21st March 2010

i received a good news fr one of my best frens n i m so so happy for her..... though she does not really like it...... anyhow, she is oso quite happy..... hopefully, everything will change for the better viv tis news...... really hope she can pak tau tou lou lo......

viv tis news coming, i suddenly felt so old..... next yr, i will b upgraded to being an aunty liao..... my god.... aunty lo..... so old..... i hope she will teach her child to address me sister lo.... wakakakaka!!!!!!! but no matter how, i m happy for her.......

there's another news too!!! another one of my best fren's ROM is comfirmed in June 2010..... really happy to hear all tis good news..... 2 more best frens to come...... i hope to hear their's too!!!!!

to the other 4 musks, i m really happy to b part of ur life as a BFF n really happy to hear gd news fr u guys..... we r now stepping into 30s viv marriage n children coming..... i m really happy for u guys..... no words cld explain the happy feeling i felt for u guys..... thanks for being there for me when i needed u guys n thanks for still being here for me too...... though at times, i m very kanasai to b viv n stubborn n pessimistic, thanks for standing by me n tolerating all tis while.... i hope we will still b the best of frens til death do us part...... after marriage n children oso, i will still b there for u guys!!!! love u guys so so much!!!! 5 musks forever!!!!

12th March 2010

after i hv watched jack neo's press conference, i really feel very pityful towards his wife..... she does not hv to go thru all tis shameful press conference for tis bastard..... frankly, all guys r the same.... they dun use their brain at all b4 they do sth.... if they ever did, the ladies wun hv to suffer all tis stupid press conference n hving to face tis kind of bastards n most of all, hv to forgive him..... i blieve his wife is not comfortable n not really wanted to forgive him.... she oni hv to do tis to 'jaga' his face....

we shall take a diff look at things... let's say the lady is the 1 hving an affair, wat wld others say? n wat will the husband do? but y when the guy hv affair n the lady has to forgive tis kind of bastard? moreover, after all those mistakes hv surfaced, the guys even hv the cheeks to ask for forgiveness.... y wldn't they think of the consequences 1st b4 they do anything? y can't they understand tat their actions n decisons will hurt their loved ones? he once told me tat he wld not tolerate if i m the one hving an affair, but when he did tat, he said tat its fate n tat he cant stop wat was coming n begged for forgiveness..... worst of all, he really wanted me to forgive him n forget all tat..... GUYS!!!! sumtimes, not tat i really wan to hate them but they really dun prove any good to me..... sum frens around me oso faced the same n yet 1 will repeatedly forgive tat bastard..... i do understand tat not being able to let go of such a long relationship but he is such bastard tat since the start of the relationship, he is oredi hving an affair.... oni she doesn't noe..... but according to her, she has oredi forgotten bout all those affairs......... all i can do is hope tat she is really doing the rite thing n decision...... i pray tat he will really keep to his promise not to hurt her n hv an affair anymore.....

n regarding jack neo, i hope his wife will b strong... the humiliation tat she is going to receive n all those tat she has to endure, i really hope she will pull thru..... where as if she cld really make it to the end viv jack, i hope she is making the rite decision when said 'i love jack, i love this marriage n i love my family'.......

frankly, to the new me, i will not go thru all tis again..... lately, viv all tis affairs surfacing fr all those well-known ppl eg. tiger woods, ashley cole n the terry-bridge, i hope all those bastards will learn their lesson..... dun hv to feel sorry for all tat u hv done cos fr the start, u hv oredi chosen the road to no end n a rd tat will hurt ur loved ones......

