30th Dec 2008 - Birthday

well.... its my bday..... n it went jz like tat viv nth much...... jz when i tot he wld forget my bday, he called me tis evening ard 6++ n wished me n spoke to me awhile..... i asked him to join me for dinner but he cld not make it cos he had jz oni came back fr kl..... instead he promised to take for either lunch or dinner.... i tot he wld forget, never tot.........we shall if today next yr, he will still remember.... haha!!!..... to all my frens, thanks for all ur presents n wishes.... oh ya! the other person whom i tot wld not remember my bday was 'gwg' n i had a surprised last midnite when i received his sms rite on the dot viv his wishes for me...... thank, gwg.....

today, dear told me a gd news...... chris got us 3 tix for S.H.E.'s concert tis weekend at AutoCity.... sum more its VIP seatings..... so happy lo..... me wanna go take pic viv Ella d...... yea yea...... i oso hope tat Fahrenheit is the guest performer so tat i can take pic viv my Wu Chun..... tomolo, Bosco is coming to qbm but i guess by the time i finish work n start to make my way there, i will b standing way bhind n can oni c him like an ant nia...... haih..... nwt was non-stop asking me to join her clubbing tomolo nite but i dun even hv the mood for it..... clubbing was never my favourite..... i wld prefer lazing by the coffee shop like mamak's or starbucks or coffee bean etcs...... tats more like me...... or either stay at home to catch dramas...... clubbing is a no-go for me..... so most prob tomolo nite, i will either b at home watching Super Trio Show or out viv frens for drinks..... but it will dpend on my mood......

20th of December 2008

i jz wanna say tat i miss him n i cant help thinking of him.... really dun noe y but its been like tis since he went to NZ... everynite b4 i turn in to sleep, i will definately think of him... tis few days, aside fr thinking of him, other things happened as well.... my mum was admitted to LGH for viral fever for a nite on thurs n i was on CL on fri..... dear came to visit my mum at hospital during lunch on fri jz moments b4 my mum was being discharged.... then later tat nite, went to darling's house for dinner viv the rest of my colls...... n after parking my car, i walked over to the guard hse n when passing thru chou yang, i saw him viv a gal hving dinner n he was listening very attentively to wat the gal was tokking abt..... but he din c me..... i did tot of smsing him wan but i did not..... she was the gal i saw 2 mths ago in bj when i was there buying rings viv 5 musketeers.... one of his suppliers.....

CNY is jz ard the corner n i m still looking for skirts/dresses..... but b4 CNY, i gotta celebrate 1st.... very happy tat my bestest frens r back to celebrate viv me..... thank u very much!!! too bad he cld not join me cos he going to kl to attend wedding.... but there is still 30th.... hope he will make it.... if not....

17th December 2008

frankly, i wasnt on a very gd mood tis past few days.... dun noe y oso..... on monday, my partner was on CL as her daughter was admitted n the whole day i was very very busy..... dun noe y tat day there was so many customers..... n i was particularly irritated by 1 stupid customer over sumthing tat was not my fault at all.... infact, wat i did was to help her so tat she open the account n i can settle her n proceed viv the next person cos there was a long queue for CSR!!! but tis bloody idiot blamed me for spoiling her ic jz bcos i used eraser to rub on the chip!!! FOR GOD DAMN SAKE!!!! I WAS TRYING TO RUB IN ORDER FOR MY KRR TO READ THE INFO SO TAT I CAN PROCEED VIV OPENING HER N SETTLE HER OFF N PROCEED VIV THE NEXT NO!!!! i ended up having war of words viv tat bloody idiot aunty over the rubbing of chip does not spoil the chip!!!! frankly, I M VERY VERY IRRITATED N GETTING RUDER VIV EACH WORDS TAT I SAID TO HER!!! then ivy who heard all of tis came to my rescue n explained to tat idiot aunty the scientific way of how the O2 n water n sun will hv effect on metal things n etc.... i wanted to laugh but i was too irritated to do tat...

and, mr lok came oso but it did nth to make my mood better.... mz hv been tat i woke up on the wrong side of the bed... he came when i was very very bz n he wanted to talk but i was not available to talk and so he left.....

today, he came and i was quite free as business is slow moving at branch... so he n i had sum time to yak.... but he looked very tired n off colour n not happy like tat n i wondered y.... i asked him y he looked like tis but jz as he started viv his reply to me, 1 aunty came n stood at my table n started tokking n he change his reply.... he replied tat he did not sleep well last nite but he kept looking at the aunty n looked irritated tat she stood at my desk.... so after awhile, he went off..... n oso, i finally built up enuff courage to invite him for my bday next weekend but unfortunately he cld not make it cos he is due to b at his fren's wedding in kl tat very weekend.... so i told him to join me for dinner on tues n he said ok..... tis got me on the best of my mood for the rest of my day.... haha!!!! hopefully he dun forget lo..... abo sure kek si wa wan....

