weaknesses of others is alien to a number one. Likewise, lok may at times be disturbed to recognize a somewhat hard and unforgiving quality in lisa. lok should not confuse that with a lack of compassion. lisa is certainly capable of offering compassion, especially towards victims of circumstances, where fault or laziness, or cowardice is not an issue. Only when lisa feels someone is not pulling his or her weight, can lisa respond quite harshly.

The important thing for both lisa and lok is to understand that they are very different in the way they view human qualities. Their priorities differ. That's all. Therefore, if they are able to keep an eye open for their differences and value their respective good qualities, they will certainly enjoy a long life together.

04th Oct 2008

can't blieve tat in a week's time, i'll b flying off to Bali d...... can't wait to go...... but tis time, the xcitement is unlike the 1 i had when i was abt to leave for hk....... tat xcitement is like a kid being given her her fav teddy bear..... its like flying off to the sky..... tis time, its not like tat though i m looking forward to tis trip....... blieve tis, i m still thinking of going to hk..... really miss hk..... like i said, i really hope to go to hk n stay there for a mth n slowly enjoy..... but i dun hv tat much leave le...... sad.......

tis afternoon, klc smsed me asking me to follow her to his place to buy battery for her camera.so i agreed.... n i smsed him asking him if he will b at his shop...... n he called back telling me tat i m so 'lucky' cos he jz left his shop n tat he will oni b back around 6pm++....... so i asked klc n in the end dcided to wait for him...... we went at 6++ n waited for him as he not yet reach his shop..... i smsed him telling him tat i m waiting for him at his shop n he replied tat he will reach soon...... few moments later he called n asked where i was cos he reached his shop oredi n i turned around lo..... mana tau, i did not c him n asked him where is he lo..... he said he is at his shop n asked if i was in bj...... so i asked if he is in qbm..... yuan lai, he tot tat i was in qbm..... he apologized cos he read thru my sms again n found out tat he was wrong..... he read part of the msg n not the other part which i told him i was in bj's shop...... haha!!!! shows how tak ada jodoh lo both of us...... i sum more tot can finally c him d cos when he came on tues to collect chq book, i did not hv the time to speak viv him........ haih..... too bad la......

n.... congratulations to one of my best 'chi mui', owl on his passing of CCP.... finally pass oredi.... so now got more leave left d lo... cos previously, his leave is mostly kept for his exams n study..... now he is finally free.... but tis idiot normally got leave oso dun wan come back pg wan...... alwiz say tat he is very bz which i understand..... haih.... sum more phone oso lau beh d..... kept auto shut down n never ring..... i msged n called him a few times but he said he did not receive anything at all....... his phone really can throw into the sea d...... now helping him look around for phones..... but tis guy quite yim chim oso lo..... LOLX.......

02nd Oct 2008

i noe tat its been a week d since i last update my blog n plus, i noe how to scold my best fren for not updating but myself now oni wan to update..... pai seh pai seh..... end of last blog, i wrote tat i smsed sum1 on his bday... well, he replied at 1.10pm his bday n said "tq.... treat me gd one.... when i c u next time" haha!! n i replied "ok"....

20th Sept 2008

next up is my outing viv my colls n auditors on sat, 20th sept.... we went oriental tat day for karaoke til 9pm n then head to New World Park for dinner at Nyonya Cafe..... then after tat went to Mois clubbing..... actually i was suppose to go home at 1.30pm n kynor is suppose to fetch me home but when the time came, he din say a word plus the mood was js starting to go high so we stayed on.... n when audrey came viv her fren, 198 (our nickname for her fren), 198 asked me "i tot tomolo u r travelling to kl to attend course. y r u still standing here at 2.30am?" i smiled n replied "cos my driver dun wan to go back yet..." n he asked if need him to fetch me back or not cos i travelling the next day.... but i pai seh to follow his car lo cos he drove a 2-door car n plus he fetch audrey wan wor.... i pai seh to b the spotlight in the car lo..... so i said "it's ok..... i wait for my driver la.... thanks for offering though"..... then 198 went to grab drinks for himself n audrey n then start to ask me to drink..... mz b he saw tat my glass is still full cos YSL kept filing up my glass..... then at last when i finished my drink, he said tat next round when i m not travellig the next day then oni go out again n he will treat me drinks again...... i really salute him n audrey lo...... when they came to Mois, they had oredi been to 3 pubs d!!! n yet they can still drink!!! salute both of them....

anyway, finally left Mois at 3.30am on 21st Sept 2008 n reached home at 4am!!!! by the time i went to sleep, its oredi 4.30am n i woke up at 8.30am!!!!! n then left for kl.... the whole journey there, i called almost everybody who went clubbing the nite b4 n made them tok to me cos i cld not sleep on the bus esp kynor...... if not bcos of him, i wld hv reach home at 2am n slept by 2.30am...... haih..... anyway, i safely reach bangi n attended my 2days course n came back pg.......

26th Sept 2008

finally we got to the last day of housing the 4 auditors under our roof.... n i blieve a few of us built a gd rapport viv them..... n those few will miss them esp after 27th Sept when they finally leave for home.... today, OYL, NWT, kynor, myself n kenneth (one of the auditors) went to teluk kumbar for seafood dinner n then head to Batu Feringghi's Sunset Bar for afters..... its a beautiful place..... really beautiful..... the bar is situated at the beach so u can jz stroll along the beach n feel the breeze of the sea..... its really nice..... til now, i m still thinking of it....

27th Sept 2008

met up viv the 4 auditors for dim sum b4 sending them off...... the head to ms voon's hse for laksa....... today i slept the most cos 2hrs after i reach home at 6++pm, i went to bed n slept til the next morning at 7.30am n got ready for class....