sad over inconsiderate ppl......

congratulations to andy n carol for finally being able to publicly announce their relationship.... its a pity to both of them as they suffer hving to hide their love for each other..... 24yrs is damn long lo...... as i read more n more of fans reply to his announcement, i feel real sad cos they were being very selfish to andy..... yes, they adore him n 'pray' him like a god but he is oso a human...... come on.... u need love n so does him...... he is going to be 48yrs old tis yr n its more than about time to get married d lo........ leave andy n carol alone la..... let them enjoy their new life together.....

though i m not a great fan of andy but lately reading bout him n carol makes me so sad..... sad tat most of his fans r so inconsiderate of his being...... he loves carol but for fear of rejection fr his fans, he had kept tis a secret for 24yrs..... as a gal, she shd hv her recognition oredi la..... most of andy's fans r gals, so u shd understand tat hving recognition as ur guy's wife is very important..... so give ur blessings to them instead of giving them so much trouble..... afterall, she is oredi pregnant.....

7th of July 2009

really dun noe wat to say bout her..... monday MC, today EL, tomolo EL, thurs i bet i oso EL n fri AL!!!! WTF!!!!! n when i wan to apply leave for monday to take my mum do things, my idiot ABM dun allow cos its a replacement holiday!!!! Fri is oso a replacement holiday wat, y let her take leave? my previous ABM wld not approve leave on days like tat wan lo so as to b fair to the other person as well...... now i m so fed up viv work n life n pik chik n TL!!!!! damn TL lo!!!! its oredi July n i still hv not dcided where to go for a holiday yet...... be it far or near, i dun mind..... really jz wan to go sumwhere tat i can relax n forget abt work...... i m damn tired!!!!

23rd of June 2009

haih...... yesterday i was feeling very undecided n its all bcos of wat my ABM told me..... he told me abt a new post in the branch n asked me to apply for it...... Deposit Sales Officer..... selling deposit products..... but the moment i heard sales, its plastered all over my head n i was put off by tat dreadful word....... in terms of knowledge, i noe i m capable of taking up the post but sales????? if i wan to do sales, earlier on i wld hv applied for BSE d la...... prob is i hv never been interested in sales.... sales is never my rice bowl....... i prefer paper work than sales....... i was so so so undecided tat i wan to go crazy d...... whole day i was calling frens n colls for opinions.... n wat i can summarised is its a mixture of opinions...... sum say its a gd thing...... most say i shd think over very carefully n seriously......... at one point of time, i really tot i can do it n built enuff confident to take up the offer..... but reached home n my parents says no...... they checked viv my aunt n she oso feel tat its not a gd thing..... sales is related to targets n if i cant meet the expectations, i m doomed!!!! fact is, its oso 1 of the points tat i m worried abt...... the other is networking........ haih.....

today went to office very sure wan to reject the offer d but when i tried telling my ABM, he still insist tat i take up the offer...... he said tat he is very very confident tat i will make it thru but fact is, i dun even hv the confident in myself...... i can feel tat he is trying to brainwash me to accept the offer...... now i m still bogged by tis n really cant think of a gd way to tell politely tat i really dun wan to accept....... when he insisted, i asked abt the consequences of not meeting the expectations n he cld not even give me any assurance..... he can oni say tat he will support me..... i cant afford to lose my job u noe n sales is definately not in my league.... like keing hua said, i rather b the 1st in the 2nd class than b the last in the 1st class........ haih........... fan lou................. i m oredi very very sleepy n tired n add 1 more fan lou to me......

now i really wan to go n sleep d..... watever it is, leave it to tomolo.... afterall, its no hurry...... not tat they were given any dateline..... i will try my best to get the message to my ABM...... wish me luck!!!

