23rd of June 2009

haih...... yesterday i was feeling very undecided n its all bcos of wat my ABM told me..... he told me abt a new post in the branch n asked me to apply for it...... Deposit Sales Officer..... selling deposit products..... but the moment i heard sales, its plastered all over my head n i was put off by tat dreadful word....... in terms of knowledge, i noe i m capable of taking up the post but sales????? if i wan to do sales, earlier on i wld hv applied for BSE d la...... prob is i hv never been interested in sales.... sales is never my rice bowl....... i prefer paper work than sales....... i was so so so undecided tat i wan to go crazy d...... whole day i was calling frens n colls for opinions.... n wat i can summarised is its a mixture of opinions...... sum say its a gd thing...... most say i shd think over very carefully n seriously......... at one point of time, i really tot i can do it n built enuff confident to take up the offer..... but reached home n my parents says no...... they checked viv my aunt n she oso feel tat its not a gd thing..... sales is related to targets n if i cant meet the expectations, i m doomed!!!! fact is, its oso 1 of the points tat i m worried abt...... the other is networking........ haih.....

today went to office very sure wan to reject the offer d but when i tried telling my ABM, he still insist tat i take up the offer...... he said tat he is very very confident tat i will make it thru but fact is, i dun even hv the confident in myself...... i can feel tat he is trying to brainwash me to accept the offer...... now i m still bogged by tis n really cant think of a gd way to tell politely tat i really dun wan to accept....... when he insisted, i asked abt the consequences of not meeting the expectations n he cld not even give me any assurance..... he can oni say tat he will support me..... i cant afford to lose my job u noe n sales is definately not in my league.... like keing hua said, i rather b the 1st in the 2nd class than b the last in the 1st class........ haih........... fan lou................. i m oredi very very sleepy n tired n add 1 more fan lou to me......

now i really wan to go n sleep d..... watever it is, leave it to tomolo.... afterall, its no hurry...... not tat they were given any dateline..... i will try my best to get the message to my ABM...... wish me luck!!!