08th of March 2010

today, for the 2nd time of the yr, i felt so so so pissed viv my job..... the 1st time was last mon n tues when the auditor, Ms Lim was so unpleasant...... she kept coming to me for the files n reports when i m working alone bcos my partner is on Compassionate Leave...... at 1 point of time, she came to me n put the cards balancing in front of me while i m midway serving a customer n insisted tat i m to find out for her y its not balance ON THE SPOT!!!! if not for my customer to voice out, she din even notice tat i hv customers..... during tat time, there were 15-20 ppl in queue waiting for my counter n they hv oredi waited for more than an hr n oredi very angry.... here comes other ppl to cut queue n tis auditor pula come kacau me viv the balancing....... i was xtremely upset to the point, i almost cried.... i really felt then to tender my resignation..... after tat auditor, came a customer who hv been waiting for almost 2hrs screaming at me for not following queue no pula...... since when did i not follow the queue? all the disturbance was internal...... the most hated thing is she started to compare other banks to us n saying tat other banks give better service la, no queue la.... then y at the 1st place does she wan to still wait for her turn? plus, she said tat other banks give better rates to her, so y wanna still put in our bank? DAMN STUPID!!!!

today, tis is oso the 2nd time my partner did tis mistake n i hv to bear tis together viv her pula...... she issued the a cheque book to a third party who is luckily the husband of the owner..... but case is, the owner is angry y did we give her chq book to her husband.... n her daughter, on the hand n non of her god damn biz, wans to sue us for negligence bcos 8 chqs hv gone thru...... worst is, though the owner kept saying tat she noes its not my fault, she said tat if her daughter insist on sueing us, she wans me, my partner n my abm to foot the bill!!!! WTF!!!! wat does it hv got to do viv me?!?!?!?!?!

lately, a lot hv been happening n i m very very unhappy viv my job n feeling very down n unmotivated..... all i kept thinking abt lately is travelling..... really wan to go travelling n release tension..... though currently planning for s'pore trip in june, i really i can go travelling immediately...... jz wanna leave everything here n go relax...... arghhhhhhhh.....................

28th of February 2010

i m damn fed up viv sum1's work attitude..... i noe i hv nth to say esp when she has got strong reasons for her absense but every yr oso like tat..... really dun noe she suay or i suay...... y she n her family got so much PROBLEMS!!!!!!!! how much more do i hv to endure her n her many many problems????????? DAMN!!!!!....


she fb msg me telling me tat she hv to compassionate leave tomolo n the next day bcos her husband admit hospital for operation.... n i noe tat i kenot say anything.... but y alwix her n her family? i really tolerated her so damn much oredi!!!!! Y? Y? Y? n she sum more wan to hv another child, the 4th 1..... can sum1 tell me if i shd jz tell it to her face tat she shd not hv another child? tat i really hate her for all her problems as well as her family's? not tat i m inconsiderate, but being considerate n hv tolerance hv its limits...... 3yrs oredi!!!!!! i really wan 'XYZ' now.....

actually i love my job n love working in my current company...... everyday i looked forward to going to work cos its a happy thing..... but, y does she hv to spoil everything???? ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................


suddenly, i remembered sth tat sum1 once told me...... its useless to b fretting n complaining cos it will oni bring more of those...... patience will instead put a stop to all tis....... all tis while, i hv been training n practicing patience hoping blieving wat tis person once told me, but looks like its useless...... she is still her.... n her attitude is still the same n will never change....... it got me thinking too, if i choose to b promoted at my current branch, i guess i m still stuck at sq 1 cos when she is on EL or CL or MC, i still hv to go back..... then wats' the point of promoting..... frankly, do i hv a problem or she is the problem? if its her, y isn't my mgt doing anything to solve her? y do they hv to dpend on me to cover her? i hv spoken to my superior bout tis n hoping against hope tat he will help me solve her problem..... but i guess like wat he previously told, he can't do anything cos her leave r legal by law..... her husband/children/herself is really in the hospital......

y sum ppl dun hv the responsible attitude at all? sumtimes, its not tat we really wan to b racist... but these r really facts tat can't b denied..... i blieve every co who hv these ppl working do face tis kind of problems.... but bcos we r in tis country tat we cant say or do anything...... back to my problem, wat shd i do tomolo? jason is no longer viv our branch wef tomolo n my mum xpects me to fetch her back fr work sharp tomolo...... plus, the auditors r here too n its the monday after a long holiday.......


her fb msg:-

Zizie: lu

Lisa: yes
besok EL?