08th of March 2010

today, for the 2nd time of the yr, i felt so so so pissed viv my job..... the 1st time was last mon n tues when the auditor, Ms Lim was so unpleasant...... she kept coming to me for the files n reports when i m working alone bcos my partner is on Compassionate Leave...... at 1 point of time, she came to me n put the cards balancing in front of me while i m midway serving a customer n insisted tat i m to find out for her y its not balance ON THE SPOT!!!! if not for my customer to voice out, she din even notice tat i hv customers..... during tat time, there were 15-20 ppl in queue waiting for my counter n they hv oredi waited for more than an hr n oredi very angry.... here comes other ppl to cut queue n tis auditor pula come kacau me viv the balancing....... i was xtremely upset to the point, i almost cried.... i really felt then to tender my resignation..... after tat auditor, came a customer who hv been waiting for almost 2hrs screaming at me for not following queue no pula...... since when did i not follow the queue? all the disturbance was internal...... the most hated thing is she started to compare other banks to us n saying tat other banks give better service la, no queue la.... then y at the 1st place does she wan to still wait for her turn? plus, she said tat other banks give better rates to her, so y wanna still put in our bank? DAMN STUPID!!!!

today, tis is oso the 2nd time my partner did tis mistake n i hv to bear tis together viv her pula...... she issued the a cheque book to a third party who is luckily the husband of the owner..... but case is, the owner is angry y did we give her chq book to her husband.... n her daughter, on the hand n non of her god damn biz, wans to sue us for negligence bcos 8 chqs hv gone thru...... worst is, though the owner kept saying tat she noes its not my fault, she said tat if her daughter insist on sueing us, she wans me, my partner n my abm to foot the bill!!!! WTF!!!! wat does it hv got to do viv me?!?!?!?!?!

lately, a lot hv been happening n i m very very unhappy viv my job n feeling very down n unmotivated..... all i kept thinking abt lately is travelling..... really wan to go travelling n release tension..... though currently planning for s'pore trip in june, i really i can go travelling immediately...... jz wanna leave everything here n go relax...... arghhhhhhhh.....................

28th of February 2010

i m damn fed up viv sum1's work attitude..... i noe i hv nth to say esp when she has got strong reasons for her absense but every yr oso like tat..... really dun noe she suay or i suay...... y she n her family got so much PROBLEMS!!!!!!!! how much more do i hv to endure her n her many many problems????????? DAMN!!!!!....


she fb msg me telling me tat she hv to compassionate leave tomolo n the next day bcos her husband admit hospital for operation.... n i noe tat i kenot say anything.... but y alwix her n her family? i really tolerated her so damn much oredi!!!!! Y? Y? Y? n she sum more wan to hv another child, the 4th 1..... can sum1 tell me if i shd jz tell it to her face tat she shd not hv another child? tat i really hate her for all her problems as well as her family's? not tat i m inconsiderate, but being considerate n hv tolerance hv its limits...... 3yrs oredi!!!!!! i really wan 'XYZ' now.....

actually i love my job n love working in my current company...... everyday i looked forward to going to work cos its a happy thing..... but, y does she hv to spoil everything???? ............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................


suddenly, i remembered sth tat sum1 once told me...... its useless to b fretting n complaining cos it will oni bring more of those...... patience will instead put a stop to all tis....... all tis while, i hv been training n practicing patience hoping blieving wat tis person once told me, but looks like its useless...... she is still her.... n her attitude is still the same n will never change....... it got me thinking too, if i choose to b promoted at my current branch, i guess i m still stuck at sq 1 cos when she is on EL or CL or MC, i still hv to go back..... then wats' the point of promoting..... frankly, do i hv a problem or she is the problem? if its her, y isn't my mgt doing anything to solve her? y do they hv to dpend on me to cover her? i hv spoken to my superior bout tis n hoping against hope tat he will help me solve her problem..... but i guess like wat he previously told, he can't do anything cos her leave r legal by law..... her husband/children/herself is really in the hospital......

y sum ppl dun hv the responsible attitude at all? sumtimes, its not tat we really wan to b racist... but these r really facts tat can't b denied..... i blieve every co who hv these ppl working do face tis kind of problems.... but bcos we r in tis country tat we cant say or do anything...... back to my problem, wat shd i do tomolo? jason is no longer viv our branch wef tomolo n my mum xpects me to fetch her back fr work sharp tomolo...... plus, the auditors r here too n its the monday after a long holiday.......


her fb msg:-

Zizie: lu

Lisa: yes
besok EL?

