really dun understand guys...... broke up oredi la, do i still need to rpt to him of all i did, when i m on leave n wat happen to me ma? y mz i tell him? is there a gd reason to tat? frankly i din even wan to tok to him if its not bcos of my car..... he owes it to me to do my car......... sumtimes i dun understand...... tis is the relationship tat ends in the worst way n hurts me the worst but i got thru it after i went to genting....... now even tokking to him oso dun feel like it at all........ even though i still feel the twisting of heart at times when i tot of 'us' but the feeling is no longer as painful as it was b4........ b4, even the tots of breaking up twisted my heart so badly tat it hurts for quite sumtime after thinking....... even the painful n hurtful memory hurts me to the core........ now, i oni jz wan to erase all those tat happened in the 2 yrs......... i wld rather tat i din noe him at all....... if oni i cld turn back time, tats one of the thing tat i wld do - wld rather not noe him at all, wld rather tat i din get too close to him other than a fren......... at least i wun hurt tis bad.........



now on, the road tat i chose for myself to walk on actually does not include anyone else xcept myself..... mayb being selfish is the best way for me for i will hv wat i wan n do wat i wan to do..... b4 tis doomed relationship, i never wanted to get a bf cos i felt tat having to rpt to sum1 on everything i did is the most stupid thing to do..... i blieved tat freedom is ours to njoy.... y mz we tie ourselves like tat n lose our freedom....... but it changed when i met him....... tot tat he is the one n i tried my utmost best to change for him but i guess he will never c wat i did for him for he is blinded by others as well as he will never appreciate all my doings for him...... i can choose to hate him viv a vengance but i guess i wun b able to live my life happily....... so i chose to erase everything from DAY 1 to LAST DAY........ i blieved tat to erase needs time but i oso blieve tat i will breeze thru tis in no time........ it may hurt but i guess tats the best way to go......