memories yet again......

watching "heart of greed" once again reminds me of a lot of things tat happened in my relationship.... a scene where sheung zhoi sam found out tat alfred has another gal outside reminds me of how i found out bout tat bitch...... a scene where ah sam went to alfred's hse and the other gal is in the hse as well viv alfred n when ah sam tried to unlock the door, the other gal locked the door reminds me of thosemany times tat i barged to his hse n saw tat bloody bitch in his room esp tat time when i barged in n saw tat bloody bitch's sleepy face n his sleepy face n how we ended up hitting each other n how i was hurt....... a scene where alfred cried when he tried to xplained himself to ah sam n apologised for the wrongs tat he did to her reminds me of how he had got down on his knees those few times n begged for my forgiveness n cried............ the more i tot of it, my heart is twisting into knots...... painful...... very painful........ u noe, though i hv given up hopes in tis relationship, i still feel tis pain in me...... each time i tot of wat happened n those painful incidents viv hurtful words, i felt like i've cut by a knife......