hurt tat will never end but hoped tat it will end

sumtimes i dun understand wat actually goes in the head of his.... 2yrs ago when it started, he asked for a chance for him to care for me the rest of my life n i agreed but now viv just a reason tat he no longer can provide for like he can do previously, he asking me to leave him! n he used to tell me how much he loved me forever n ever n never change but now he is telling me tat he dun need love now! then wat was i? where do i stand? did he ever tot of tat? did he ever tot tat tis is hurtful? i m not as materialistic as most gals can b n do not ask for much just his love n his assurance tat i m his..... but i guess i m oni hurting myself going on like tat cos he will never care to understand my feelings n tots now tat he 'dun need love now' n 'kenot provide for me' anymore.......

i just wish i cld let go damn long ago so tat i dun feel tis pain now. infact i got so damn fed up n told him 'if going on is so hard then break!' n he said 'gd idea! haha! u mz b joking!' i really dun understand him anymore. how, when he cld say tat to me so many times n yet we were still together cos i din wan to let go, but when i said tat, he take it as though i was joking? wat is he trying to do? really sad tat it has to b tis way. mayb letting go is the best thing tat i shd do to free myself from all tis pain n yet he din wan to. was i not serious enuff? or did he not understand the meaning of break?

i had a feeling tat he will never learn to love despite being previously attached to his x for 8yrs n then me for 2yrs. he will never grow up in his thinking in his relationship. if i m a materialistic gal, i wld not hv chosen him at all 2 yrs ago cos i had a better choice then n tis other guy pampers me very much. watever tat i wanted or said tat i like, tat particular thing will appear at my doorsteps without fail even if it's an xtremely hard to get cd, but he went all the way to get it for me! if i had chosen the other guy, now i wld b the luckiest gal among my frens n wld b happier. but i did not n m not, tats y i m hurting inside!

i hv tried all my best hoping tat all tis problems will clear off n he n i wld then get back together again like it used to b but i guess all my efforts went down the drains! there's nothing i can say now xcept hope i cld stand up stronger n let go of tis all. viv tis i attach a lyrics tat really describe my feelings now.

Only Love by Trademark

2am and the rain is falling
Here we are at the crossroads once again
You're telling me you're so confused
You can't make up your mind
Is this meant to be
You're asking me

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking
Face to face and a thousand miles apart
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain
If we give enough
If we learn to trust

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

I know if I could find the words
To touch you deep inside
You'll give my dreams just one more chance
To let this be our last goodbye

But only love can stay
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i just play my part
Pray you'll have a change of heart
But i can make you see it through
That's something only love can do

That's something only love can do