the answer to a relationship tat wld not start at all.......

i guess many wld wan to noe y i din work out viv eug since he is very gd to me..... enjoy the below n u will understand...... the feeling jz did not exist......

This aspect of the chart reveals a combination that can be solid as a rock for a long time only to crash and burn in the blink of an eye. Stubborn, highly motivated, a self-starter and an unconventional individualist, eug is also adventurous and not afraid of trying new, even risky paths. Strongly driven, the number one doesn't usually give a hoot about other people's expectations. So, eug does whatever eug wants to do and will fight anyone and anything trying to get in the way. lisa is no less gifted in the areas of persistence and ambition. However, the number four stands for everything that is sturdy, reliable, patient, responsible, conventional, detail-oriented and "doing things the way they should be done." And this is precisely where some possibly dangerous pitfalls for this relationship lie. lisa has both feet firmly on the ground. Undeterred by the prospect of having to take care of things that might be boring and routine, lisa will do the job, no matter what. lisa will not step aside just because something is difficult or may take a lot of time. The four marches on until the job is done. Period. eug, on the other hand, does not have that kind of patience. When the forces are no longer in eug's favor, it's time for war. "Confront the challenges head on with a 'damn the consequences' attitude" - this is eug's dilemma. This can be a thriving relationship as long as eug doesn't start on a path of unknowns and risky, questionable results. However, that will unavoidably happen and lisa will at times be seen as a stick in the mud, a source of frustration for eug. When this kind of situation becomes overwhelming, it will almost certainly bring this relationship to and end.

On the other hand, as long as eug is able to respect lisa's need for a secure, perhaps even predictable, lifestyle, and lisa's need for a secure, perhaps even predictable, lifestyle, and lisa can understand eug's need to try new avenues, take risks, occasionally venture out into unknown territories, the relationship can endure.

18th of Oct 2008

exactly a yr had past n it will 4ever stay a part of lotus gal's life n memories..... it will b the most xpensive n hurtful lesson learnt by lotus gal...... but its a past.... a buried past...... life now for lotus is diff though changed but happier than during the 2 yrs b4......... used to think tat i will not survive tis long but now i did...... i blieve i will b better a yr later.......

jz came back fr bali n frankly, it was not wat i had xpected it wld b..... other than the beautiful Tanah Lot n those beaches at Kuta n Jimbaran, i dun even recall anything there.... my advise is tat if u r planning for a trip there, think twice...... the oni recommendation i hv is tat if u r planning for romantic wedding pictures, u can alwix go to Tanah Lot.... ITS THE MOST ROMANTIC PLACE OF ALL!!!!!!!!!! the sunset viv the strong waves hitting the beach is the most beautiful sight..... how i wish i m there for my wedding picture....... but i doubt tat it wld ever happen......... not tat i doubt i wld b able to take pictures there but i doubt if i wld ever marry......

anyway, i will b updating my pics soon cos i m very tired fr the trip..... my leg muscles r damn painful fr climbing n going the stairs when going for water rafting n til now, i m still having headaches...... n still having diarrhoe...... n still having the vomitting feeling as my stomach is having digestion problems........

next weekend is my hse warming n i will take pictures n upload again..... so stay put..... me now wanna go to sleep d.... very tired n sleepy.....

06th of Oct 2008

though today i had class, audrey smsed me for dinner.... so we went to QBM to jln jln a bit n then eat dinner.... jz as audrey n i were walking towards jusco to buy bread, he called out at me rite in front of McD as he was putting up a camera stall there for a mini fair..... we spoke a bit n he kept apologising over yesterday's incident...... i cld not get angry viv him so i smiled instead n reminded him to alwix finish reading msges...... then i left oredi as audrey went off to the bakery......

now oni did i realise tat i never tot of doing a compatibility check for both of us...... so below is the result of the check....... overall its very gd.... no wonder i had such a feeling towards him...... too bad he is not up in the market..... haha!!!! enjoy reading though......


lisa is fortunate. lok's six reflects a great capacity for love, understanding, sacrifice and support. The six is, by nature, perhaps the most harmonious of all numbers.

