a mth later

really do not noe how come i hv tis feeling. out of sudden i totally hv no interest in guys. mayb oni for looking but no feelings at all. now i really blieve tat i was hurt to the core tat i felt tis way. i guess now all i wanted for myself is single life's freedom. i hv learnt not to follow a guy's heed n tat it shd b the other way round. i hv learnt tat i shd stand to my point n he shd follow me instead. i hv also learnt tat i shd not give so much in a relationship. i shd hv let him give more. the most important of all, i shd not love a guy at all until i feel tat he is sure n gives all of his to me. mayb tis way i will b happier in the relationship. at least i wun get hurt tis way. the other thing is appreciation. if he does not appreciate me at all then pls go to hell further away fr me. no matter wat, i swear tat i wun repeat wat i hv been thru in the past relationship.



bcos he did not noe the meaning of appreciation, i bcame a fool n suffered tis much. i earned nothing in return xcept blames tat i put him into all tis debts n existing position. watever it is, i jz wan to enjoy the newly found freedom now. i hv been an xtreme fool as he had wanted to end our relationship for so many times. n the 1 time tat he said exactly a mth ago was the 10th time! THE 10TH TIME! no matter how it hurts my heart, i hv had it!!!!! leaving is the best way to go n the best solution for our relationship.



i hv a fren who is in almost the same situation as i m, i told her to do wat others told me to do then but she wld not listen. so i guess i hv to let her learn the way i did. hurt to the core n she will stop in her tracks to let go of all the things. i jz din wan to say more oredi. i understood her pain tats y i jz let her drink all she wanted last nite. i jz hope she can c wat i was trying to tell her soon n come to her senses.