16th of June 2009

tis noon, there was a snatch theft in front of my office..... tis 2 malay guys on a motorcycle, snatched a chinese lady's bag n ran away but unfortunately, the lady screamed very very loudly n everybody who heard her ran after tat motorcycle..... u really cant imagine it.... within seconds, a pajero crashed the motorcycle to ground n there was a group of 20-30 ppl crowding around the motorcycle n beat up the 2...... helmets, wood, steel fr nearby rubbish bin cld b seen at the seen...... the crowd comprises of those who happen to b hving lunch nearby n heard n most of them r malays oso..... according to my boss, who oso went there to kaypo, those who beat up the 2 was heard saying tat its a disgrace to them, the malays...... n the 2 oso kena very teruk lo....... imagine 20-30 ppl crowding ard u to beat u up..... one person 1 time nia oso teruk lo..... but then was 1 person dun noe how many times lo..... when i walked near the window to c time, i saw the 1st person guy to hit viv a helmet, hit them many times lo...... sum more kick leh..... but then, padan muka oso wan la..... of all profession, y choose to b a snatch theft? u noe, how many of them led to the death of their victims? esp pregnant ladies? i can still recall 1 case tat happen in JB where tat bloody fool snatch thief snatched her bag n when she struggled viv them, they kicked her motorcycle n she fell...... n she is 8mths pregnant...... imagine the trauma her husband will go thru...... plus, my coll's aunt oso bcame a snatch thief victim rite in front of her hse..... n tat snatch thief kicked n beat her up...... sad to say tis is malaysian...... the economy is bad n most ppl r out of jobs but tis is not wat u shd choose to do....... haih.....

12th of June 2009

tis evening, received a msg fr a fren tat a schoolmate of mine had passed away due to heart problems...... really sad to noe tat..... she n i were once close frens during primary school n remembered tat she told me b4 regarding her situation..... then she lept on telling me tat she will leave 1 day n i of cos told tat it will not happen..... but tat was long time ago...... i guess she had lived her life to the fullest all tis while fearing tis day will come..... Siew Lee, we will miss u n may u rest in peace.........

11th of june 2009

wanna share a meangingful quote tat i read in my email.... brings back a lot of memories for me.....

"never break 4 things in ur life - trust, promise, relation n heart bcos when they break, they dun make noise but cause a lot of pain"

i hated ppl who breaks the 4..... in the past, he broke each of the 4 over time.... one by one he broke me into pieces..... he made promises but never keep them though i m so foolish to still blieve tat he will still keep his promises to me... n tats y i hurted so badly.... but now, its all buried 6ft underground...... no longer trust ppl, no longer blieve promises made by others...... all tis is to guard myself against the pain n hurt tat i dun wish to go thru again...... i've learnt to b selfish for myself...... selfish to protect myself.......

03rd of June 2009 - 2nd half

jz got back fr the rehearsal at EQ n luckily the day ended up nicely....... we were told to b there at 7 but i was a little late as i reached home at almost 6pm n hv to rest n bath n then travel there....... but when i reached there was no 1 there yet.... oni the kids n their parents n sum staff nia...... n we sat there until he(RD) came n everything starts to roll....... n he was very precise today going thru one by one n commenting 1 by 1....... so by the time its our turn to dance, it's oredi 11++pm!!!!! guess how sleepy i was considering tat we had sat there since 7pm n oni get to dance at 11pm!!!!! now as i m typing tis, my eyes r closing yet still on msn call viv a fren...... plus.... today dun noe wat wrong viv my dance partner, he danced wrong during our tango......... n he was non stop apologising to me....... u noe, today RD requested to record our rehearsal for the making of the AD 2009 to b presented to Tan Sri n i noe everybody is very kin cheong cos they dun wan to do any mistake during the recording...... luckily both of us r rite at the side where the camera cant c us..... haha!!!!! after the dance n when we went to the side, he was non stop apologising for the wrong step n then kept on laughing................. haih..................

oh ya..... jz now the usherettes came to try their clothes n guess wat....... their red dress to b worn on friday morning when welcoming Tan Sri at the hotel is damn sexy man!!!!! they were asked not to wear bra inside as its low back............... n u noe la..... ysl non stop complaining lo..... but there was 1 gal who wore it the best!!!! she is damn sui lo........

now my feet is hurting cos i was not used to wearing boots........... my toes hurts the worst......