But lisa is not the only one who is fortunate in this relationship. lok also has reasons for gratitude. lisa will protect and defend lok through thick and thin. The power of the one should not be underestimated. And to have that power and concentrated energy on your side, lok, can be a real blessing. lisa can make you feel safe and secure, since there is nothing wishy-washy about lisa. This is a combination that can last for a long time, without ever going through the kind of turbulence so many other relationships experience. But, as always, there is another side to the coin.

This aspect of lisa's chart reveals an inner force and a driven energy that doesn't slow down for anything. lisa doesn't put up with weakness and is demanding of others. Like a true leader, lisa needs to see courage and strength represented in others. lok reveals a different nature. At least in this aspect of the chart. lok is compromising, forgiving and sometimes sacrificing to a fault. lisa has to be careful not to see this as a weakness, since lok's ability to defend the weaknesses of others is alien to a number one. Likewise, lok may at times be disturbed to recognize a somewhat hard and unforgiving quality in lisa. lok should not confuse that with a lack of compassion. lisa is certainly capable of offering compassion, especially towards victims of circumstances, where fault or laziness, or cowardice is not an issue. Only when lisa feels someone is not pulling his or her weight, can lisa respond quite harshly.

The important thing for both lisa and lok is to understand that they are very different in the way they view human qualities. Their priorities differ. That's all. Therefore, if they are able to keep an eye open for their differences and value their respective good qualities, they will certainly enjoy a long life together.

04th Oct 2008

can't blieve tat in a week's time, i'll b flying off to Bali d...... can't wait to go...... but tis time, the xcitement is unlike the 1 i had when i was abt to leave for hk....... tat xcitement is like a kid being given her her fav teddy bear..... its like flying off to the sky..... tis time, its not like tat though i m looking forward to tis trip....... blieve tis, i m still thinking of going to hk..... really miss hk..... like i said, i really hope to go to hk n stay there for a mth n slowly enjoy..... but i dun hv tat much leave le...... sad.......

tis afternoon, klc smsed me asking me to follow her to his place to buy battery for her camera.so i agreed.... n i smsed him asking him if he will b at his shop...... n he called back telling me tat i m so 'lucky' cos he jz left his shop n tat he will oni b back around 6pm++....... so i asked klc n in the end dcided to wait for him...... we went at 6++ n waited for him as he not yet reach his shop..... i smsed him telling him tat i m waiting for him at his shop n he replied tat he will reach soon...... few moments later he called n asked where i was cos he reached his shop oredi n i turned around lo..... mana tau, i did not c him n asked him where is he lo..... he said he is at his shop n asked if i was in bj...... so i asked if he is in qbm..... yuan lai, he tot tat i was in qbm..... he apologized cos he read thru my sms again n found out tat he was wrong..... he read part of the msg n not the other part which i told him i was in bj's shop...... haha!!!! shows how tak ada jodoh lo both of us...... i sum more tot can finally c him d cos when he came on tues to collect chq book, i did not hv the time to speak viv him........ haih..... too bad la......

n.... congratulations to one of my best 'chi mui', owl on his passing of CCP.... finally pass oredi.... so now got more leave left d lo... cos previously, his leave is mostly kept for his exams n study..... now he is finally free.... but tis idiot normally got leave oso dun wan come back pg wan...... alwiz say tat he is very bz which i understand..... haih.... sum more phone oso lau beh d..... kept auto shut down n never ring..... i msged n called him a few times but he said he did not receive anything at all....... his phone really can throw into the sea d...... now helping him look around for phones..... but tis guy quite yim chim oso lo..... LOLX.......

02nd Oct 2008

i noe tat its been a week d since i last update my blog n plus, i noe how to scold my best fren for not updating but myself now oni wan to update..... pai seh pai seh..... end of last blog, i wrote tat i smsed sum1 on his bday... well, he replied at 1.10pm his bday n said "tq.... treat me gd one.... when i c u next time" haha!! n i replied "ok"....