Zizie: how u know

Lisa: dah agak
besok i kena balik awal
kena angkat mak i balik kerja
u pula cam tu

Zizie: u rasa i patut cl x husband i admit.
2mrw dia kena wt operation mata
tapi i kena mi kej jgak pagi pagi kena settle barang atas meja i

Lisa: its up to u to dcide

Zizie: i kena inform u if not u mesti mengamuk sampai 1 offis nampak he he... he

Lisa: i x bleh say no isnt it?
husband admit wor
inform ta inform pun same jagu
*juga
u pun kan CL juga
wat diff does it make?

Zizie: i pun x mintak husband i jadi mcm nie wat 2 do.. suddenly mata left side x nampak. doc kata kalu biar boleh jadi buta

Lisa: jz incase u lupa, besok jason no longer based kat branch kita
then cl la

Zizie: i know. if hsband admit i dpt cl...but u my partner that y i iform u....since i nampk u on line...
tapi esok pagi i mai jgak sekejap. i clear my things first n help u to lipat jounal
i pun dah biasa org cakap..

Zizie: lagipun esok monday.....atlease help u lipat jounal cepat la sikit u buat balancing......

Lisa: wat diff does it make
its a long holiday

Zizie: y u x nak i help u ke

(note the bold n italics...... note how she say tat i will mengamuk..... who wun?!!??!!)

wat diff does it make if she comes back to fold the journals for me? i still hv to work isn't it? folding journals doesn't help me serve less customers...... no matter how oso i still hv to serve customers... no matter how oso i still hv to finish everything b4 i start my balancing...... no matter how oso i still hv to finish all my work b4 i can leave office for home...... then wat time oni i can go fetch my mum? my dad has got meeting after work & my bro has class until 9pm..... n i myself dun even noe wat time i can finish work....... no matter how may holiday trips i take a yr, does not help in cooling me down over tis problems.... out of sudden, i felt like i hv been wasting $$$ on travelling cos it does help me cool down at all...... how nice if i can jz resign fr my current job n do nothing xcept go travelling b4 the world comes to an end like 2012...... then by then i shd die viv no regrets cos i hv been around the world like i hv hoped for...... i do blieve tat when the day comes for me to leave tis problem, i will b a happier me..... at least no need to deal viv tis problem.......

i really kek khi now but still practicing being patience n understanding n considerate...... jz like practicing qigong or taichi....... take deep breathe in n together viv all the 'xyz' breathe out....... repeat a few times til i dun feel so angry...... GOD!!!! really XYZ man!!!!!!!

23rd February 2010

CNY came n went like there's no CNY at all.... a week b4 CNY, met viv accident n my baby car kena scratched so bad fr the front passenger door to the bumper.... sakit hati lo..... here i shall post the picts....

V-day oso jz came n went like tat nia.... n today, the auditors finally came.... 1st day nia, n i kena til 10.30pm oni finish work..... now so tired n drained..... so hoping i can go traveling now... better yet if i dun hv to work at all..... then i can go traveling wherever n whenever i wan to.......

28th January 2010

well.... frens will definately scold me for tis blog yet i still wan to write tis down....

today i suddenly came across a piece of news bout him.... he is currently one of the director of CL Chong (BM) Sdn Bhd.... tis is his dream come true cos he had wanted to rebuild his empire..... viv tis, he can start to expand..... no wnder she had the cheek to stare at me last weekend..... after i knew tis, it suddenly came back to me tat he previously told tat i brought him bad luck... n he stuck to her bcos she bring him luck..... it suddenly oso struck me tat no wonder previously, no matter how or wat oso, he will stand by her side.... even when i tried to slapped her for bg such a slut, he pulled me back n hit me even b4 i had the chance to strike her!!!! tis was the 1 thing tat had hurt me to the core n so badly other than breaking up viv him..... i hv never tot he wld do tat to me...... i hv done my best for him n to help him, but it seems like i m jz bg xtremely stupid n silly...... cos no matter how much i did, he was oredi so blinded by her to see n feel wat i did....

post breakup, i m still slowly recuperating..... god noes how much i loved him..... though 2 yrs had past, he is still in my tots sumtimes... its not easy to jz forget everything tat happen btw me n him..... it really does take time...... BFFs, i noe u will definately scold me for tis blog, but tis is really wat's in my heart which sumtimes i cant stop it fr coming out.....