10th of December 2008 - happy day

today is a happy day for me.... no doubt i m very bz as my partner is on leave tis whole week but i still felt happy today.... yesterday was not tat happy.... there was 1 crazy aunty ,whom hv been coming to bank since a few mths ago jz to find fault viv me, came AGAIN yesterday n AGAIN found fault viv me.... the moment the door opened, she marches in to my desk n shouted at me... WTF!!!! it was not my fault afterall cos i oredi advised her not to do the pymt last mth but she insisted n now our card ctr debited her account once more for the same pymt n she came to cari pasal.... she shouted so loudly tat the whole banking hall was very quiet n everyone was looking at me for she was screaming at me..... plus, she kept saying tat we r very 'mou yam kong' for bullying an old lady like her n tat she is an educated person n tat she is a respectable figure cos she is the Pengarah Jabatan Kesihatan.... lagi WTF!!!! if u r an educated person, u dun come barging into the bank n screaming at the staff for a fault tat is obviously not her fault. mayb she is educated but not civilised kut.... haih.... after screaming at me, she went off to the counter to renew her FD n while waiting for the counter staff, she came back to my desk when i hv other customers n apologised to me for screaming jz now!!!! u say la.... tis is CIVILISATION???

n due to tat crazy lady, i was pretty much hoping tat mr lok wld come to brighten up my day but he did not turn up.... mayb he is very very bz....

anyway, jz when i din think he wld come today, he did.... n i saw him when he was walking into the bank viv earphone most probably listening to mp3 kua.... n i was smiling non-stop d n started to lose concentration at wat i m doing d..... haih..... its been more than a week since i last saw him n i really do miss him..... y? y like tat? haih..... really dun understand y i like him so much.... the sight of him brings peace to my inner self.... but i often stumble when i talk to him.... anyway, after writing his pay-in slip, he came to my desk n stood nearby to jz yak viv me but i was quite bz as i hv a customer.... so i tot if i cld oni jz expedite the process n then send the customer off sooner, then he n i can really tok d lo.... mana tau, customers was never ending.... one after another took the queue n we both ended up viv no chance of yakking.....

guess wat, he said to me tat its been more a week since he last saw me n tat i m alwix bz tat i hv no time to yak to him.... i tot he din realise tat.... i tot i m the oni 1 who actually felt tis way.... but seeing him is oredi very gd for me d.... at least it kept me in a very gd mood for the rest of the day..... if oni we can c each other everyday....... crossing fingers, praying hard, hoping tat he n i can do tat but how? he is attached oredi..... haih................

meaningful quote

was reading thru my email n came across tis meaningful quote... enjoy...


A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: 'I am blind, please help.' There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words. Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy. That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognized his footsteps and asked, 'Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?'

The man said, 'I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.' What he had written was: 'Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.' Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing? Of course both signs told people the boy was blind. But the first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective? Think differently and positively.

When life gives you a 100 reasons to cry, show life that you have 1000 reasons to smile. Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear. Keep the faith and drop the fear. The most beautiful thing is to see a person smiling...And even more beautiful is, knowing that you are the reason behind it!!!

28th November 2008 - SUFFOCATION OF LIFE!!!

i felt so suffocated by my life.... y does everything hv to b tis way in my life? y never gd things ever happen to me? y? y? Y? i often asked myself tat n never noeing y.... if oni i can jz loosen myself away fr tis family, wldn't it b gd? if oni i can leave tis world, wldn't it b nicer? if oni, if oni, IF ONI.... tats all tat i can think of but never realising any of it..... if gd things never will come my way, so dear god, y dun u jz let me go? those who died during the horrific attacks in Mumbai never ask for tis, y i hv to go thru all tis? y? y? Y? i kept asking myself..... i beg u dear god to let me leave.... leave tis life which is full of sadness.....