20th Sept 2008

next up is my outing viv my colls n auditors on sat, 20th sept.... we went oriental tat day for karaoke til 9pm n then head to New World Park for dinner at Nyonya Cafe..... then after tat went to Mois clubbing..... actually i was suppose to go home at 1.30pm n kynor is suppose to fetch me home but when the time came, he din say a word plus the mood was js starting to go high so we stayed on.... n when audrey came viv her fren, 198 (our nickname for her fren), 198 asked me "i tot tomolo u r travelling to kl to attend course. y r u still standing here at 2.30am?" i smiled n replied "cos my driver dun wan to go back yet..." n he asked if need him to fetch me back or not cos i travelling the next day.... but i pai seh to follow his car lo cos he drove a 2-door car n plus he fetch audrey wan wor.... i pai seh to b the spotlight in the car lo..... so i said "it's ok..... i wait for my driver la.... thanks for offering though"..... then 198 went to grab drinks for himself n audrey n then start to ask me to drink..... mz b he saw tat my glass is still full cos YSL kept filing up my glass..... then at last when i finished my drink, he said tat next round when i m not travellig the next day then oni go out again n he will treat me drinks again...... i really salute him n audrey lo...... when they came to Mois, they had oredi been to 3 pubs d!!! n yet they can still drink!!! salute both of them....

anyway, finally left Mois at 3.30am on 21st Sept 2008 n reached home at 4am!!!! by the time i went to sleep, its oredi 4.30am n i woke up at 8.30am!!!!! n then left for kl.... the whole journey there, i called almost everybody who went clubbing the nite b4 n made them tok to me cos i cld not sleep on the bus esp kynor...... if not bcos of him, i wld hv reach home at 2am n slept by 2.30am...... haih..... anyway, i safely reach bangi n attended my 2days course n came back pg.......

26th Sept 2008

finally we got to the last day of housing the 4 auditors under our roof.... n i blieve a few of us built a gd rapport viv them..... n those few will miss them esp after 27th Sept when they finally leave for home.... today, OYL, NWT, kynor, myself n kenneth (one of the auditors) went to teluk kumbar for seafood dinner n then head to Batu Feringghi's Sunset Bar for afters..... its a beautiful place..... really beautiful..... the bar is situated at the beach so u can jz stroll along the beach n feel the breeze of the sea..... its really nice..... til now, i m still thinking of it....

27th Sept 2008

met up viv the 4 auditors for dim sum b4 sending them off...... the head to ms voon's hse for laksa....... today i slept the most cos 2hrs after i reach home at 6++pm, i went to bed n slept til the next morning at 7.30am n got ready for class....

17th of Sept 2008

well..... tis blog was supposed to b written yesterday but i had dinner n then came home late.... plus i had a very bad headache when i reached home so i ended up going to bed instead..... early yesterday morning, i was 'treated to coffee' by my abm n she was very hurtful viv her words tat i was very very unhappy after tat..... i went back to my table n continued my job but ivy noticed the change in my mood n asked me..... i told her tat i was very unhappy cos my abm's words was very hurtful n it so happened tat, mr lok, who was at ygl's counter turned n saw me very unhappily 'nagging' to ivy, came to my table n asked "wat happen to u? u looked so sad.... wat r nagging abt?".... i dun noe if i shd laughed or not cos he actually noticed my difference of mood..... i replied "ya lo.... very sad cos i was being scolded til kau huet lam tau ma.... so ma very sad lo...." then he started to make light jokes to make me happy.... he jokingly asked me to go over to his co n work n he will give me double salary fr wat i earned now..... n i jokingly replied him ok, i shall move over immediately..... then i asked him bout his bday celebration which is on the 18th of Sept n he shockingly asked how i knew his bdate..... so i ma say lo "aiyo.... u everytime come take chq book fr me n write ur ic no, u think i blind wan meh......" then he jokingly said "like tat hor.... then where is my present?" then we started laughing...... i asked if his gf will celebrating viv him n he answered "i dun hv gf wor.... waiting for u to celebrate viv me lo" so i said "u lying ar..... jz went travelling a few mths back nia n now u say no gf.... lying to me ar" n he kept insisting tat he got no gf..... n then said tat he hv to work on his bday sum more how to celebrate wor......