23rd January 2010

tis week, my partner is on CL yet AGAIN for 3DAYS!!!! n its really really getting on my nerve cos its oni the 3rd week of the yr n tis is the 2nd time liao...... 1st week oredi on MC, 3rd week CL.... i hv oredi made known to my superior bout tis but the oni thing tat he can tell me is 'but her reasons r legal wor, how to warn her?'..... DISAPPOINTMENT!!!!!!! as a superior, when his OIC is like tat, he oso very pik chik..... then wat bout me? i oredi tahan her for 2 yrs oredi....... imagine tis, our entitlement annually for CL is 12days, MC is 30days n Hospitalisation is 60days, tis partner of mine's record for 2009 is CL 12days, MC 27days n Hospitalisation 27days!!!!!! WTH!!!! tis shd b given written warning oredi!!!!!! tis record is oni 2009, in 2008 her MC was 30days oso not enuff, 60days maternity, CL oso 12days!!!!! all tis while oso so bad, oredi an extremely gd reason to warn her or even sack her liao, y no reason to warn her? then wat kind of reason oni can warn her ar? even jason oso kenot tahan her lo.... he was oni here for 3mths nia lo..... no eyes c n no words to say liao... can oni hope for a better yr after CNY..... best is no need to partner her anymore.....

nest up is, the past few days my right eyelid 'thiau' but surprisingly yesterday, my left eyelid actually 'thiau'.... its been a long time since it last 'thiau' n i tot tat it was bcos of my partner.... until today oni did i realised tat actually it meant today i m to c sum1 tat i dun even wan to c.... today is rachel's registration at che hoon moral uplifting society... oyi n i went to fetch her to her make up n then to the society...... u can never imagine tis, 6 photographers!!! they smile n look at cameras til oso dun noe which is which liao...... but overall, a happy occasion..... jz as we were abt to take pix in the hall (there was a banquet decoration), another couple came in to do the same.... jz as i was to walk over to join rac n oyi for pix, i saw tis b**ch...... i did a double take cos i tot i saw wrongly but it was.... until i cfm it was her, i heard her talking to her bride fren n then i m very very sure its her..... she saw me but i jz continue viv taking pix..... until we went out to the mini taman for further pix taking, the same group came too n i saw her leaving very kam cheng type.... saw her went in her 'bloody' car but sat for a moment b4 she left... i blieve she wld hv called him n told him tat she saw me...... i saw her telling her frens bout me cos they looked my way..... but then, it does not matter anymore.... i hv lived my life well for the past 2 yrs post breakup n hv been much happier than then.....

but thinking back, its been a long way since he n i broke up n for the past 2yrs, i hv been travelling a lot as compared to pre-relationship..... n post breakup, i totally dun c a path in my love life at all..... i admit tat when i was viv him, i actually c myslet alone getting married...... after all those sufferings n finally back to being single all over again, i wld rather stay single.... i blieve sum ppl will think tat i m 'pin thai' n dun understand the feeling of not being able to let go, but all i wan to say is tat i wish them all the best..... if they feel tat by me being too straight n they cld not accept, then i hv nth to say..... ppl used to say 'hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil'......... frens to the extent of jz colls will do...... if she is the best advisor n watever she says is very soothing to ur ears, by all means, go ahead n listen to her......

'cam ha ngan' oredi the 3rd week of 2010 liao... 3 more weeks n its CNY liao...... so fast time passes by...... n soon i'll back to classes again.... for tis yr, though a little late, there r a few things tat i wan to do...... 1stly, to complete my CFP by end of the yr.... 2ndly, to slim down even more...... 3rdly, to keep more $$$ so tat i can go travelling..... tis yr's travelling plans r s'pore, mayb redang, genting, cameron, langkawi, hatyai again n if possible, disneyland hk...... but all shall dpends if i m able to...... so far hv oredi been to hatyai tis yr (last sat) n in the mid of planning for s'pore trip.... at least 2 of the listed oredi done..... crossing fingers liao.... hahahaha!!!!!