Zizie: how u know

Lisa: dah agak
besok i kena balik awal
kena angkat mak i balik kerja
u pula cam tu

Zizie: u rasa i patut cl x husband i admit.
2mrw dia kena wt operation mata
tapi i kena mi kej jgak pagi pagi kena settle barang atas meja i

Lisa: its up to u to dcide

Zizie: i kena inform u if not u mesti mengamuk sampai 1 offis nampak he he... he

Lisa: i x bleh say no isnt it?
husband admit wor
inform ta inform pun same jagu
*juga
u pun kan CL juga
wat diff does it make?

Zizie: i pun x mintak husband i jadi mcm nie wat 2 do.. suddenly mata left side x nampak. doc kata kalu biar boleh jadi buta

Lisa: jz incase u lupa, besok jason no longer based kat branch kita
then cl la

Zizie: i know. if hsband admit i dpt cl...but u my partner that y i iform u....since i nampk u on line...
tapi esok pagi i mai jgak sekejap. i clear my things first n help u to lipat jounal
i pun dah biasa org cakap..

Zizie: lagipun esok monday.....atlease help u lipat jounal cepat la sikit u buat balancing......

Lisa: wat diff does it make
its a long holiday

Zizie: y u x nak i help u ke

(note the bold n italics...... note how she say tat i will mengamuk..... who wun?!!??!!)

wat diff does it make if she comes back to fold the journals for me? i still hv to work isn't it? folding journals doesn't help me serve less customers...... no matter how oso i still hv to serve customers... no matter how oso i still hv to finish everything b4 i start my balancing...... no matter how oso i still hv to finish all my work b4 i can leave office for home...... then wat time oni i can go fetch my mum? my dad has got meeting after work & my bro has class until 9pm..... n i myself dun even noe wat time i can finish work....... no matter how may holiday trips i take a yr, does not help in cooling me down over tis problems.... out of sudden, i felt like i hv been wasting $$$ on travelling cos it does help me cool down at all...... how nice if i can jz resign fr my current job n do nothing xcept go travelling b4 the world comes to an end like 2012...... then by then i shd die viv no regrets cos i hv been around the world like i hv hoped for...... i do blieve tat when the day comes for me to leave tis problem, i will b a happier me..... at least no need to deal viv tis problem.......

i really kek khi now but still practicing being patience n understanding n considerate...... jz like practicing qigong or taichi....... take deep breathe in n together viv all the 'xyz' breathe out....... repeat a few times til i dun feel so angry...... GOD!!!! really XYZ man!!!!!!!

23rd February 2010

CNY came n went like there's no CNY at all.... a week b4 CNY, met viv accident n my baby car kena scratched so bad fr the front passenger door to the bumper.... sakit hati lo..... here i shall post the picts....

V-day oso jz came n went like tat nia.... n today, the auditors finally came.... 1st day nia, n i kena til 10.30pm oni finish work..... now so tired n drained..... so hoping i can go traveling now... better yet if i dun hv to work at all..... then i can go traveling wherever n whenever i wan to.......

28th January 2010

well.... frens will definately scold me for tis blog yet i still wan to write tis down....

today i suddenly came across a piece of news bout him.... he is currently one of the director of CL Chong (BM) Sdn Bhd.... tis is his dream come true cos he had wanted to rebuild his empire..... viv tis, he can start to expand..... no wnder she had the cheek to stare at me last weekend..... after i knew tis, it suddenly came back to me tat he previously told tat i brought him bad luck... n he stuck to her bcos she bring him luck..... it suddenly oso struck me tat no wonder previously, no matter how or wat oso, he will stand by her side.... even when i tried to slapped her for bg such a slut, he pulled me back n hit me even b4 i had the chance to strike her!!!! tis was the 1 thing tat had hurt me to the core n so badly other than breaking up viv him..... i hv never tot he wld do tat to me...... i hv done my best for him n to help him, but it seems like i m jz bg xtremely stupid n silly...... cos no matter how much i did, he was oredi so blinded by her to see n feel wat i did....

post breakup, i m still slowly recuperating..... god noes how much i loved him..... though 2 yrs had past, he is still in my tots sumtimes... its not easy to jz forget everything tat happen btw me n him..... it really does take time...... BFFs, i noe u will definately scold me for tis blog, but tis is really wat's in my heart which sumtimes i cant stop it fr coming out.....