26th November 2008 - an extremely happy day

the title says it all...... today is infact the happiest day of the week..... he came back fr holidays n i knew it tat he will definately come to c me on monday....... n he was in a jovial mood n was non-stop tokking to me n smiling as well..... he is jz gorgeous..... u noe, when he came, i had a customer n was explaining info.... the moment i saw him at the background, i was blank..... out of sudden, i forgot wat i wan to explain n jz went blanco.... i really dun noe wat got into me then..... i was jz too happy for words..... is it bcos i had guessed correctly? is it bcos i hoped so much to c him n he turned up? i really dun noe....

anyway, he was pretty talkative compared to 2 weeks ago when he asked to lunch viv him...... he asked if he got darker n joked tat he had tanned his bdy as well.... when i told him tat AUD forex drop to 2.2 last fri n he jokingly scolded me 'y u never call me?'.... i replied 'i din noe when u r coming back ma, u din tell me ma... u tell me lo where were u btw 10 am to 12pm?'. he said 'oh! i was on the plane' n i replied 'so how la m i suppose to call u? u wan to ask the pilot to throw u down fr the sky is it?' n he kept quiet for awhile n said 'ok lo.... sorry le..... anyway i bought u souvenier, tomolo bring to u'... then ivy was saying sth else which made me suddenly say 'i noe d, u come bank to c her wan leh' (pointing to ygl) n he kept quiet n stared at me wanting to say sth but kept quiet.... then i repeated the sentence til he kenot tahan wat i said n forcefully agreed but his xpression was diff.... then after tat he left but promised to come back to give me my souvenier....

frankly, i never tot tat he wld buy me souvenier at all.... afterall i was not very very close to him as compared to the 2 ladies i saw last mth during the deepavali week at BJC...... but i felt very happy cos he actually tot of me when buying souvenier..... ppl say 'out of sight, out of mind' but not to him n myself.... out of sight, the more i miss him..... i dun noe bout him la bout tis, but i really do miss him.... kept thinking of him for the past 2 weeks.... sth mz b very wrong viv me d.... really wrong..... i noe tat he is not in the market n yet i jz like him.... haih......

today, i had a very strong feeling tat he will go to office to look for me... but i din dare to msg him.... so i went out to renew my rd tax n pay sum credit cards n then head to bj for my late lunch at mcd hoping to catch a glimpse of him there but he was not there..... so after i fetched my bro n mum home, i head out to hv dinner viv oyi as promised n then met up viv my colls at old town, qbm..... tis is where the 2nd part of my story starts....

jz as i was going down the escalator to the basement, he saw me n vice versa.... he was at his qbm shop.... the moment he saw me, he lit up n smiled to me... but he had a customer, so after smiling to me, he continued viv his conversation.... so i walked over to my colls table which is rite in front of his shop n sat down.... then i ordered my drink n started tokking to my colls while looking at his shop for him until my colls noticed n started to tease me..... then i stopped looking n turned back to them... n suddenly, i felt his presence rite bside me n sat down in front of me..... then he started tokking to me n my colls.... at 1 point, my colls started to speak while he wanted to tell me sth n then later on he jz kept quiet.... god.... i felt like dying man.... how can tis b happening? haih.......

after awhile, he suddenly stood up n shifted his seat to my side n then jz sat bside me..... i was shocked!!! then after awhile, he had to leave n he took the receipt vivout us noticing n went off to the cashier.... it was not until he asked if there is anything else we wanted tat we realised tat.... n my colls asked me to go n take the receipt back fr him.... i went n demanded him to return me the receipt but he insist tat he pay.... so i asked the cashier to return to me but the cashier actually stood by his side n said 'so sorry.... tis boss say he wans to pay so he will pay'.... kek si wa nia.... then he told me tat the cashier noes him n tat he will listen to him wan n tat its oni 'beberapa puluh' so he will jz treat us all n tat its a 'kin min lai' for the rest of my colls wor....... so i went back to the table n told them wat happened n they thank him n jokingly said tat he shd treat us better than tis for a 'kin min lai' n he replied 'nth wan la.... next time i marry time, then treat u all lo'... WALAUEH!!!!!! marry wor!!!!! kek si wa liao...... my glass heart broken again.... haih...........

nothing to comment d.... really kek si d..... but i oredi knew tat he is blonged so shd not think so much d...... haih..... i knew tat n kept reminding myself tat so tat i wun go overboard.... i really dun noe wat he has tat had such an attraction to me..... really dun noe wat makes me so drawn to him...... haih......... hopefully tomolo he wun go to office to find me la.... i m on leave tomolo as well.... then fri working n then sat n sun rest kau kau then work 2 more days n i m off to kl d to shop viv ysl n owl...... wahahahaha!!!!! but hv to b back by 6th cos got wedding dinners to attend!!! sat is my sch mate's wedding dinner, sun is my new abm's wedding dinner in gurun, kedah n then mon is my customer's temple's dinner...... eat eat eat non-stop nia..... sure fat d..... mz go excercise more d to burn more fat..... abo..... nobody wans me d..... oredi nobody wan sum more grow fatter, lagi nobody wans..... haih.............