everytime when i m sad, he will alwix b there wan..... previously, jz by looking at him makes me very happy..... sad oso mood oso gets better...... n yesterday, he even joked to make me happy..... guy like tis really hard to find...... but then again, gd things will never happen to me wan..... even he oso is oredi blonged to d..... haih.... sad...... but then frens oso ok d...... now i m thinking if i shd msg him a bday greeting...... dun noe wat he think hor.... midnite wor..... n in the end, i sent....... jz sent..... nth wan ma hor..... normal bday wish fr a fren nia ma..... he sure receive a lot of fren's wishes wan la hor..... anyway, my motive of staying up so late is to send tis sms n update tis blog..... so i think i can go n sleep d..... i'll update more tomolo if i hv the time cos i still hv a lot tat i hvnt said......

15th Sept 2008

well...... like i said, the auditors r here n oredi xpected tat i will tied down by them...... infact, not oni did they bother me viv lots of things to look for, tis is the time when my abm had the chance to scold me more.... the 4th day they were here, she intercom n screamed on the phone to go bhind n settle the handover case for the auditor...... screamed!!! then small little things nia, she will start to scold tat we din do tis, din do tat...... i kena a lot d..... my partner oso...... tis is the 1st time my partner n i met viv auditors n we oredi discussed tis over d to take tis as a lesson to learn fr our mistakes...... at least after tis audit, we will noe wat we did wrong n wat we did not do so tat we wun repeat the same thing the next audit...... but tis abm of ours does not think tis way..... she kept comparing us viv the previous partnership....... imagine tis... the previous partnership got 3 yrs of xperience together..... myself n my partner? 1 yr pun tak cukup...... infact everything still new to my partner n everything dpend on me more...... how to compare to them?

frankly, dun wan to say nia, my partner oso very stubborn wan...... told her to study her manual, or do things tis way.... she will never do tat..... then when ppl ask, she will say i din tell..... there was once tat she insisted i did not teach her rite in front of my abm n my abm scolded me for nth..... so after tat, dun noe luckily or not, i remembered wat happened tat i tot her n said it to her face bout the case rite in front of my abm oso... then oni she said "oh ya..... baru i ingat....." u c la!!!! i oredi kena for nth d....... infact, i was so afraid she might do or say the wrong thing in front of the auditors tat i kept reminding her.... she really c auditors as a light thing, nth to worry abt thing...... guess wat... i told her fr the 1st day tat if auditors every come, we mz do lunch break balancing everyday..... n when i did n asked to initial on it, she said "u tinggal dulu, nanti i sign".... it so happened tat one of the days when our side is light n she did the balancing viv me sign on the spot, one of the auditors, chris, came to ask for the balancing sheet.... when i came back fr lunch, she told "nasib baik ada buat"..... told so many times til i oso bored or telling d n yet she din wan to do..... tis time, luckily got do..... if not, i sure kena again......

previously told her to change lock during lunchbreak, but she dun think its a big deal n tat i m oni making a big fuss over it nia...... TODAY, kenneth the auditor came to her when i was out n asked her to open the lock for him cos he wans to check the box...... luckily, i changed the lock....... when i came back fr lunch n she related the case to me n then said "nasib baik ada tukar tadi"...... told her so many times til i oso no strength d but she dun take it as a big deal...... kek khi lo......

anyway, enuff of the my partner d.... i can say a lot bout her wan cos she really kek si wa wan...... 1 roll of cloth oso not enuff to cover all her things...... i got to noe kenneth quite well on the 1st day i went back to work n lead to my officers n sum colls tot tat i knew him even b4 he came to our branch..... truth is, tat is the 1st day i noe him..... hahaha!!!! tis wed, we will b going to karaoke together viv the 3 other auditors n sum colls as well...... tis batch of auditors r very young.... the eldest being as old as i m n chris n kenneth is a yr younger than me...... the other i dun noe cos never talk to her b4..... haih.... now so sleepy..... for the past 8days i did not sleep enuff..... which lead me to slight fever on sat n sun nite after i finished class.... anyway, now i wan to go oink oink d..... if not, tomolo i will b very short tempered d..... hahaha!!!!