23rd January 2010

tis week, my partner is on CL yet AGAIN for 3DAYS!!!! n its really really getting on my nerve cos its oni the 3rd week of the yr n tis is the 2nd time liao...... 1st week oredi on MC, 3rd week CL.... i hv oredi made known to my superior bout tis but the oni thing tat he can tell me is 'but her reasons r legal wor, how to warn her?'..... DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!!! as a superior, when his OIC is like tat, he oso very pik chik..... then wat bout me? i oredi tahan her for 2 yrs oredi....... imagine tis, our entitlement annually for CL is 12days, MC is 30days n Hospitalisation is 60days, tis partner of mine's record for 2009 is CL 12days, MC 27days n Hospitalisation 27days!!!!!! WTH!!!! tis shd b given written warning oredi!!!!!! tis record is oni 2009, in 2008 her MC was 30days oso not enuff, 60days maternity, CL oso 12days!!!!! all tis while oso so bad, oredi an extremely gd reason to warn her or even sack her liao, y no reason to warn her? then wat kind of reason oni can warn her ar? even jason oso kenot tahan her lo.... he was oni here for 3mths nia lo..... no eyes c n no words to say liao... can oni hope for a better yr after CNY..... best is no need to partner her anymore.....

nest up is, the past few days my right eyelid 'thiau' but surprisingly yesterday, my left eyelid actually 'thiau'.... its been a long time since it last 'thiau' n i tot tat it was bcos of my partner.... until today oni did i realised tat actually it meant today i m to c sum1 tat i dun even wan to c.... today is rachel's registration at che hoon moral uplifting society... oyi n i went to fetch her to her make up n then to the society...... u can never imagine tis, 6 photographers!!! they smile n look at cameras til oso dun noe which is which liao...... but overall, a happy occasion..... jz as we were abt to take pix in the hall (there was a banquet decoration), another couple came in to do the same.... jz as i was to walk over to join rac n oyi for pix, i saw tis b**ch...... i did a double take cos i tot i saw wrongly but it was.... until i cfm it was her, i heard her talking to her bride fren n then i m very very sure its her..... she saw me but i jz continue viv taking pix..... until we went out to the mini taman for further pix taking, the same group came too n i saw her leaving very kam cheng type.... saw her went in her 'bloody' car but sat for a moment b4 she left... i blieve she wld hv called him n told him tat she saw me...... i saw her telling her frens bout me cos they looked my way..... but then, it does not matter anymore.... i hv lived my life well for the past 2 yrs post breakup n hv been much happier than then.....

but thinking back, its been a long way since he n i broke up n for the past 2yrs, i hv been travelling a lot as compared to pre-relationship..... n post breakup, i totally dun c a path in my love life at all..... i admit tat when i was viv him, i actually c myslet alone getting married...... after all those sufferings n finally back to being single all over again, i wld rather stay single.... i blieve sum ppl will think tat i m 'pin thai' n dun understand the feeling of not being able to let go, but all i wan to say is tat i wish them all the best..... if they feel tat by me being too straight n they cld not accept, then i hv nth to say..... ppl used to say 'hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil'......... frens to the extent of jz colls will do...... if she is the best advisor n watever she says is very soothing to ur ears, by all means, go ahead n listen to her......

'cam ha ngan' oredi the 3rd week of 2010 liao... 3 more weeks n its CNY liao...... so fast time passes by...... n soon i'll back to classes again.... for tis yr, though a little late, there r a few things tat i wan to do...... 1stly, to complete my CFP by end of the yr.... 2ndly, to slim down even more...... 3rdly, to keep more $$$ so tat i can go travelling..... tis yr's travelling plans r s'pore, mayb redang, genting, cameron, langkawi, hatyai again n if possible, disneyland hk...... but all shall dpends if i m able to...... so far hv oredi been to hatyai tis yr (last sat) n in the mid of planning for s'pore trip.... at least 2 of the listed oredi done..... crossing fingers liao.... hahahaha!!!!!

