the true meaning of love

L.O.V.E. wat exactly is the meaning behind the word "LOVE"? used to blieve in LOVE but now i dun... LOVE is jz a lie.... LOVE is jz a past time.... LOVE is the EQUIVALENT OF HURT! LOVE is oso a waste of time, money n effort.... as a buddhist i shd blieve tat the buddha has everything planned for us but i guess he mz hv forgetten bout me cos he's been xtremely bz planning for too many ppl. so he had me in the learning class where i wld actually hurt to learn, hurt to learn n hurt to learn until he is done planning for everyone in the world oni he will plan for me..... but by then i wld hv hurt n learn for infinite times til i m oredi exhausted n had no more strength to go on viv his new plans for me anymore.... though tis relationship hurts me worst, i blieve i wld still come out fr tat in time to come.... if there's a potion tat can erase sum memory, i wld actually drink it for i wan to erase the 2 yrs fr my mind.... everyday i wake up hoping tat day by day i wld erase a little bit of the past n replace it viv new, happier memories but i guess it will hunt me still for a time being.... but no matter how, i blieve tat i get thru all tis after awhile....

i really do not understand him at all.... he chose to ask me to leave him n not care bout him n yet, off n on when i do not tell him everything anymore, he wld scold me for not telling n asking y i din tell him.... wat exactly does he wan fr me? wat exactly is going thru tat pig head of his? he was the one whom asked me to leave him n not care n though it hurts so damn badly n after so long of his request, i finally did it but he keeps coming back.... he comes back n lied again n again.... ever since leaving him, his words to me were oni lies.... all i cld think of him was jz hate.... i hated him for i hv bcome.... hated him for wat i hv turned to be..... hated him for all the hurt tat i chose to overcome viv hoping tat it wld lead us to better future but din turn out the way it shd b..... most ppl say tat in a relationship, we mz not hold on too tight for it will fall out.... instead we mz learn to loosen the grip so tat it will stay.... though i blieve in it, i oso blieve tat if a person wans to change, no matter ur grip is tight or loose, he will still change.....

in conclusion, the lesson tat i learnt is to protect myself.... being selfish is no longer like it used to b..... being selfish is the best way to protect myself fr hurt.... i guess tis is the best way to go......