28th of February 2010

i m damn fed up viv sum1's work attitude..... i noe i hv nth to say esp when she has got strong reasons for her absense but every yr oso like tat..... really dun noe she suay or i suay...... y she n her family got so much PROBLEMS!!!!!!!! how much more do i hv to endure her n her many many problems????????? DAMN!!!!!....


she fb msg me telling me tat she hv to compassionate leave tomolo n the next day bcos her husband admit hospital for operation.... n i noe tat i kenot say anything.... but y alwix her n her family? i really tolerated her so damn much oredi!!!!! Y? Y? Y? n she sum more wan to hv another child, the 4th 1..... can sum1 tell me if i shd jz tell it to her face tat she shd not hv another child? tat i really hate her for all her problems as well as her family's? not tat i m inconsiderate, but being considerate n hv tolerance hv its limits...... 3yrs oredi!!!!!! i really wan 'XYZ' now.....

actually i love my job n love working in my current company...... everyday i looked forward to going to work cos its a happy thing..... but, y does she hv to spoil everything???? ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................


suddenly, i remembered sth tat sum1 once told me...... its useless to b fretting n complaining cos it will oni bring more of those...... patience will instead put a stop to all tis....... all tis while, i hv been training n practicing patience hoping blieving wat tis person once told me, but looks like its useless...... she is still her.... n her attitude is still the same n will never change....... it got me thinking too, if i choose to b promoted at my current branch, i guess i m still stuck at sq 1 cos when she is on EL or CL or MC, i still hv to go back..... then wats' the point of promoting..... frankly, do i hv a problem or she is the problem? if its her, y isn't my mgt doing anything to solve her? y do they hv to dpend on me to cover her? i hv spoken to my superior bout tis n hoping against hope tat he will help me solve her problem..... but i guess like wat he previously told, he can't do anything cos her leave r legal by law..... her husband/children/herself is really in the hospital......

y sum ppl dun hv the responsible attitude at all? sumtimes, its not tat we really wan to b racist... but these r really facts tat can't b denied..... i blieve every co who hv these ppl working do face tis kind of problems.... but bcos we r in tis country tat we cant say or do anything...... back to my problem, wat shd i do tomolo? jason is no longer viv our branch wef tomolo n my mum xpects me to fetch her back fr work sharp tomolo...... plus, the auditors r here too n its the monday after a long holiday.......


her fb msg:-

Zizie: lu

Lisa: yes
besok EL?

Zizie: how u know

Lisa: dah agak
besok i kena balik awal
kena angkat mak i balik kerja
u pula cam tu

Zizie: u rasa i patut cl x husband i admit.
2mrw dia kena wt operation mata
tapi i kena mi kej jgak pagi pagi kena settle barang atas meja i

Lisa: its up to u to dcide

Zizie: i kena inform u if not u mesti mengamuk sampai 1 offis nampak he he... he

Lisa: i x bleh say no isnt it?
husband admit wor
inform ta inform pun same jagu
*juga
u pun kan CL juga
wat diff does it make?

Zizie: i pun x mintak husband i jadi mcm nie wat 2 do.. suddenly mata left side x nampak. doc kata kalu biar boleh jadi buta

Lisa: jz incase u lupa, besok jason no longer based kat branch kita
then cl la

Zizie: i know. if hsband admit i dpt cl...but u my partner that y i iform u....since i nampk u on line...
tapi esok pagi i mai jgak sekejap. i clear my things first n help u to lipat jounal
i pun dah biasa org cakap..

Zizie: lagipun esok monday.....atlease help u lipat jounal cepat la sikit u buat balancing......

Lisa: wat diff does it make
its a long holiday

Zizie: y u x nak i help u ke

(note the bold n italics...... note how she say tat i will mengamuk..... who wun?!!??!!)

wat diff does it make if she comes back to fold the journals for me? i still hv to work isn't it? folding journals doesn't help me serve less customers...... no matter how oso i still hv to serve customers... no matter how oso i still hv to finish everything b4 i start my balancing...... no matter how oso i still hv to finish all my work b4 i can leave office for home...... then wat time oni i can go fetch my mum? my dad has got meeting after work & my bro has class until 9pm..... n i myself dun even noe wat time i can finish work....... no matter how may holiday trips i take a yr, does not help in cooling me down over tis problems.... out of sudden, i felt like i hv been wasting $$$ on travelling cos it does help me cool down at all...... how nice if i can jz resign fr my current job n do nothing xcept go travelling b4 the world comes to an end like 2012...... then by then i shd die viv no regrets cos i hv been around the world like i hv hoped for...... i do blieve tat when the day comes for me to leave tis problem, i will b a happier me..... at least no need to deal viv tis problem.......

i really kek khi now but still practicing being patience n understanding n considerate...... jz like practicing qigong or taichi....... take deep breathe in n together viv all the 'xyz' breathe out....... repeat a few times til i dun feel so angry...... GOD!!!! really XYZ man!!!!!!!

23rd February 2010

CNY came n went like there's no CNY at all.... a week b4 CNY, met viv accident n my baby car kena scratched so bad fr the front passenger door to the bumper.... sakit hati lo..... here i shall post the picts....

V-day oso jz came n went like tat nia.... n today, the auditors finally came.... 1st day nia, n i kena til 10.30pm oni finish work..... now so tired n drained..... so hoping i can go traveling now... better yet if i dun hv to work at all..... then i can go traveling wherever n whenever i wan to.......