1ts of January 2010

its the 1st day of the yr n i m suppose to b celebrating last nite n today. instead, i ended so fired up n feeling like killing last nite n today felt like the end of the world is coming.... y is she like tat? she promised to go back to finish the balancing even if she is on CL but instead TMF told me last nite tat i mz go back to work early on mon so tat i can do all the unfinished job of yesterday's including the balancing..... i really tat she n her family is extremely troublesome..... 2009 is full of problems viv her n her family..... 3 kids oredi very troublesome n yet she had the chick to tell me tat she wan to hv another 1 more child.... PUHLEASE!!!!!! she might as well jz resign n stay at home looking after her kids n then fi she wan to hv more, I DUN CARE!!!! she's been giving me so much problems since she got promoted n i hv oredi 'lun' her til now!!!! F**K man!!! really wonder how she takes care of herself n kids.... y so much problems......

after TMF told me tat, i was so angry til my body temperature oso took a rise n ifelt like killing n screaming n 'xyz' her...... even when i took my bath n din even turn on the heater, the water felt so hot, jz like needles poking my skin.... worst is, yesterday is my bday too n yet she hv to spoil my mood for celebration!!!! Plus it’s the last day of the yr n I shd b happy n celebrating but til today I m still angry n feeling like killing her!!!!!! DAMN!!!! F**K!!!! I really wonder if my management is blind…. Y din they give her warning or threaten to sack her / demote her if she goes on like tat? How can they promote ppl like her when she is alwix on MC/EL/CL? I tot they r suppose to review all tis b4 promotion? The promotion exercise tat I was asked to take up oso got such reviews n even hv to sit for exams!!!! Which is y I m bz revising for the exam next weekend…. Frankly, when the mgt asked to go for interview for csr promotion, I din even wan to tell her wat to b prepared for…. It was sanny who told her so much….. the other day she was telling me tat her husband actually said her for alwix taking MCs n ELs n CLs, n let me hv to ‘chap sau mei’ for her n me thinking she will feel really ‘malu’ over wat she did, instead NO!!! I think her face is even thicker than the teras bumi!!!!

I believe jason oso feel the same like me…. On the 28^th, she was on mc n when I told him tat, he shook his head n sighed…. Later tat day, his mum n brother came n saw him at the counter n so jz asked wat happen…. N when Jason told them tat she is on mc, I heard her brother saying ‘aiyo, AGAIN ar…. Y alwix like tat wan’…. Imagine tat, Jason jz reported for work in October 2009 n in the space of 2mths plus, he can feel wat I hv been suffering all tis while…. So I really wondered if my branch management is either blind or ‘si bak’….. how can they tolerate such ppl?!!!!BLIND BLIND BLIND!!!!!!!!! wonder wat curse she put on them!!!!!!! DAMN!!!!

11th December 2009

1stly, its abt 19days more to my bday n so i m counting down viv happy moments..... hopefully tis coming 19days leading to my bday is filled viv even more happy moments..........

2ndly, tomolo is my CFP exam n i m so so blank now....... watever tat i studied oredi went blank d..... after tis exam, i hv another test next mth for promotion excercise.... guess wat... for tis stupid promotion excercise test, i hv text tats a thick as oxford to study!!!! really kanasai lo...... was thinking tat i cld relax n njoy my holidays, mana tau got tis mastery test pula..... haiz..................

3rdly, today was rushing to run errands n while getting into my car, the door was opening to wide n so i tried to pull the door, mana tau i felt so painful n when i finally pulled the door closed, oni to realised tat i almost broke my nails n it was bleeding...... the nails n the flesh of my fingers, due to the impact of door opening too fast, actually bended my nails the other way n was torn n so it started to bleed..... tomolo wan to exam liao like tat pula..... now my finger is so numb..... hopefully tomolo it does not get worst til i kenot write.......

4thly, i m so in the holiday mood i dun feel like working at all....... xmas la, my bday la..... so happy lo..... speaking of xmas, i still hv yet to buy xmas present for my coll.... tomolo after exams, i will b meeting oyi n hun to go shopping as well as surveying for our biz......

i shd sign off now liao..... shd go sleep earlier n wake up earlier tomolo morning n prepare for exams....... gambateh ne!!!!