28th January 2010

well.... frens will definately scold me for tis blog yet i still wan to write tis down....

today i suddenly came across a piece of news bout him.... he is currently one of the director of CL Chong (BM) Sdn Bhd.... tis is his dream come true cos he had wanted to rebuild his empire..... viv tis, he can start to expand..... no wnder she had the cheek to stare at me last weekend..... after i knew tis, it suddenly came back to me tat he previously told tat i brought him bad luck... n he stuck to her bcos she bring him luck..... it suddenly oso struck me tat no wonder previously, no matter how or wat oso, he will stand by her side.... even when i tried to slapped her for bg such a slut, he pulled me back n hit me even b4 i had the chance to strike her!!!! tis was the 1 thing tat had hurt me to the core n so badly other than breaking up viv him..... i hv never tot he wld do tat to me...... i hv done my best for him n to help him, but it seems like i m jz bg xtremely stupid n silly...... cos no matter how much i did, he was oredi so blinded by her to see n feel wat i did....

post breakup, i m still slowly recuperating..... god noes how much i loved him..... though 2 yrs had past, he is still in my tots sumtimes... its not easy to jz forget everything tat happen btw me n him..... it really does take time...... BFFs, i noe u will definately scold me for tis blog, but tis is really wat's in my heart which sumtimes i cant stop it fr coming out.....